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the future is plural!

I have DID. Life in our system can often be painful, messy, and complicated. It’s been challenging learning to communicate, get along, and relate to one another. Trying to come to terms with our trauma and begin to heal is difficult and scary! But over the past few years, we’ve been able to make some real progress.

And we owe it all to each other!

We have kept each other alive through our darkest moments. We are each strong and capable in our own ways. As we learn more about each other, our past, and who we want to be, our love for each other has really grown! I’m so proud of my system, I love my parts, and even though life as a system isn’t easy, I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world!

To me, “the future is plural” means a future where plurality and neurodiversity are accepted rather than scorned by others. A future where I can live openly as plural, and my plural siblings (ALL my plural siblings - with or without DID) can feel free to be themselves, too! A future where talking about your system is normal and encouraged - where systems of all sorts can be as vocal as they wish about their plurality without fear of backlash. A future where every system has access to the support they need, and we can come together to share our experiences, laugh, love, and learn together!

That’s what “the future is plural” means to me. We think it’s a future worth striving for!

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i think an issue with the obsession with parts in DID spaces is how much it made us overcomplicate ourselves and not treat our parts the way they deserve

a triggered part would come to front, and all we could focus on was "who are you?" then feel like we're faking DID when we didn't get an answer

instead of offering that part support and compassion like they needed, they'd be shut down for not being able to come out with an identity in their triggered state of mind

like they somehow had to earn the right to exist by first stating a name and intention

they are a part. maybe they have a name. maybe they dont. a lot of our parts are mere fragments. and thats ok. nothing is required for them to be allowed a space to exist. they don't have to be mapped out to have the right to simply be.

for so long, our focus was on "do i really have did? am i faking? do i have alters or is it just cptsd? am i faking this disorder for validation of my trauma? am i the host or this alter? am i anyone at all?"

when really we needed to focus on "what do i need right now? what do we need right now? how can we calm down and find a middle ground together? how can i offer this scared and angry part of me the support they need?"

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dude the attitude around parents is so weird and specific. what is that about

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sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

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Some days, DID looks like constant spacing out and never seeming fully there. Missed bits of conversations and a memory that doesn’t seem like it wants to work.

Sometimes it looks like talking to myself, constant internal noise and heightened sensory sensitivity.

Some days DID looks like being emotional for seemingly no reason, crying, laughing, anger over something I don’t know, emotional bleed-through from other alters.

Other days it just looks like severe PTSD. Avoidance, spacing out, needing help to ground myself. Flashbacks that I honestly can’t remember the triggers of, or remember the full event of, but that I know are flashbacks.

And sometimes it just looks like nothing at all. I seem put-together and relatively normal. You’d never know I had a dissociative disorder.

The day-to-day severity of my symptoms do not determine what mental illness I have. I still have DID and I still struggle with it whether you can see it or not.

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Another reminder: Transfem headmates in AFAB bodies are valid, appreciated and loved! 💖💖💖

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Endogenic systems who later gained traumagenic headmates are valid.

Traumagenic systems who later gained endogenic headmates are valid.

Any mixed origin system is valid.

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syscourse is strange to me as a former transmed just because it’s all the same shit. Yeah sometimes being plural fucking sucks, sometimes people are talking to a stranger and he is scared and confused frequently. Sometimes he’s violent and sometimes he’s in the back of my head shaking. Sometimes I feel so far away it’s like I can never come back even if I do. But damn I looked that shit up and it’s all like? “I hate being a system” “my system is a wound made from trauma and I wish I never had it” yes my friends were created by horrible repeated trauma, but why would I ever hate them or want to change them? I only felt self love with the endo community, and trust me my trauma is vile and disgusting, but I had to love my friends before it killed me

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don't give up

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Shout out to protectors who :

Have antisocial tendencies

Do everything to keep the system safe

are tired, but would do it all again

their way of protecting is sometimes labeled as "to harsh"

yall are doing your best, and youre the backbone of the system, youre loved and aprecciated

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gods i wish we could browse discord servers regularly and not have to have our protector do it because we don't know whether or not the server will hate us for existing. We can't trust when it says it's "system friendly"; we have to go in and read the rules and sometimes even make an intro, look for sysmed dogwhistles, and even if we don't find anything, unless there's something explicitly including systems of all origins we're STILL paranoid about it. Syscourse/sysmedicalism have heightened our trauma so intensely and the fact that our traumagenic members have adapted to cover for that really goes to show how dangerous it is. We're so tired. The hatred and bigotry in the system community is so common in fandom spaces claiming to be accepting. There aren't many places where it's safe to exist

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The size of the watercolor-y version of the plural rings is pretty small, like 640px. So I made a 1500px version for fun.

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We NEED to put sex and magic back on the pride flag right now

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oh i get it now! what happened fundamentally and irrevocably changed me forever

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It's super dissociation Sunday! Time to enter a room and uhhhhhh. What was I going to do. Who am I. What is this place again. ☘️

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Shout out to all the hardworking protectors in system, that step in for the host/other alters. Nothing but undying gratitude. Yall are the backbone of the system.