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Just been through an incredibly traumatising week. I have so much to say. I got to see The Front Bottoms tonight with my best friend. We got to scream out all of our hurt, anger and happiness built up from the age of 16 to our favourite song. If we only knew back then what would happen to us... this was one of the most incredible experiences of my life. I wish I could verbalise it better. But these songs were what got us through so much in our teenage years. Like holy fuck I genuinely don't think we'd be alive if we didn't have those songs and each other to sing them with. Fucking wow. So many tortuously tragic and beautiful memories all connected to this song and this band. We finally got to experience our dream of seeing it live, right in front of us.

I didn't care about filming. I just had to have us (mainly me bc im closer to the camera) screaming out all of our pain to this song. Incredible.

Twin Size Mattress - The Front Bottoms, live at The Gov In Adelaide.

#the front bottoms #twin size mattress

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i believe you can always get back to yourself. you can always soften into being again. no matter how long you might be stuck in a pattern of unhappiness, of being jaded, of feeling guarded from the world in some way. there is always a path back. give yourself a chance to find it.

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I crochet my first sweater ((: I love it

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Osborne & Little The Decorated Room, 1988

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I'm so happy! I had such a tough day today. I started my own cleaning buisness and cleaned a very expensive huge house that took me 5 hours!!!! Then I was late for the other clean but luckily they were nice about it and I won't let it happen again. I also got another client!!! All up I have 7 clients now!! My back is sore but I'm getting fit again and even though today was pretty bad, I kept my head up and my partner helped me wash all my things ready for tomorrow's cleans, then we cuddles and ate noodles. I'm so lucky in this life. I'm so happy. I can do anything. And I've started a new trimester at school And I'm learning so much already so I'm gonna spend heaps of time in the studio to work on my projects. God I never thought I'd get to be this happy. Life is so good. Even when it's bad, it's great. I get to experience everything and learn from everything. I'm so happy (:

Amor Fati

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I am so grateful. I'm poor, and worried about a lot of things like living but I'm so grateful I have what I have right now. Had a not so good day but my man and I finished watching a really funny movie and I completely forgot about the emotional day I had. Always ending up in his arms. So safe. So happy. So grateful (:

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I can hear songs and understand how they're made instantly (: it is very cool and never takes me out of the moment. It brings me into it more

Getting a weird little hobby is actually so important bc it opens your eyes up to the world. You start crocheting or knitting, and how you see scarves and sweaters differently. You try identifying plants, now you’re seeing opposite and alternate leaf pattern. Bird watching? Every chirp draws attention and interest.

Get into weird little hobbies.

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Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

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constantly becoming a new version of myself is so exciting

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By Kate Truisi

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Romeo + Juliet (1996)

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Being a person who feels things deeply is exhausting