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I LOVE setting boundaries omg. Like, I just realized I can be firm while not being passive aggressive, I can be kind without sugar coating my words or apologizing for how I feel. A friend of mine keeps calling me by pet names and I don't like it since she told me she has a little crush on me and I told her it makes me uncomfortable. I didn't say "it's not that big of a deal though" or "I don't want to upset you" cuz ya know what, my comfort is just as important as hers. If she doesn't like it then whatever, not my problem. I want to be her friend, I like her as a person but she's very insecure and lovebombs and I don't like it. She texted me saying "hey I hope I'm not bothering you" like girl grow a backbone. But I like her! I can recognize ways in which she needs to grow and still enjoy being around her ya know? No need to throw out the baby with the bath. I used to be the clingy friend and now being on the other side of it I'm trying to be communicative instead of giving hot n cold vibes like past friends of mine did to me. Breaking the cycle 💅🏻🙏💪🏼

#I LOVE growth and I LOVE not playing games w fellow adults. let's TALK

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literally I only wrote that poem cuz I checked in on the guy I have a crush on and he looked so cute and his voice is so attractive and it made me feel warm n fuzzy for abt 10 seconds before I got mad at myself cuz why am I not over him yet!? :( so. I'm just projecting my anger onto him. cuz obvs he did not do anything wrong irl but idk what to do with these feelings and it's easier to point the finger at someone else (at least in my head) :/

I want to be that girl who respects herself so much and is so confident that I can detach immediately when someone I like isn't interested in me. but I'm not 100% of the way there yet so 🤷🏼‍♀️ I'm not taking it personally anymore but it's difficult to let go of this attachment. He has so many qualities I desire in a partner and I think he reflects qualities I want to build more in myself: self assurance, self trust, confidence, curiosity about trying new things rather than being stuck on fear of not being perfect and therefore feeling embarrassed or judged by others. He inspires me and I feel like he would be a reassuring, guiding presence in my life. I guess I'm projecting my desire for a mentor onto him? which isn't necessarily unhealthy but I should search for those kinds of connections elsewhere and work on believing in myself. and ultimately leave this man alone lmao. I don't want me being up in his energy to affect him negatively.

Hmmmmm. Obvs it's romantic as well but this is a part of it I haven't acknowledged before.

Anyways I wrote this while warming up on the treadmill b4 my run so I'll explore this more later byeee ✌🏻😅

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#hasty notes app poetry by meee

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a convo between me and Morrisey btw))

mfer does not know how Joan of Arc felt

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a sisterhood is just as detrimental to you as a toxic man. hanging around low value women will always slow down the process of your soul's evolution. they might not be toxic towards you but if they have a nature that lacks morality and principles — that makes them toxic. friendships are spiritual. when two walk together they are in agreement. so whatever they have come into agreement with. so have you. God will literally delay your blessings because of the people around you. that's how deep it is. your circle is important to your destiny. let go & grow.

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You deserve a happy ending. No matter what the situation is, no matter how hard it is to survive and cope. You deserve a true genuine happy ending.

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I think about how hayao miyazaki said that love is two people inspiring each other to live. and to live doesn’t just mean to be alive. living involves finding beauty in the simple moments of being. so to inspire someone to be in awe of the simplicity of living? that’s special

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you're always pretty <3

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“If they miss you, they’ll call. If they want you, they’ll say it. If they care, they’ll show it. And if not, they aren’t worth your time.”

— Lessons Learned in Life

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I blocked my ex on everything :)

#NO i don't want to be friends and NO I don't want her to have a way of contacting me #I wish her the best but I need her to stay the f away from me #there is nothing left to say!

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we could have the green velvet couch of our dreams together

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Miller's Girl - 2024