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"I think about how after a suicide people say things like, “Oh, I wish we had known. I wish he had said something.” But usually it isn’t that he never said anything but that he was always saying it, and that the saying turned into a drone, which had no meaning except exhaustion, which became the background of life. It’s not that we never knew, it’s that we always knew, and so it didn’t seem important." - Lisa Stevenson, Life Beside Itself: Imagining Care in the Canadian Arctic (2014)

#suicide #I'm so fucking sick of myself #It's all I've ever got to fucking say and I'm bored of it too #I don't do anything of value I don't add anything #All I do is whine about wanting to kill myself #Yet I'm still fucking alive #I mean idk I gave myself the deadline of my next birthday #But then I actually started feeling ok again for a bit #And that's just gone #It just doesn't get better #And even if it could I'm too tired at this point #Time to salvage it was 10 years ago now I just want the pain to stop

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Sometimes I want to write my fic, but I can’t because I have important things to do, so instead I scroll on tumblr for hours and do neither.

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Once again procrastinating by making memes instead of writing lol

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Writing in my head; Beautiful flowing sentences full of powerful phrases and witty dialogue.

Writing on my page: They did a thing and said some stuff. There was snark.

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please please please please reblog if you’re a writer and have at some point felt like your writing is getting worse. I need to know if I’m the only one who’s struggling with these thoughts

#Im hoping its bc distance means I can be more objective about older stuff #And I always hate whatever Im writing now #But yeesh

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you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy

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reblog to give the person you reblogged from the strength to complete The Task™

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#I used to hate being a woman #It was just being judged on things that weren't that important to me #And the things that were important to me weren't feminine #So they didn't 'count' #I like the analogy of 'Ok but you're a crap linedancer' I read years ago #So fuck does this resonate #Idk I've got my own gender stuff to sort through that I kinda frankly haven't even started on yet #So I rly appreciate the people who laid all the groundwork for that #Ty haha

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this guy is stuck in my head like a brain tumor

#pinguin

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born to write the beginning and ending, forced to write the middle part.

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WHY IS HE DOING THAT?!?

Why why why why?!?!?

#nygmobblepot #ed u whore

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Encases him in jello <3

#gotham #Oswald

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Right in the feels

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"you attract what you fear"

AHHHHHH A RICH BENEFACTOR WHO WILL FUND ALL MY WEIRD CREATIVE ENDEAVOURS NOOOOOO STAY AWAYYYY

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smiling means kindness :)

#gotham #nygmobblepot #stunning!

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I'm sure this is old news, but Oswald's notes are killing me, this petty bitch! The notes for Fish are no surprise, if a little teen serial killer-ish, and unfortunately I can't quite make out what Falcone's says, but Mayor James with the dunce hat saying "oink", Bullock's saying one thing to be replaced with the kill note, the newspaper photo of Bruce at his parents funeral with "cry baby Brucie". Its so catty. It's so unnecessary. Oswald, honey, c'mon now. And then Jim's label being "Stooge" with three exclamation marks because he's Dramatique like that and Barbara's labelled "lying slut." Gurl please, it's basically the Burn Book. Seriously, spot the difference.

#gotham #Oswald #He's so mean for no reason and I'm here for it