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Motivation is overrated. No amount of motivation would’ve gotten me through hours of my accounting textbook. No “vision” is enough to keep me awake til the crack of dawn on an essay that I don’t even know if the professor will check. Discipline is what determines how far you go. On those days when your cute little list of #goals and vision of yourself 5 years from now aren’t enough, discipline will pull you out of bed and get you to work. I wish I knew this in high school because I thought I couldn’t work without motivation. I wasted so much time trying to find purpose before I realized that working now, albeit blindly, will ensure that I could chase any purpose I discover in the future. Sure, motivation is crucial, but it’s not consistent. It’s not reliable. You can only rely on yourself and your grit. 

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I have this strange feeling that I’m not myself anymore. It’s hard to put into words, but I guess it’s like I was fast asleep, and someone came, disassembled me, and hurriedly put me back together again. That sort of feeling.

Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart (via ohteenscanrelate)

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There will always be a part of me that is dirty and sloppy, but I like that, just like all the other parts of myself.

Matthew Quick, The Silver Linings Playbook (via the-silver-linings-playbook)

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"But I still need to read it."

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Isle of Skye in the northern part of Scotland - The most breathtaking scenery I have ever seen. I spent three days on a trip there. It was absolutely amazing. The beauty was too much for my humble eyes. 

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You can tell me when it’s over, if the high was worth the pain.

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they’ll tell you I’m insane

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Orchid and Fern and Tillandsia in my new house at Shizuoka, Japan.

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I can’t decide what my next orchid species should be

My late night thoughts (via not-a-city-girl92)

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