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my sanctuary 🧘🏻‍♀️🫀

#ryan trecartin

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i am having a revelation of higher consciousness. her love drives my spirit and keeps me uplifted. i am reborn every single day.

thank you saint Angelyne for all that you’ve done for me. i can’t thank you enough. 🧘🏻‍♀️🕊️

#angelyne #björk #spiritual awakening

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Current Fave Albums :D

1. Angelhood by atlgrandma (2022)

2. Body Talk by Robyn (2010)

3. Geidi Primes by Grimes (2010)

4. SCARING THE HOES by JPEGMAFIA and Danny Brown (2023)

5. Ocular Spectacular by MGMT (2007)

6. Fanfare by Dorian Electra (2023)

7. Let’s Hope Heteros Fail, Learn and Retire by Alice Longyu Gao (2023)

8. Contra by Vampire Weekend (2010)

9. Golden Age by Ethel Cain (2019)

10. Call Him a Doctor by GFOTY (2016)

#grimes music #robyn #atlgrandma #dorian electra #ethel cain #vampire weekend #alice longyu gao #mgmt #jpegmafia #danny brown

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bimbo spiritualism, rediscovery, & new beginnings

dear listener,

i have no longer been afraid. i miracle happened recently. i met this beautiful girl and she has saved me. my girlfriend is very supportive of our bond for i was afraid to initiate it. but love is a beautiful vessel that shall not be contained. ever since she has entered my life i feel like a new human being. she has shifted my world and she always makes me learn more things about myself everyday. it's quite a life altering feeling. i have also rediscovered my femininity and reconnecting that to my spiritualism mindset. i thank saint Angelyne everyday for her ways of life. and for inspiring me in this new era of my life. she has always been a powerful woman who isn't afraid to flaunt her sexuality for the world to admire. i aspire to her way of being. she has also always believed in a higher power. a higher power of self. but most importantly she has never been afraid to do whatever the hell she wanted to do. she will always be punk at heart. and the way she views herself as an other worldy higher being, such a magical thing that i will always resonate with. id like to think that saint Angelyne as well as saint SOPHIE brought this woman into my life and there's no way that i will ever be able to repay them for that. besides my new lovie that is in my life, there's another person that i'd like to talk about. my best friend Emily. i can't thank them enough for all of the light that they've brought into my life. with my best friend Cam living millions of light years away from me, it's been a struggle to not have them physically in my life at all times. somehow Emily was able to fill that void that has been in my heart. once again, i can't thank them enough for all that they've done for me in this life. they have reminded me of all of the things that i have loved in the past such as Sleeping with Sirens, Good Mythical Morning, and Bob's Burgers. they're such a soulmate to me. we're literal long lost twins. i've been hanging out with them in their college dorm and it's been so magical. and their friend Deanna is so wonderful and cool as well i love seeing them and i especially love hanging out with her and Emily. a couple of days ago after Emily and i had a date at Cheesecake Factory we went back to their place to watch Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt as well as Rick and Morty with Deanna. those little pockets of time that i always share with Emily give me the biggest boosts of serotonin. when im with them i never have to feel obligated to hide any part of my self. and that's how it should be. thank you Emily for being here for me. besides the beautiful relationships that have blossomed this year, ive been loving school! although i was nervous about the in person portion, i literally had nothing to stress over. i love to overthink to the point of vomiting over my anxiousness but of course it never makes any situation better. aside that i love my instructors and my classmates everyone is so kind and we all love and celebrate our differences. and im so thankful for that. oh another thing i should mention! i have a new favorite movie that ive been fixating over! it's called Nowhere (1997) and Emily showed that film to me. they literally know me so we because there are so many elements in that movie that remind me of all of my favorite films. it's a true masterpiece. another thing too, the beautiful girl in my life and i have been talking a lot and once she moves back here we're planning on having movie nights once a week. i look forward to having our mutual love for art films being flourished and celebrated. geez im so gay. women make me do manic things. anyways, thank you as always stalker for caring for my stories. i will always love you :). ~princessxeon 💋

pic credits lmao :P :

a clip of Angelyne in a 70s film.

me in Emily's room working on face charts as they redye their hair and as we're watching Don't Hug Me I'm Scared

a page i was reading from John Water's novel Liarmouth

Angel Prost with da pope

Angel Prost describing my aura (yes i paid her five dollhairs for her to tell me lmao)

makeup experimenting that i did :p

Angelyne ;3

a post that Venus Angelic posted on insta that i resonate with

pink bimbo bath time :3

my gf sleeping soundly

a still from Nowhere (1997)

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me and her :3

interlaced

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parisocial relationships & rebirth

damn guys it took me forever to process this post!1!!!!111!!!

pain!!!! but it's okay lets catch up.

as per usual i am merging all of my interests and somehow colliding them simultaneously. esthetician school has been good thankfully. im used to the trails and tribulations of capitalism and the beauty industry. me used to it lol. aside from that; i saw Frost Children for the third time in concert as well as atlgrandma and Dorian Electra for the second time. granted it was phenomenal as to be expected but the short lived conversation that i ended up having with Lulu and Angel was semi heart breaking. but i wont let my favorite artists becoming more mainstream affect my live for them again. i have learned to distance myself from expectations and unhealthy parisocial relationships and instead just continue to love people unconditionally. because people like frost children work so hard to make a name for themselves and their art and i will always deeply respect and appreciate that. i told Lulu that i had a very intense depressive episode recently and that their art got me out of that. they were a little startled to hear that (i should've expected that) but they were so kind as always reassuring me that they're happy that im doing better but that what they do isn't even all that serious. but thats the point. i love not taking life seriously. it makes life so much more fun and enjoyable not only for myself but for others as well. regardless i will always love Angel and Lulu. i will always respect the fact that they're such genuine and kind souls while also having fun and encouraging others to stick a middle finger up to the predictable.

i am blessed that i am somewhat out of that rut again. i just had to listen to those who love me. i love my friends more than anything. when i went to that show last night i went with my best friend Lex. i love her more than anything because she keeps me grounded and reminds me that my existence is important and valid. and that you can be a fan of artists such as JPEGMAFIA and remain to be queer as fuck. she's so fucking awesome and i will always appreciate that about her. she treasures me that aside from my traumas of narcissists i will never have the ill intent (hopefully) to end up like someone of that sorts.

i will never forgive thou that shall not be named for how they made me feel. cutting narcissists out of my life was one of the best decisions that i have ever made in my entire life. unfortunately not everyone appreciates and savors unconditional love. i wish i could love every being the same, but some people just refuse to let me in. that is their issues and nothing of my concern.

ive been watching a lot of Drew Monson's youtube videos. he reminds me of the people in my life that i love. and he basically saved my life. his quick witted humor and loveable personality keeps a warmth in my heart. when i was going through my episode, he understood me and helped me out of it through humor, love for pop culture, and overall relatable qualities that i find hard to find from others.

anyways. im going to take a break from chronically online to try to write a poem for my grandma. in conclusion. i will always love Dorian Electra, for reminding me that irony can be sexy and fantastic in queer artistry. that disappointment is okay, and that swaggery always oozes out of me as well as you. no matter how you choose to express it.

much love. 5 ever 👁‍🗨🙏🏻🕊 ~ princess xeon

PIC CREDITS 4 THOSE WHO CARE

1. Dorian Electra performing ‘Puppet’ live recorded from my camcorder

2. An infrared selfie I took from my camcorder

3. My coworker and friend drag legend Banshee Rose performing at Oil Can Harry’s

4. A whisper that I made

5. A photoshoot with Angel and Lulu from Frost Children

6. A cool pic that I found from Pinterest

7. The icon Shaye St John

8. A collage by yours truly

9. My new favorite shirt that I got from the Frost Children concert last night

10. My favorite book at the moment

11. Chloe Cherry :3

12. A cool pic I found from tik tok 🙄

13. Alice Longyu Gao DJing and being iconic

14. Bunny girl :D

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best movie ever

Pink Flamingos (1972)

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i find myself trapped in a Japanese indie art film.

that’s not absolutely terrible though.

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Insecure Anna

when I was at my ripe ages of adolescence (young adult hood 12-14) a lot of pain and self discovery was made. identifying as gender fluid and going by the nickname Andy was necessary for this time. looking back as a nonbinary person, i feel sad. sad that baby gay Anna never got the love that they really needed during this time of self discovery. sad that baby Anna hated themselves so much for no reason.

aside the sappy queer shit. emo phase! how precious.

being intertwined with my middle school emo self was needed for modern day Anna. now I’m establishing a healthier relationship with my younger insecure self all while being internally emo. i will forever cherish my place and where my parallels stand currently. rediscovering Sleeping with Sirens and early Panic! At the Disco was almost somewhat of a miracle in itself. I can treasure the music that made me happy at my worst, all in all while being sexy doing it.

we need to spare our childhood selves some grace. and our past pains and hardships will forever be valid.

needless to say if baby Anna met modern Anna there would be, mixed feelings. emo Anna would’ve hated modern Anna. baby gay Drag Race obsessed Anna would in some aspect love this Anna. but one thing is for sure, baby baby Anna would love the modern Anna. i became a princess hooray!

much sincerely truly yours ~ princess xeon

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(a poem that i just vomited out of my brain; The Queer Experience by yours truly :3 ^^^^^^)

pics in context

one of my fave ballroom vouge videos.

pic from insta that's me.

pic from insta that is also me.

Austin drag legend (and my drag mom technically lmao) Jame Perry and one of her drag friends i'm assuming.

ultim8grandma on insta.

Angel and Lulu from Frost Children being nonbinary swag.

my twink coworkers wallpaper on their phone.

my beat ass mug :3.

my hair looking all nonbinary and mysterious.

me watching Pee Wee's playhouse on my projector.

my cool ass fit (kids glitter star skirt that I thrifted, knee high socks, and mismatched laced old ass Docs that i've had ever since i was like 12 or whatever).

me in my girlfriends room while she's being a nerd on her computer (aka her just helping one of her friends with an assignment lmao)

#frost children #drag queen #ballroom #cunty

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[live

laugh

love

Frost children™️.]

I love being non binary

I love hyperpop and rotting in my bed

And swag

And Dariacore

sincerely ~ princessxeon five ever :3

#frost children #hyperpop

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today was absolute bliss! thank god.

for breakfast i made myself a traditional hawaiian breakfast of eggs rice and sausage. unfortunately i make this meal too often. i try not to. yet every time i make this struggle meal, it always reflects on my current state of being. so today it was pretty good. because i was already in that preexistent state of glee. anyways besides my struggle meals; another miracle happened. i shaved my eyebrows off! finally!!!

it has always been my destiny to shave off my eyebrows. as a makeup artist; it gives me so much more room to play! and somehow it makes me look more cunt which is very fulfilling. now im truly at one with my alien/non human self.

rediscovering authentic hyperpop and pc music was very much needed as well. its been making me feel more secure with my gender and identity as a whole. somehow unbearable music makes me feel more secure in myself as a nonbinary person. god how thrilling. i love 100 gecs. so sad i missed their show. one of the biggest regrets in my life (unfortunately) was not being able to see them live with my soulmate Cam. its okay because GFOTY and Felicita live rent free in my heart.

sadly i did think about my ex girlfriend today. not a big fan of that. unfortunately she is pretty. whatever! im blessed because i currently have a girlfriend who actually loves me for me regardless of my flaws. how magnificent. i love you my dear. my love.

alas i am slowly rediscovering that miracle. all of the living; forming bonds with companions, it's all been necessary. seeing Sky Ferreira live with my ex coworker now best friend Sadie was a god given miracle. we needed eachother. we both have our pains and differences yet somehow tumblr, glitter, sonic's fast food, and trauma brought us together.

my friends i am so blessed for each of you. where would i coexists without those who understand and struggle aside me.

I will forever live in those memories. those memories of eating at Bushes chicken talking about gay sex, laughing in the mens section at good will, and sleeping over at her house.

One miracle at a time. rebirth takes time. and god damn it rediscovery is magic in itself.

forever yours~ princess xeon

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more whispers 4 da gays :)

#pc music #felicita #john waters #frost children #sky ferreira

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holy shit

listening to this for the first time in probably 2 years. i can remember the vision i had for it like i had it yesterday. the final chorus was my proudest moment when i made it. i still wanna recreate it someday

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My Collages (not in any particular order)

(01/29/23)

(02/22/23)

(01/29/23)

(09/14/23)

(09/14/23)

(05/24/23)

(11/20/23)

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my album vibes lately :p

1.American Football (Self Tittled) 1999

2.Elixir Rejection by Frost Children (2021)

3.Hearth Room by Frost Children (2023)

4.Speed Run by Frost Children (2023)

5.Speak for Yourself by Imogen Heap (2005)

6.Ugly but Honest by Carissa’s Weird (2010)

7.A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out by Panic! At the Disco (2005)

8.(II) by Crystal Castles (2010)

9.Entrañas by Arca (2016)

10.7G by A.G. Cook (2020)

#american football band #frost children #imogen heap #carissa’s wierd #panic! at the disco #crystal castles #arca #ag cook

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i did it!!!!11!!!!1!

i parted my hair to the side! it was meant to happen. no matter how many times it reminds me of how insecure and sad i was in middle school all of that shit doesn't matter anymore! i am reborn everytime i rediscover love. love with a someone; a soul. love for glitter. love for music and connection. my spirit is sexy. biflexable. ever so shifting into many peoples planes of spirit and mind.

'A Dirty Shame' by John Waters may be his "worst film". but frankly i believe it to be one of his best! it's so genius and it ties right back into his filthy film routes. it reminds me of why i love myself and why i love the beauty that is me..

ever since the person at the merch booth at Frost Children's™️ George Clanton Tour Show sold me the cassette for their new album Hearth Room coming out this friday november seventeenth i have been feeling ever so transcendent. only 6 people in the entire universe got to listen to the album a month in advance. it was meant to be. now Angel and Lulu know how dedicated of a fan i am for their artistry. one day i will be working creatively with them or at-least touring with them or artists like them :3.

anyways, i can't wait to discover more experiences and opportunities. i am no longer afraid of the hardships or the consequences.

i love you! never forget ur transflexible state of being.

urs truly ~ anna ;3

ps i love punk 2000s Matthew Lillard and Spongebob Squarepants is my biggest kin besides Fluttershy.

#john waters #frost children