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let’s go on a walk (a love language)

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laaaaaaaaame i just wanted to have a sandwich w you & be in your presence

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do it for her (your thirteen year old self)

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I will literally be the rudest nastiest bitch to everyone all day and then i’d drink matcha and suddenly i’m the nicest sweetest cutest person ever 😝

#matcha lavender drink w extra lavender foam #this was literally me two days ago

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every emotion i have i look it up on this damned website bc i know some random 14 year old girl out there has already strung pictures & texts from different films & pieces of literature to convey that specific feeling

#LET ME INDULGE IN THE WEB WEAVING

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where did i go wrong? did i go wrong? he for sure went wrong in sooooo many ways. i suppose now that i am conscious i cannot blame any more wrongdoing on anyone else beside myself. correct.

#drunk dad said he has no faith in me 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 #father is not being a dad #can i say that #need a therapist #is this what they call father issues #is that why i seek an adult male figure in my life all the time #probably #i don’t seek female figures #i have them #i have adult female role models that i look up to #but i don’t get attached to them the way i do w men #literally every man #my priests #my teachers #the good ones #not the bad ones #looking at you fucking nuzzolese #& cabibi #fucking waste of time in their classes #but popenoe & enriquez #nothing could ever make hate you two #or boldt #boldt was cool

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i did what i was supposed to do why is it still raining

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yall mind if i preemptively grieve what i still have yet to lose

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#sometimes it feels like i purposefully rub salt on them like ??? get a fucking grip girl

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gif of charlie eating a pickle

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OR i am resentful which is not good

a relationship works TWO ways. i just don’t reach out bc i do not want to bother you w my love

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a relationship works TWO ways. i just don’t reach out bc i do not want to bother you w my love

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ok getting myself a drink & food so ya se me va pasando but anyways this is my father’s fault can i just blame him? maybe but also now i feel a tinge of guilt blaming it on him but like ??? i mean it makes sense

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DUMBASS LITERAL DUMBASS WHY DIDNT YOU ASK WHY DIDNT YOU SAY ANYTHING actual fucking dumbass like such ungodly stupidity like

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THATS WHAT IT IS BUT I DONT WANT TO ADMIT IT BC IS IT TOO MUCH THERE & NOT ENOUGH HERE??