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copy that bbg 🙉🦋

hi baby !! happy monday 🫂🫂

jk i fucking hate mondays 😍

mood

LMAO OMG I HAVE TEA GO LOOK IN YOUR INBOX IN LIKE ABT 5 MIN 😍😍😍

#moooooooddd #talking to mads ♡

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sobbing rn i hate you guys

SELFISH

pairing: chris sturniolo x reader

word count: 1.3k

warnings: sad asf, kinda sappy

summary: when you love someone, it’s hard to let go.

in my twenty years of living, i have never dreaded anything more than getting into that car.

i’ve never dreaded anything more than starting the camera for the last time with the boy i love sitting next to me in the passenger seat.

i’ve never dreaded anything as much as sitting there in front of a rolling camera and spilling my heart out.

everyone thought everything was perfect with us.

but all the fake smiles after arguments, the masks we put on for the camera after a screaming match, the blinked back tears and the swallowed hurt we hid from the world would finally be seen by them. and that terrified me.

suddenly it all felt very real.

i find myself sitting back in what should be the comfort of my drivers seat, but the thoughts heavy on my mind block out all sense of familiarity with my position in front of a camera.

chris sits next to me, evidently as anxious as i am. we exchange few words. it hurt too much to say anything more.

my shaky hand reached out to start recording, missing the button a few times.

as the cameras starting rolling and i spoke, my voice trembled with raw emotion, betraying the pain i desperately tried to suppress. chris sat beside me staring at his lap, knees bouncing, his usual bright and warm demeanour muted by the overwhelming feelings of heartbreak.

‘i think we owe it to all of you to be honest.’ i forced out, my voice leaving my lips sounding foreign.

we’d been separated for two weeks now but sitting here in my car, enveloped in his scent and presence where we had sat together many times before, was when the realisation of what we were doing hit me like a train wreck.

i choked up instantly, the lump in my throat too big to continue speaking.

i took a few moments to compose myself and chris looked up to face the camera.

‘me and chris have decided to end our relationship.’

the weight of the words settle in and i suddenly feel like my heart has been hollowed out of my chest. it only now feels like those words have become a reality.

it hurts. so bad.

‘it’s not something that’s easy for either of us,’ chris continued, his voice quivering as much as his form. he’s shaking so much i feel myself become dizzy with how fast his leg is bouncing.

‘i still love her and she still loves me,’ he paused, taking in a deep breath before continuing, ‘but we’ve come to understand that we want different things in life and that by staying together we weren’t letting each other achieve all the things we wanted to.’ his voice cracked.

more tears welled up in my eyes as i recounted the countless memories we’d shared, each one a bitter reminder of what we were losing.

‘we’ve grown in different directions,’ i confessed, my voice croaky. i was struggling to get the words out. still, i continued, ‘and as much as it hurts, we know this is the right decision for both of us.’

‘i think, since we got together quite young, we were still unsure about our futures and what we wanted to do with our lives, so once we realised what we did, we also realised that what we wanted were different things. so it’s just part of growing up i guess.’

for a sentence meant to be said lightly, he sure made it feel as heavy as an anchor dragging my heart down to my stomach.

‘even though coming to this conclusion was a really hard journey, it definitely had to be done. we couldn’t drag each other down like that because i think it would be selfish and in the long run it would’ve led to more hurt,’ i lied through my teeth. i didn’t think that. i don’t think i could ever feel more hurt then i do right now.

i love him. i love him so much it makes me sick at how little i have to offer him. he deserves better. he’s always deserved better.

‘even though we’re ending things here, i just want to say that i could never be the person i am today without y/n. she’s always been there for me, during the bad times and the good and i’m so glad that i was able to meet someone like her when i did because i honestly don’t know what kinda place i would be in if i hadn’t.’ chris choked out, struggling to contain his tears.

i took his hand in mine, though i couldn’t tell whether it was to console him or me.

‘i love chris and i know they’ll always be a part of my heart that belongs to him.’

i caught a glance of myself in the rear view mirror. my eyes were red and puffy. my cheeks were wet with tears and the bottom half of my face was trembling uncontrollably. he looked of a similar state.

i tried to continue, turning my body to face him,

’i really wish you the best in life chris, i love you and i hope that you’ll achieve all that you ever want. i’m sorry for anything and everything i’ve said to you over the years that may have hurt you, knowingly or unknowingly.’ the tears ran down my cheeks and i wiped my eyes and suppressed them again.

i wanted to tell him that i hoped he would find someone better to love, someone that could offer more and that he could love as much as i love him. but i couldn’t. because i didn’t. not one bit.

‘chris, you and your brothers have brightened up my life in so many ways and i just can’t-‘

i couldn’t say anything more. but when i looked up into his eyes i knew he understood me and that he could see all the things i wanted to say.

and that made me feel worse. i hate how well he knows me.

‘i love you too, and i hope we can still be friends.’

i smiled sadly but didn’t say anything.

i knew he could never be anything less than a lover to me.

as the video drew to a close, our hands lay entwined on the centre console as we ended our last video.

with heavy hearts and trembling lips, we wave goodbye to the camera for the last time.

as soon as it shut off, chris burst into a fit of uncontrolled sobs. i cried silently with his hand in mine. each cry that escaped his lips stabbed at my heart.

i was doing this for him, i reminded myself. don’t be selfish.

his whole body shook, his other hand clutched tightly at his chest, as if trying to contain the overwhelming ache he felt inside. with each shuddering breath, his shoulders heaved trying to grasp onto any bit of air he could.

i brought his head to my chest and he cried into my shirt, grasping onto me like he was trying to keep me from leaving.

i tried to slow his breaths and after a while he looked up at me. my heart was too shattered to feel any more pain.

all i saw was him. i was probably a reflection of him, tear-stricken cheeks, puffed up and bloodshot eyes. but in my eyes he has never he looked more beautiful then he did now.

he started to quiver again in my arms.

‘hey. you’re gonna be okay.’

he looked deep into my eyes and the tears started pouring again. i tangled my fingers in his hair and then he whispered with nothing but anguish and utter heartache is his voice,

‘but i don’t wanna be okay without you.’

GODDAMN WAS THAT A RIDE 😪

i cannot tell u how many times i cried writing this im such an emotional wreck

anyway tell me what you think, feedback and constructive criticism are welcome!!

- ray🌻

TAGS:

@endereies @patscorner @junnniiieee07 @sturniolosarethebest @breeloveschris @worldlxvlys @h3arts4harry @luverboychris @rootbeerworshiper @bueckerssturns

#UHHIHUHUH😍😍😍😍 #IM A GROWN ASS ADULT SOBBING MY EYES OUT FOR WHAT #my babies

[presleyanswrites]

yummy ✨🦋

#songwriter #singer #lyrics #my job #song lyrics #musician #lyric posting

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yk what i realized.... i can pull but im so ugly outside my fucking house its impossible... I'm too lonely atp ☹️👎 yk what else I pull? push doors.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HAHAHAAHAHAHAHH 🙉🙉🙉🙉🙉🙉🙉🙉

I STILL PULL PUSH DOORS TOO 😍😍

YOU ARE NOT FUCKING UGLY DIDNT WE TALK ABOUT THIS ?????????????????????????? 😡😡😡

#shut your mouth my love #you are flawless #FLAWLESS #FUCKING FLAWLESS #talking to mads ♡

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WATCH IT ITS CALLED TROIS PETIT CHATS I THINK

YAYYYYYYYY ILL LOOK IT UP AFTER BAND REHERSAL

#yuhhhhhh #talking to mads ♡

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IT WAS LIKE... ONE WITH LIKE A CATFAMILY BUT THE MOM DIED AND THEN THE OLDER SISTER GETS A DEADLY ILLNESS THAT MAKES HER BODY CRACK AND SHE GOT A SEIZURE AND THE DAD RAN INTO THE HOSPITAL ROOM MAKING HIM INFECTED ASWELL LEAVING THE LITTLE BROTHER ALL ALONE ITS SO FUCKING SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

UUUUGGHHSSHSHSHSHSHSHSHSH

should i watch it ? i wanna feel something LMFOALAOAAOAOAOAOAOAOAOAOA

#talking to mads ♡

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GIRL OMFG I REWATCHED A SHORTFILM ON YT I USED TO WATCH AS A KID AND IM SOBBINGGGGGG 😭😭😭😭

HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHH NOOOOOOOO

THAT HAPPENED TO ME WITH THE LIKE----

DOG ONE ????????? WHERE THE DOG IS LIKE A SERVICE DOG FOR AN OLD LADY OR SM???

I DIDNT WATCH IT AS A KID BUT LIKE IT MADE ME SOB AND SOB AND FUCKING SOBBBBB 😭😭😭😭😭😭

I. COULD. NOT. STOP.

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍🫂🫂🫂

#PIXAR IS FUCKING EVIL #HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA #MY ASKSSSS #I LOVE YOU MADS !!!!!! #talking to mads ♡

[presleyanswrites]

jst realized.. is your pfp you?!

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHHA I LOVE YOUUUU NOOOOO

but i do look exactly like her and i do have a guitar exactly like it.....but no thats not me.

thats claire rosinkranz 😍😍

#idk she just looked exactly like me and it wass kinda scary so thats why i picked it as my pfp #talking to mads ♡

[presleyanswrites]

ohhh damn

im glad tho 🫂🫂🫂

😍🙉🙉🫂🫂🤨🤨

BESTIE BOOOOOOOOOS 😍😍😍😍😍

WELL NOW IM DEPRESSED

OH MY GOD WERE LITTERALLY TWINS

#why am i such an awkward adult #you guys can handle this better than i can #i act like im five years old on here

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yessss estrella is one of the bae baes duhhh 🙄🙄

WELL NOW IM DEPRESSED

OH MY GOD WERE LITTERALLY TWINS

#cutie estrella #yuhhhhh #trio ??????

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i feel so loved ☹️☹️🧡🧡

as you should every single day you breathe in your life ?????? 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨😍😍😍

#my baby baby #🫵🏼🫂 #talking to mads ♡

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you literally have me giggling and kicking my feet rn 🥰🥰

ANY DAY ANY TIME MY POOKIE SCNOOKIE COOKIE BOOKIE BEAR !!!! 😖😖😖😖😍😍😍😍🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼

#you are my number one #talking to mads ♡

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you've gotta be fucking kidding me.

looks like im getting a depression now

#EVERYONE GET OFF AI WE NEED OUR CHRIS AND MATTIE MATT TIME #WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUUCCCCK #*FUCKING SOBBING* I JUST WANNNAAAAA FUUUUUCKKKKKK HUHUHUHUHH😭😭😭😭😭😖😖😖😖😖😖😖

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@hauntedxchris you are a fucking livesaver ive been in line for like an hour 😍😭

WELL NOW IM DEPRESSED

OH MY GOD WERE LITTERALLY TWINS

#THANK YOU !!!!!! #c.ai #my babies

[presleyanswrites]

BELLYACHE.

pairing: chris sturniolo x fem!reader summary: where reader comes home after a long day with a stomach ache to her loving boyfriend :p warnings: established relationship, use of y/n lol, FLUFFF!!!!!!!!!!!, cursing a/n: hi idk i thought of this and wrote it in like 20 min and u guys are BOMBING cruise control so YAYYY i hope it is freaking awesome love u all <33

your breath was shaky and your eyes were lidded as you searched for your keys in all of your pockets. the fresh love hoodie that draped over your body was the only thing keeping you at a decent body temperature as you stood outside the triplets' home, a hand clutching your stomach. it had been aching since earlier today, and you couldn't help but assume it was just your cramps.

"fuckin, where is it."

your eyes scanned your backpack, now, for the spare.

"there you are."

you quickly grab the key and open the front door with it, letting out a deep sigh of relief as you let yourself in and shut the door quickly, yet quietly behind you.

after a long day of nonstop work and being on your feet, you were just ready to lay down with your boyfriend. tomorrow was your first day off in about a week now. your body couldn't take anymore, especially not the nonstop stabbing pains that no amount of painkiller seemed to kill.

with a deep sigh, you set your things down at the kitchen table and moved to grab a soda in the fridge. you took two pepsis from their box and shut the fridge, smiling softly to yourself at the thought of your boyfriend's expression when receiving a pepsi from you.

finally, a moment to yourself and your boyfriend where you two can relax and not worry about you having work the next morning. relax and just have your boy to yourself, relax and just-

thud.

your eyes widened and your body froze its movements as one of the pepsis rolled down the stairs and cracked open, exploding all over the floor and against the cabinets.

footsteps came rushing up the stairs, and you turned your head to see your boyfriend, chris, hair disheveled like he had just awoken from the best sleep of his life.

"y/n? are you okay?"

you set the other pepsi down and let your arms fall to your sides, tears running down your cheeks.

"hey hey hey," chris quickly made his way over and, careful not to step in the soda on the floor, stood in front of you and cradled your face in his hands. "what's wrong my love? it's just a pepsi, and-"

"it was the last one." you mumbled before burying your face into your hands.

"it's okay, really, you can have this one," he held up the pepsi that you had set on the counter. "or we can share it," he chuckled, knowing you would offer.

you let out a deep sigh and shook your head, looking at chris for a moment before looking away. "i just want to be with you. i'm tired of being on my feet, i'm sick of work, i'm sick of people, my stomach is killing me and it won't stop," you sniffled, looking up at him.

chris nodded as he listened closely before coming forward and setting a hand against your cheek. he gently kissed your forehead and wiped your tears with his thumbs. "go get changed into something comfortable, i will clean this up." he whispered softly, smiling reassuringly at you.

with a soft nod, you collected your things, including the stray pepsi and made your way down the stairs and into chris's room.

you let out a deep sigh as you took in the scent of his room, almost immediately feeling comfort. you set your backpack down by his desk and began changing into some pajamas you had laying around in chris's room. you pulled the hoodie back over you and shifted to carefully lay against chris's bed, your mind and body finding comfort in his sheets while trying to ignore the undying pain in your stomach.

your eyes almost immediately began to close.

"how you feelin?"

you lifted your head to see chris, smiling softly when noticing the cup of chamomile tea and some painkillers. he shut the door behind him with his foot and made his way over to the bedside table, setting them down by you.

"'m okay." you mumbled as you smiled brightly at him.

god, you loved him so much. it's the little things. really.

chris nodded as he shifted to lay beside you, humming to himself in the process.

you took a sip of the tea he made for you, humming at the taste and setting it down. "thank you for the tea, really."

chris nodded as he shifted to lay down, his head in the crook of your neck now as he gently pulled you against him by your waist.

his hand moved to gently tuck under your fresh love hoodie and gently graze your stomach, his hand resting there softly.

your face felt hot. every time chris got remotely close to you, it did. this kid gave you butterflies at any given moment.

"is this okay?"

chris's voice ripped you from your thoughts as you nodded and closed your eyes, moving to gently wrap your arms around his shoulders, one of your hands moving to gently bury into his hair.

chris hummed as he felt your touch, his eyes closing as he allowed his thumb to graze back and forth on your skin softly.

"get some sleep alright?" chris mumbled softly, his voice groggy.

you smile softly and nodded, as you knew chris was already beginning to trail off.

"i love you so much," you whispered, eyes closing as you leaned down to gently kiss the top of his head, before you allowed your head to fall back and and your mind slowly drift to asleep.

"i love you too, y/n."

chris fell asleep, his hand never removing itself from your stomach and/or waist and his breath soft against your chest.

and when you woke up, your bellyache was gone.

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cant wait to change my earrings 😍 now i have like small studs in silver but I'm getting silver hoops obvi (thick ones 🤫🤫) even better!! i can change them before I'm going on holiday to France 😍😍 I've been dreaming of this moment for 2 years now

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

im in love w you 😖😖😖😖

#every pookie ive ever had has been my silver girl !!! #im a gold girl 🫂 #I NEED MY SILVER GIRL IN MY LIFE !!!!! #silver girls 🔛🔝 #I LOVE YOU MADS #talking to mads ♡

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ughh my ears hurtttttt i got them pierced like idk 2 weeks ago (for the first time im literally deadly afraid of needles) but like I'm happy I did it bc I feel like it will instantly make me more attractive :>

:000 PERICINGS ARE MY BABIES

i have my firsts, seconds, and my helix !!

the feeling of your ears hurting and shit is soo relatable

#i hate needles #talking to mads ♡ #i love you mads !!!