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I’ve ruined it all

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what a mother does for you out of obligation vs what a mother does for you because she wants to. the taste of a cup of coffee made from obligation vs. the taste of a cup of coffee made. did you raise me because you wanted to or did you raise me because you had to, because i was in your home and you thought, i have to put food in every mouth under this roof. did you look at me with love or did you look at me. did you ever look at me? did you ever see me? did you want to? do you want to still? if i asked you to love me would you laugh? would you ask me why? would you tell me to not ask such stupid questions? would you go to bed and wonder to yourself, why does she think i don't love her? i've done everything for her i've bathed her i've clothed her i've fed her i kept a roof over her head. isn't that love? do you even know? do you know what love looks like? did your mother love you? did she make you coffee? can you tell me what it tasted like?

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I’ve got 99 problems and 93 are because I’m ugly and weird

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not to be dramatic but i will never be comfortable with my physical appearance

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Anyone else feel like they’re just procrastinating their suicide

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THIS THING WAS A MASTERPIECE TIL YOU TORE IT ALL UP

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me: feels an emotion and expresses it

abused brain: apologize 

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You Are Everything You Swore You'd Never Become (via cartomaniac)

#i am going to kill myself.

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