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My therapist said I need to be kinder to myself and less critical of when I can't do things

So even though I'm >:( about the fact that I'm now too exhausted to stream properly even though i scheduled it

i will. give myself a break and let me rest. >:l

#she's actually very good #i wish you got more than a maximum of 6 sessions with a therapist but i will take what i can get #puri rambles

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Glorious Day | 初音ミク Eve

#miku my beloved #gif #vocaloid #not vtubing

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Do you have any advice or suggestions for your audience? Any input on how we, the insomnyacs, can improve ourselves both on and off stream?

I honestly don't really think there's a 'one answer fits all' sort of reply! As a collective audience, I think the insomnyacs are very supportive of me, mostly understand where my comfort zone lies, and overall I feel very positively about my chatters and lurkers.

So most of the advice I would say is probably just stuff that could apply to a lot of people including myself!

So the thing that I've been telling myself recently is: I need to try and make progress towards my goals, even if it's very slow progress, even if it's only here and there, especially since I'm the kind of person who gets overwhelmed easily. But as long as I can look back and see that I've moved forward, that's a positive!

#sorry if this isn't really like... a good answer! #it's hard to know how to tell people to improve themselves especially since i'm also learning how to try and improve myself #i think we just gotta do the best we can with our circumstances... #puri rambles #i dont really have an answer like: 'i need chat to be more [blank!]' or 'i want chat to stop doing [blank!]' #because i dont think there's anything that people are doing as a whole that i dont like #of course there are occasional comments that i'm like hm. but theyre individuals that i delete/talk to them after stream/discourage/etc #but honestly even that is rare so.

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『クライマキナ／CRYMACHINA』作中楽曲MV「XTrinity」

#game #crymachina #gif #not vtubing

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the sun is rising but im not done 👁-👁

#my eyes hurt #its a good thing i dont have stream tomorrow/today.

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yeah okay i'll try and finish one

#shout out to numbers (who is not on this website) for playing this game so i learnt that the ost kinda slaps and then #have now been listening to this song on loop for. a long time.

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i feel very optimistic for the future.

my brain still doesn't make it very easy, but i know things will be good. my life has improved so much since 2020. i believe in the upwards momentum!!!

i'm gonna make it!!!

#puri rambles

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they upped the price of the lessons a bit since i added it to throne but that can count as my contribution =w=;;

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i spent all day very legally downloading music and i currently have no sense of time or existence but i know i must stream tomorrow

#i'm so glad i scheduled pokemon and not starcraft for monday #i do NOT have the braincells for starcraft right now #which is weird to say since pokemon is technically actually PVP so is technically. #less easy? more easy but more difficult #like... more likely to lose but easier #okay listen i dont make the rules my brain does i just get dragged along by it #goooood night

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yippee

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i know that "unalive" is part of larger worrying trend of self censorship but if you really are in a situtation where you have to avoid the words "die" or "kill" the english language already has centuries worth of much better euphemisms. the iconic and perennial "six feet under"? the lovely imagery of "pushing up daisies"? "shuffle off this mortal coil"????? literally anything from the monty python dead parrot bit???? you have so many options. please try to be more creative at least

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i've been spending all day listening to game soundtracks in order to try and have some new material to add to my art stream playlist but sometimes after 40 songs by the same composer you can't tell if they're similar, the same, simply have leitmotifs or if you're losing your mind

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stabs my tablet pen into my desk like someone stabbing a dagger into a map

i know what i'm going to do for the reveal of the half-true form.

it's not going to be an in depth lore thing because i still have a very specific ideal for that that i can't do but. but. something.

i have a while though (until the half-form model is done)

#puri rambles

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I wonder if I should do anything when I reach 1k twitter followers...

I don't really like the platform very much so it's surprising to me that I've managed to get that far there...

#puri rambles

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i also want to do a karaoke stream but it's nearly 2am >:(

i want to do more covers.

#puri rambles

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i want to do more covers.

#i do have something i need to record but i'm nervous because there are other people counting on me #and then for my own solo projects... #it's hard to know what is best to do now (pre-singing lessons) and what i want to wait until after to do #because after all it all costs money to get mixed and get art made #even if i can make VERY simple MVs myself #(like just lyrics stuff like i made the 'this is home' mv) #sighs wistfully

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I didn't really like the song 'Bling‐Bang‐Bang‐Born' when I first heard it but for some reason it's grown on me a lot

#mostly just the chorus but the whole song is kind of a vibe #even if it's not really. my normal vibe #puri rambles