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“Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that’s real power.”

— Clint Eastwood

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Claudia Rankine, from “Some years there exists a wanting to escape...”, Citizen

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Be grateful for  every single stage of life. Especially the ones  that break you open.

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LOVE taking my glasses off after a long day. Hell yes...watercolors.

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“Just for the record darling, not all positive change feels positive in the beginning.”

— S.C. Lourie

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Daily Dylan 2022 - 030

By Ken Regan

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Embracing dark femininity with Lilith

Lilith stems from hebrew myth. She is sometimes referred to as a demon or biblical Adam’s first wife

menstrual cycle : you cannot connect to goddess energy without recognizing & surrendering to the inevitability of your period. i always laugh at the part of my goddess affirmations when it says “i surrender to the flow” lmao because it’s just so corny to me. but when you think about how potent menstrual energy is, it starts to make sense. tell a man you’re on your period and he goes thru a myriad of emotions ranging from disgust, curiosity, to an even more intense arousal than normal (because now he can’t have you, in most cases at least). i want to start reshaping how i look at my period, how i treat myself on my period, how i choose to act and dress and move. reject the idea of PMS, reject the idea that i become more irritable or bitchy. i’m literally shedding my skin, it’s a chance for rebirth, it’s a chance to become lighter (the light feeling after a really good cry), a time to purge (push bad skin to the surface). reframe the entire phase in your mind.

intuition : lilith has been labeled “rebellious” but she truly just questions the status quo, and searches for understanding beyond what the powers that be tell her to be gospel. she listens to her own inner voice. i think that’s why she’s become so demonized by men, in the same way that femininity became demonized by so many cultures throughout history. she doesn’t run from darkness, she befriends it in order to better understand it & therefore better understand herself. she trusts her gut, and listens to that no matter what the rules are. always trust your feelings. if your feelings tell you to do something, sit for a moment and decide what the thought of that action conjures up. if it’s anxiety, then don’t proceed. if it’s calm and collected energy, do it.

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Angela Lane.

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me: *blows kiss to mars*

me: for ziggy

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savršen kadar✨

narandžasta pozadina

sivo svetlo sa balkona

i on

među senkama

njegove ruke

u beskraju

njegovi prsti

miluju korice knjige

vatrene crne trepavice

dve gitare pored njega

uzdišu kad dodirne njihov vrat

i želim da pamtim

i želim da ovaj trenutak

bude onaj u kom ću

večeras utonuti u san

on to ne zna

i gleda me krišom

dok ovo pišem

ni ne sluteći

ni ne sluteći.

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odvedi me na obalu Alžira

da se kupam u nekoj rimskoj fontani

u vreloj letnjoj noći

da upoznam srodnu dušu

sa kojom ne pričam istim jezikom

da se celu noć ljubimo

i otplešemo do Pariza

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da tamo šetam sa Kamijevom senkom

i kažem mu: odvedi me na obalu Alžira,

da usnama skupljamo penu sa talasa

i pazimo da nam Sunce ne ide u oči

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“Hoću da budeš moj Merso.”“

"Svejedno mi je.”

I tako mi ispuni tu želju.

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“A šta ako se ja zaljubim u Arapina?

Da li bi tada znao zašto si ga ubio?”

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Ti se onda vrati u Pariz

na ulicama se bori

za oslobođenje Alžira,

a ja ću se na ulicama Alžira oslobađati

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Sledećeg jutra ću se probuditi

na ulici Rima

kraj neke fontane

sa nekim strancem

jer sam taj stranac

ja.

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“Ne daš mi da krenem dok ne popušim celu cigaretu. Već kasnim pola sata. Ja nikada nisam kasnila. Ne kajem se. Ti želiš da ja ostanem celu noć. Ja želim da ja ostanem celu nedelju, mesec, godinu. Tiho, između jave i sna, do svitanja. Želim nam prodreti u dubinu duše. Znati zašto si negovao samoću. Da li sam ti uznemirila tu samoću? Više nije ni čudno, zar ne? Sve je vodilo ka ovome. Ka ravnoteži.”

— proleće, 2018. 

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“Pakao, to je čežnja. A čežnja je utopija. Znači utopija je pakao. Dakle, i pakao je nedostižan. I tako ćutiš i čezneš. Pakleno.”

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“Bitno je samo da me dobro pogledaš u oči. - da li si me ikada dobro pogledao u oči? pobogu, da jesi, sada bi znao sve.”

— leto, 2017