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#I actually prefer to use my desktop #But yeah #It do be like that #Holdover from when paying for stuff online was a bit shit I guess #Queue vadis

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this was a comment on one of my post from a recent live event. it was photos of joyful queer buckaroos celebrating together and proving love is real through creation, community, and a trot of love. most important I AM LITERALLY IN PHOTO AS A REAL FLESH AND BLOOD HUMAN

it got me thinking about how DEEP AND VICIOUS the irony poisoning of these early internet communities goes. the way buds like this cannot fathom someone just being a sincere person unrelated to their OWN old days of cynical posting. it is fascinating, and i will admit, sad too

despite a DECADE of work, countless live events, 350 tinglers written well before large language models were a thing, there are still people who cannot imagine someone like me could exist. it is a strange place to be. not just part of me, but my entire EXISTENCE is often gatekept

it is easy to say ‘well chuck your art IS strange’ but honestly i think it is more than that. magical realism is common. there are stories about dinosaurs and bigfeet and unicorns. this scoundrel reaction is about two unspoken things: my art is neurodivergent, and my art is queer

heres the thing: I WILL BE FINE. what concerns me is not an issue of MYSELF, it is a concern for the other young outsider buckaroos who see comments like this one and think ‘is that what they will say if i express MY unique way? will i be dehumanized like this at every turn?'

i will be honest, i cannot say that WONT happen, but i CAN say this: for as deep as this irony poisoning goes, it is slowly dying. the way i was treated at the start of my career is LIGHTYEARS DIFFERENT from the way i am treated now. there is a massive shift towards sincerity

BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY. to young artists trotting up, the things that i am harassed over and doubted for and made fun of for are NOT tangental to what has made me successful, THEY ARE LITERALLY THE SAME THINGS THAT HAVE MADE ME SUCCESSFUL. YES I AM STRANGE, WHAT OF IT?

the things that you tuck away for fear of a review that says ‘there is a PROBLEM with this art because it has always been done another way’ THOSE ARE YOUR SUPERPOWERS. the gatekeepers want you to tuck those parts of yourself away because THEY TUCKED AWAY THOSE PART OF THEMSELVES

never forget that your unique way is PURE UNFILTERED 100 PERCENT ROCKET FUEL. it will stick out (maybe, if you are lucky, scoundrels will even say that someone like you could never actually be real), but sticking out isnt so bad when you are waving the flag of love.

in fact, when youre waving the flag of love, sticking out is pretty dang cool. what are flags for, after all? LOVE IS REAL BUCKAROOS. thank you for reading, and if you enjoyed this long post then please consider preordering BURY YOUR GAYS.

LETS TROT

#Hell yeah Dr. Tingle

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#I vote to rename this to Appallingly Flat Land Syndrome

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Happy cloud

#Oh this is a good dog #Queue vadis

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I love how in the Dracula Daily fandom, we don’t say that we are beginning once again on May 3rd.

Rather, we say “my dear friend Johnathan is preparing for his upcoming trip. I hope he has such a wonderful time and that he brings back some delicious recipes :)”

And I think that’s beautiful

#Safe travels Harker

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Dropout: okay with the dome projections, character art and intro, we still have some money in the budget for a few simple animations..

Brennan: i want a sex lawnmower and the vulture dimension.

Dropout: wh-what?

Brennan: SEX LAWNMOWER AND THE VULTURE DIMENSION

#Sex Lawnmower and The Vulture Dimension is the name of my Punk/Jazz-Prog fusion band

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worst part of being a jesus christ superstar fan is that when you mention its your favourite musical people who aren't familiar will be like 'oh haha are you a jesus fan... is jesus your blorbo' and its like no!! absolutely not!! my blorbo is very obviously Judas Iscariot ):<

#God it is true isn't it? #Judas is such a blorbo in that musical #Judas Blorbriot

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as a bi person, the bisexual flag brings me infinite joy and always puts a smile on my face, however as a person who has a Passion for Graphic Design, that undersaturated shade of purple infuriates me when it's used digitally

like, on an actual flag - which was its original purpose - it looks great!

those look fine! lovely, even! with the semi-transparent fabric, the way it catches the sunlight, it looks beautiful!

but now look at how it looks digitally

the pink and blue are so vibrant compared to the sad, lonely lavender!

and let's look at this statement from Michael Page, the creator of the bi flag:

(sidenote: he created this flag in 1998, so if his takes on bisexuality is different from yours, it's okay to notice that! a lot has changed since the 90s when it comes to lived experiences and the way we describe them. but, it's also important to respect his thoughts about this and the way he presented them, even if today, we'd probably not say that bi people "blend unnoticeably into both the gay/lesbian and straight communities.")

so in pantone colors, the pink is 226 C, the blue is 286 C, and the purple of the flag is 258 C.

but...here's the deal

Michael talks here about how the key to understanding the symbolism is to know that the purple blends into both the pink and blue. and on a physical flag, I think you can see that!

but digitally, it absolutely does not blend. it clashes badly, and looks oddly separate from the other two colors.

which got me wondering...what purple do you get if you actually blend 226 C and 286 C?

oh! oh, my god.

look at that! look at how nicely it fits between those colors!

look at it next to the original color scheme! look at how much more vibrant the purple is!

and friends. this is just blending through rgb! you get even more purple variations when you use other color spaces!

let's compare all of them:

(top: original, lab. middle: lrgb, lch. bottom: rgb, hsl)

look at all of the different purple options you can get just by combining these two colors!

if you want almost too-vibrant saturation, you can go hsl, if you want something more relaxed that's closer to the original, you can go lab or lrgb. and if you want to split the difference, lch is bright and violet, while rgb is there with its saturated but darker purple.

anyway, I guess I don't really have a point here? this isn't so much an informational post as it is Me Getting Weird About Colors, but I think it is a useful lesson about how colors look very different on screens compared to how they look on objects in real life.

and sometimes, I think it's okay to compensate for that.

out of all of these, this is my favorite bi flag:

it's the one where the colors were blended in lab color space. for me, the lighter, softer purple is close enough to the original bi flag purple, while also feeling like a smoother blend of the blue and pink

but that's just me! and it might not even look the same to you, since every screen is different, because technology is a nightmare!

anyway, thank you for coming with me on this colorful journey! I will now retreat back to inkscape and make pained sounds about inkstitch gradients until something tangible pulls me back into reality

#I agree with OP on this #Spicing up the purple a bit is a great touch on the bi flag

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I'm on a duet kick and I'm marvelling about what an amazing song Somebody That I Used to Know is from a narrative perspective. We're told this sad tale about love and we're all sympathizing with this poor man:

And then the girl shows up shouts, "UNRELIABLE NARRATOR!"

The guy tries to get us back, "No wait! This is my pity party! Hear my sad tale again." But he's lost us, we can't see him in the same way again. The spell is broken. And the spell remains broken, you cannot hear the first verse in the same way ever again.

The acting in the music video too, the way he silently accepts her words. The way he flinches as she talks. He was trying to write his own narrative but he can't stand hearing the truth. And he has no new rebuttal, he can't refute her.

#This song is a favorite of mine for this very reason #like Gotye is whiny in his verse in the way you expect a breakup song to be #and then Kimbra comes in with this steel chair of perspective in her verse #and you realize wow - it isn't just the breakup - this is how this character is all the time #I say “character” because this is deadass a full short story told in a 4:04 pop song #it's powerful stuff

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"Post-Nut Obfuscation"

and it's not even close. I usually keep my chapter titles short and concise, more to remind myself of what is going on in the chapter than anything else. This one, though, felt very correct.

If you title your chapters, which is your favorite?

#his impossible brushstrokes

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we talk a lot about ohhhh what if my calling is to be the greatest mammoth hunter ever and I'm wasting my talents in the modern era but we never think about what if Thog from 30,000 BCE was the only person ever born who could get a sub-7min Donkey Kong Country any%, and he never got the chance. what about thog

#hashtag justiceforthog

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eagerly awaiting the day daniel radcliffe, elijah wood, and robert pattinson just make the most fucked up bizarre unmarketable film together

#Oh now I want that too #Go - scions of the blockbuster - make the absolutely absurd incomprehensible you all long to make #I have immense respect for these lads for living the dream #having one huge hit and then living off that while making whatever the hell you want to make #Even if all their new stuff isn't for me that's fine #they're not vanity projects - they're experiments #and some times they really REALLY hit home

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26/04/24

autism month AND lesbian week? those two are about to be Aware and Visible

NOTE: i hc mary ann as aro lesbian

#On the long lists of why I want Ayda to come back and why I want Mary Ann to make it out of this in one piece is this #I want to see these two gems interact #I get the feeling they'd either be great friends or trying to launch each other into the stratosphere within minutes

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I've just finished reading "The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet" (Wayfarers Series, Becky Chambers) - which sat on my to-read list for far too long and which I loved! Its been a bit since I've last read through a book in one go, completely forgetting time - So here's a little sketch of Sissix & Ashby. :)

#I love Sissix #we stan a touchy-feely lizard pilot

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i feel like one thing my schooling failed to do was teach about nazism in depth. ww2 took up much of 9th grade but i was today (well, last year) old when i learned that one of the main dividing lines within the norwegian movement was nationalism vs foreign (german) influence. it's only in the last couple of years i've been aware of accessible, non-academic books (in my language market) about the rise of pre-war antisemitism in media and the population. my schoolbook narrative left nazism looking like mass psychosis and i understand the unwillingness to humanize and normalize evil and that there's a balance we need to find there, but i think it's necessary, unfortunately

#School was real quiet about the history of pre-ww2 nationalism and anti-Semitism yeah #I put it in the same category as media and culture liking to pretend society was Just Fine and then the nazis forged themselves ex nihilo #which is a comfortable lie to live in I suppose #especially when the alternative is the difficult question as to how such a destructively hateful movement could emerge from society #The secret - of course - is that it wasn't such a stretch at all at first #but this weakens the empowering “us vs them” narrative #and thus an uncomfortable truth is ignored in deafening silence

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Need a first post so here's some faces my dog makes.

#Happy tumblrversary #also some excellent dog faces #from a most elegant douge

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everybody look at my cat in my lap as i was spinning

he had never done that before!!!! he just sat on my lap and fell asleep!!!

Fun fact! I drove 3 hours with my mom to get this spinning wheel. I have absolutely no idea how old she is but she was hand made by someones uncle. I call her Oma since that's whats etched into the lazy Kate that I also got from the nice old lady who sold it to me.

#It seems like your cat instinctively knows that the spinning wheel is good for sits #checks out to me