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in the meantime , yall are more than welcomed to follow me on any of my blogs. these are the ones i am most active on as of late. :

@inkquiem --- batim blog.

@marxxymoon --- rp hub with multi side blogs.

@ebonyedge ---- AU Shadow the Hedgehog.

#ooc tba. #the rp hub has a vide game multi as well #such as Crash and Spyro

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Apologies for the disappearing act. My muse for Drustan is fairly low. But on top of that , i recently had some mental health issues come up , that landed me in a hospital.

I am safe. I am fine. It was just something that needed to be done , due to my depression. My job also fired me , for being in the hospital. So I have been trying to find a new one. I could cause a stir about my old job , but at this point I am too exhausted to do it. Their loss. They clearly weren't the best place to work at.

Most of my time is spent on my batim blog , or my new blog hub , that has side rp multis for different fandoms and such. I am hoping my energy and such comes back , because i adore Drustan and the friends I have made here.

I apologize for the lack of communication with said friends. I promise it is not , and never will be , your fault. It's me and my dummy head.

Just know I cherish you all. And I only wish for good things for ever single one of you. <3

#ooc tba. #psa. #mental health tw

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--- I have work in an hour and a half. Depending on how busy we are, i might have some energy to write here and on my bendy blog after work.

#ooc mobile. #i miss writing #and i miss doing things #but irl got hands frfr

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--- I am still around!! I started a new job and as of rn. I do evenings. Which means I normally don't get off until 9pm. And mornings before I go in. Are normally me running errands. Hopefully I will have energy to write again soon!

#ooc tba. #as of rn it probs will be inbox stuff #and then any threads will be saved and answered when i am able

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---tw vent. but update as i was in the hospital tonight.

i live in a group home. and there is a guy also here that screams all hours of the night and stomps around and has made suggestive comments towards me. ( "are you a vampire? what if you bit my neck?" amongst other things.) He also has misgendered me. Told me i am too pretty to be a man. told me i should not tell people that i am trans etc.

I have been nothing but kind to this man, but it seems i never should have been. Cause the bolder he got. to the point i have caught him standing outside my room. following me around the home. and getting more suggestive. to the point he tells me stories about his naked ex girlfriends. and how pretty i am. he also has waited for me outside the bathroom.

he has gotten nastier behavior wise in terms of major disrespect, such as throwing the N word around. And calling people the R word. And i even stood up for a staff member cause he was bitching about her and being rude. to which he replied that i am no one here. and later that night told me that he hears voices and if i hear a little girl crying, its fake.

I have always talked to the supervisor of these concerns, but she tells me to just stand up for myself. I have not been sleeping good because of him yelling at night and laughing. So this morning i was in a VERY deep sleep. Didn't hear the staff banging on my door until they put the supervisor on the phone and she said "you are 23 years old, this is immature. you know you have to be out and about at 9am."

it wasn't even 8am yet. so i got pissed at her scolding as if she is my mother. especially considering we were joking and laughing JUST last night and she was telling me how proud and impressed she was of me.

so i told them i wanted HER supervisor's number, to which they almost didn't give it to me until i stood firm before leaving. i had heard the weird man today say that "you have a pussy, you will never be a real man."

he has a habit of talking to himself and thinks no one can hear him. so i had enough and upon arriving back, i snapped on him. because i need to stand my ground and the staff never see him do these things.

to which he pulled "i never said that...." cue the sad tone he does to make the supervisor feel bad for him. and she was like "don't even engage with her, walk away."

so i flipped on her. hysterical. sobbing. my eyes pleading for help. she never even looked at me, eyes glued on her cell as i told her what happened. so i yelled "fuck you. you're fucking disgusting." and my dumbass left the house, no coat and bawlng.

she made no move to stop me. just stayed on her phone. and in the end? i ended up in the hospital cause i slipped on ice and could not move for ten minutes due to pain. a stranger and his daughter found me, almost on the road. and called the ambulance while using their coats to keep me warm. cause i had no coat and my skin was redish and almost purple cause i could not move on my own. so i was laying on the patch of ice in pain. an inch from the road. god bless them, truly.

i could not get ahold of the supervisor for hours, until i finally did. and her reaction to me being in the hospital was "okay. tell me when you are being discharged." and i thank god the other staff came and got me, cause if she had. i would have not gotten into the car.

i get back and after the staff member encourages me to speak to her about why i went off. the supervisor said "i don't wanna speak to you. i got nothing to say."

and i head the weirdo man go "did i do something? i know i didn't." and then i heard her laughing and joking with him. and i have caught him tonight, standing outside the bathroom door again.

HER boss comes in tomorrow, and that boss knows a bit about what is happening and is already not impressed with her behavior. so she wants to check on me tomorrow morning.

#ooc tba. #vent tw #ask to tag #transphobia tw #sexual harassment tw #medical tw

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----- ||| > A deep sigh as he flopped in the grass , arms folded behind his head.

" Did I miss anything ? "

#dash comm tba. #Drustan after vanishing for weeks: hey sup

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------ *KICKS DOOR DOWN.*

GUESS WHO IS FINALLY BACK AND READY TO WRITE ?

#ooc tba. #ITS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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--- Slowly but surely coming back.

#ooc tba. #really haven't had a lot of energy to write full fledge things #but I'm gonna try and be here today

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-------- A new muse , that ISN'T from Zelda. Shockingly.

#ooc tba. #causally outs myself as a Bendy and the Ink Machine fan to you all

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What’s my blog’s trademark?

Be it writing style, aesthetic, muse choices, etc ! 

#ooc tba. #rp memes tba. #will get to inbox tonight or early tomorrow!

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---- I'm still alive!!! Just needed to take a break and I also had irl stuff going on. I have been without a state ID and a job for months. I had an interview yesterday and got a call today. I got the job!!! I start tomorrow <3

#ooc mobile. #i also got my state ID so i CAN accept this job #thank goodness #finally <3

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----- i am feeling a bit better. Might play Animal Crossing for a bit. ( because ya boy never got far in that. sobsss. )

#ooc tba. #tom you devious crooked man

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---- vent tw.

Will be on sometime later today. Mood is horribly low. Depressing thoughts hitting and i have been crying. so thats fun.

#ooc tba. #vent tw

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" Hm. " .... he's gonna keep his mouth shut on this one.

#dash comm tba. #herosway

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𝓚𝓲𝓷𝓴𝓼 — send 🌶️ and guess my muse's kinks.

#ooc tba. #suggestive tw

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🐝  *  ―  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐃𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐘  𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐃  𝐎𝐅  𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆.   (  nsfw  !  in  honor  of  sinday,  have  another  random  assortment  of  sexual  sentences  and  actions.  sidenote,  your  muse  =  sender  and  my  muse  =  receiver.  add  *  to  reverse  the  action.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses. )

❛  i can’t stop thinking about you.  ❜ ❛  i’m gonna make you scream my name.  ❜ ❛  you won’t be able to walk straight after i’m done with you.  ❜ ❛  you like it when i talk dirty to you, don’t you ?  ❜ ❛  i’m planning to turn you into a dripping mess.  ❜ ❛  you make me so horny i can’t think straight.  ❜ ❛  i’ve been thinking about bending you over that table and just having my way with you.  ❜ ❛  you’ve been a bad girl / boy, and deserve a punishment.  ❜ ❛  you’re gonna come for me later ?  ❜ ❛  i’ve been touching myself to the throught of what you’re gonna do to me.  ❜ ❛  you’re gonna be a good girl / boy ?  ❜ ❛  i want you to take control.  ❜ ❛  you didn’t think i’d just let you get away with all this teasing, right ?  ❜ ❛  if there weren’t so many people watching us, i’d already be on my knees in front of you.  ❜ ❛  i’ve got a suprise planned for you later.  ❜ ❛  tonight is gonna be all about you.  ❜ ❛  i’m wearing some nice new lingerie for you.  ❜ ❛  do you see how hard / wet you’ve already made me ?  ❜ ❛  your moans are music to my ears.  ❜ ❛  i don’t normally do this, but you bring out this craziness in me.  ❜

[ PALM ] ― your muse palms my muse’s penis / breasts through their clothes. [ NIBBLE ] ― your muse gently nibbles on my muse’s earlobe. [ SEDUCTION ] ― my muse whispers dirty nothings into their ear. [ FRENCH KISS ] ― your muse kisses my muse with tongue. [ WATCH ] ― my muse starts to masturbate in front of your muse. [ CLOTHES OFF ] ― your muse helps my muse undress. [ WALL ] ― your muse pins my muse against the closest wall. [ GRIND ] ― your muse teasingly grinds against my muse. [ SEXTING ] ― my muse sends your muse a dirty text / picture. [ VIBRATION ] ― your muse controls a sextoy my muse has inside of them. [ MASSAGE ] ― my muse gives your my a sensual massage. [ BLINDFOLD ] ― my muse makes your muse wear a blindfold. [ FLASH ] ― my muse ‘accidentally’ flashes your muse. [ SUCK ] ― your muse sucks on a banana / lollipop in front of my muse. [ STRIP ] ― my muse gives your muse a strip tease. [ DANCE ] ― my muse dances seductively for your muse. [ TIES ] ― my muse ties your muse down on the bed. [ SPANKING ] ― your muse spanks my muses’ ass. [ PORN ] ― our muses watch a dirty movie together. [ LAP ] ― my muse sits on your muses’ lap and teases them.

#ooc tba. #suggestive tw #nsfw tw

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GHIRAHIM. YOU BITCH.

#ooc mobile #I WILL DO IT #tenebriism