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summer nights - tyson jost and mat barzal

a/n: I have never had a threesome so if it seems awkward that’s why don’t yell at me if these positions are not possible I literally had to do boat recon last weekend to see if this was even plausible lmao just imagine it is if it isn’t ok thx xox

word count: 5.5k

warnings (18+): smut (+ unprotected sex), threesome, eiffel-towering (if that’s even a thing that’s possible), oral (f+m receiving), alcohol

summary: I’m a filthy whore that’s going to hell this is all porn no plot

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The chilled breeze stirred you from your restless sleep, rustling the curtains hanging over the window. The clock on the bedside table read 3:08am, and you let out a disgruntled huff and threw back the duvet. Hours of tossing and turning in bed, and you had nothing to show for it. Sleep was obviously not coming for you, so you slipped on a bikini and large sweatshirt as another idea popped into your head.

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#mbarzal #tjost #........................ #WHEW #like........... #WHEW?????? #I'm in crisis over here ok

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My dream is to write That One Fic that a whole fandom knows

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Here’s to the fanfic writers who can only write sporadically.

Here’s the writers who can’t output enough to keep up with the most popular writers.

Here’s to the writers writing even though they get no feedback.

Here’s to the writers who somehow manage to scrape together a little inspiration and a lot of hard work to write that story they know nearly no one will read.

Here’s to the creators who keep going even when it’ feels like screaming into an empty void.

You’re inspiration, and I don’t know how you do it.

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I forgot that I had named a new WIP “If bad, why sexy?” when I started it this morning, now I’m having a good laugh.

#pls do not ask me what fandoms I’m writing for now bc I’m going off the deep end with things #but still maintaining that any writing is good writing

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One of my cohort members sent me this today and it made me all soft. 

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do you have like a none nsfw account?

I do! @j0shanderson is my url there 🤗

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a playlist for an obscure, niche fic that you're writing sometimes can just be so damn personal.

#did I hurt my own feelings with this?? #yes #I really didn't need to go so hard with this playlist

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do you ever write something that you love so much that you worry you may destroy your love for it if you continue???

#that's where i'm at with literally EVERYTHING

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mr. laine, what was that wrist flick???

#cbj lb

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on one hand there’s the fic i should be writing, on other there is the fic i want to write… and then there’s me, not writing anything.

#😌😌😌😌😌

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On Writing for Yourself and Not for Notes

AKA How to Enjoy Writing for the Sake of it

Get off social media! I know it’s tempting to blabber on about a WIP to get those hella cool notes, but doing so only reinforces that writing’s only fun if it gets you attention. We all need that boost now and again, but too much of it will whittle away your self-reliance. Close your laptop, leave your phone in a different room, and sit down with a notebook if possible and if you need to. You’ll get to know what enthralls you personally about your story.

Don’t write for an audience for now. Tumblr likes to do this thing where it says “blah blah blah X is problematic in media” and while it’s well-intentioned, internalizing too much of this can make you feel like you’re trying to write through a maze and constantly failing at it. Forget about your audience–you can flag and catch problematic stuff in edits after tossing it to the betas.

Remember what made thirteen-year-old you lose their mind? Yeah, write that. Once you’ve let go of writing for an audience, you won’t worry about being “cringey” anymore, and that’s when things start to get real good and real fun. You don’t have to show your writing to anyone, or even tell them you wrote it, so just go buckwild! Trust me, it’s so liberating.

Your inner critic is useful–but not now. Shut that bitch up! Your job when drafting is to make something. If you did that, you win, so your critic’s opinion is worth squat here. However, if you try to fight her {I always envision mine as some bitchy middle-aged woman lol} she’s just gonna get louder. So tell yourself you can be as critical of your writing as you want during edits. You’re not working for perfect, or even good right now. You’re working for existing.

Remember that this is a process. Companies like tumblr are investing a BUNCH of cash into getting you to stay glued to their platforms, and if you’re a creator this might manifest in your feeling like you need to live your creative life online. You don’t. But retraining your brain isn’t easy. Remember that divorcing yourself from the validation of online noise takes work and time and a lot of discomfort and redirecting, especially for folks like me who thrive on routine. And don’t discipline. Redirect. Negativity has no right to be in your creative space ♥️

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hello there! i loved ur hayes fanfic! are u going to continue it or is it done? big fan

I had planned to continue it for at least one more part, but my drive to write hockey fic has greatly diminished over the last few months 😭 I’d love to revisit it at some point, but can’t make any promises.

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SO, I JUST FOUND OUT AS I WAS VENTING TO MY OLD COWORKER ABOUT THE LAST GUY I HOOKED UP WITH, RHAT SHE K N O W S HIM!!!!!!

#??????

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I honestly feel like i’ve been doing some of the best writing of my life and i’m so sorry that none of it is for you wonderful angels 🥺

#I am drunk tbh i'm so sorry

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happy birthday to the guy who fucked me best me best then unfriended me on snapchat, then stopped watching insta story, but still follows me 😌

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this shit is up to 7k words already and still not done whoops, but truly, I’m just happy to do any writing at this point.

did I write 3400 words of a bucky barnes birthday fic from my desk today?? maybe so 😌

#I won’t be posting it here but I will post the link for anyone who wants it when it’s up!