It kills me when Quentin says, “It’s a monster, I know, but it’s a monster with his face and eyes,” because – the point is well covered by “face,” everyone understands he’s saying that it’s hard to think about killing something that looks like Eliot. “And eyes” is so extraneous to the meaning of the sentence, and so revealingly intimate.
The monster looks like Eliot, and that’s upsetting.
The monster *looks at Quentin like Eliot did,* and that’s devastating.
Just got my recorded message from Hale in my email and I’m… wrecked. Sorry about the weird format, the original file was a little too big for tumblr. Anyway, here is Hale reading Eliot’s letter to Quentin from the book. If you need my I’ll just be over here Going Through It for the remainder of my life………
“who gets that kind of proof of concept?” - a quentin and eliot playlist [link]
// honest man - ben platt // a thousand years - christina perri // kiss the boy - keiynan lonsdale // turning page - sleeping at last // heaven - troye sivan // you to believe in - paradise fears // miss missing you - fall out boy // in case you don’t live forever - ben platt // holy - jake edwards // pink in the night - mitski // saturn - sleeping at last // take on the world - you me at six // sentiment - paradise fears // grow as we go - ben platt // ocean eyes - billie eilish //
like, the most compelling ships for me always stem out of one thing: the characters have a profound, ongoing effect on each other’s senses of selves. when they are apart, the characters’ actions are still affected by each other. the way they approach the world changes because of the other.
which is this deeply Austenian view of ideal romantic relationships as mechanisms by which we come to know ourselves better and become better versions of ourselves. good romance, for me, is always tied in with a sense of self-actualization, and the way in which a beloved partner allows a person to know themselves better.
crack open a cold and broken hallelujah for all the fandoms whose top kudoed ao3 pages are all tagged Time Travel or Everybody Lives/Nobody Dies or Both