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[patricia-von-arundel]

WE HAVE AN APARTMENT

IN MANHATTAN

I WAS GIVEN A WHOLE DAY TO PACK 🤣🤣🤣

...And when she lands tomorrow, there will be no more goodbyes.

Took FOUR YEARS, but whatever, we still beat Byleth back.

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Hey, I need a job in NYC, help would be awesome?

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YOU ALL SUCK. EVERY ONE OF YOU. SHAME! SHAAAAAAAME!

So... turns out the Halloweenies are both male. (I thought black was female. The drop was a slow one.)

...I assume I don't have to tell anyone their names.

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OH MY GOD

THE NAMES THE NAMES DON'T MAKE ME COME DOWN THERE AND DEAL WITH YOU

Hmph

(Look, the vet already hates me for "Cenere," okay? Nobody can figure out how to say that one.)

So... turns out the Halloweenies are both male. (I thought black was female. The drop was a slow one.)

...I assume I don't have to tell anyone their names.

[patricia-von-arundel]

So... turns out the Halloweenies are both male. (I thought black was female. The drop was a slow one.)

...I assume I don't have to tell anyone their names.

[patricia-von-arundel]

So... turns out the Halloweenies are both male. (I thought black was female. The drop was a slow one.)

...I assume I don't have to tell anyone their names.

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I watched some Snoopy clips on Twitter, it's a cheaply veiled PSA for gov't propaganda: Hey kids you want to be a Scientist, they're cool… Snoopy pretends to fly. Point is even if you never watched Snoopy indoctrinate you:

We're all ingrained with the idea this life is the only one we must live for. But if we pay attention we rarely make it to our 100th attempt at any one thing because our soul gets bored with creation [created things], we need our CREATOR to fill us that is fulfillment.

Tim Keller said the problem with modern people is we feel we deserve a good life, meaning we don't deserve bad things. As a result, rather than accept what is, & try to learn what each event is teaching us about ourselves. We instead try to find a way to force reality to fit our desires or perspective.

[Tim Keller: Power for Facing Trouble]

In 1973 Karl Menninger wrote book noting how society replaced morals with medical model: For most of our problems, we use a medical model.

For example: People who are terribly bitter, they will not forgive. But what do they say: They’re hurting, never admit they’re bitter. Hurting—that’s a medical term for a moral problem. You do NOT have a medical problem; you’ve got a moral problem!

Research findings show 90% of Americans believe they show the kind of love in life, that if everybody showed, would make Society all right. Yet Psychologists say no one is ever healed because we are constantly being damaged by others.

Even Brain Surgeons have noted the brain surprisingly does not feel pain & Dr. Wilder Penfield said no matter what he did, he could never cut-out enough of a person's brain to remove their personality. [Michael Egnor: Evidence Against Materialism]

Saying this shows there is something untouchable beyond the physical realm, the thing David Attenborough says is why he remains agnostic because he's seen blind termites incapable of detecting his presence & so he wonders if we have the same lack of sense perception to detect GOD. The Bible says we know GOD exists, & every time we fail in life is one step closer to meeting our MAKER voluntarily or literally.

[YouTube: Off the Kirb Ministries | Sir David Attenborough - Did You Catch It Too?]

Have you ever invited JESUS into your mess?

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I don't like The Hobbit. (I don't like Tolkien's writing generally, but by that I mean stylistically; I like basically nothing about The Hobbit).

And yet...

The last year we were in the same neighborhood in December, my best friend invited me to their first night of Hanukkah. We did that every year, I went there, she came to us for Christmas, it was awesome.

And my gift on that first night from her family was a beautiful illustrated edition of The Hobbit.

(I'm going to let eating my body weight in latkes not count as a gift. I like latkes more than The Hobbit.)

It wasn't the only time it happened, but... some time after we moved, my father took that copy of The Hobbit to read aloud to my brother.

(I wasn't invited. Never was, they did all the Narnia books, The Hobbit, then - WEIRDLY - the Stainless Steel Rat series. I don't ask.)

And the book got left on his shelf, until I went in one day and took it back. Wasn't sneaking or anything, just happened to remember. Didn't ask. It was MINE.

Except my parents decided it wasn't.

And took it back to my brother's bookshelf.

He didn't care. Just like he didn't care about the bunkbeds (I couldn't have any because he was getting them), or the wallpaper (I couldn't have that design for... same reason), or any books at all until he was an adult.

...He was seven when they read The Hobbit.

I don't like The Hobbit.

But I want my fucking book back.

It's been 30 years.

I'm not getting it back.

And I don't like The Hobbit.

this comment under a bookstore video of all the first editions of the hobbit they have… i’m going to start crying

#we aren't even getting into the car situation #or the horror movies situation #or the oops we forgot about you situation #or the birthday card... thing #gee i wonder why i'm so goddamn fucked up

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Shit hit the fan and then spiraled right down the drain in 2016.

I played almost 1,000 hours of Fire Emblem Awakening between December and July.

I've been suicidal again for... four or five months now.

Still hoping something will pop up.

But Cordelia's still my best girl.

Well... second best.

Usually.

😝

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There is a scientific term for this.

It's called "going full Severa."

...She turned 14 a week ago. So, y'know... guess this is where we've been headed for quite a long time. 😅

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Really going to make me do all of these separately?

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These two dorkfaces are available for adoption. They're October babies. Orange is male and very cuddly. Black is female and shy, but she warms up and relaxes. They're siblings.

I can travel to an extent. If you want them, let me know!

Holly's fine too. Relatively... speaking... that is... 🤷‍♀️

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I'm still alive. Mostly.

And someone got an invitation to join the International Thespian Society. 🤣 Guess they need more people who can play pushy assholes.

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I'm not here much right now, but... lookie what I got for Christmas/birthday. 🤣

I've been working with her (she's from the colony that lives here) since beginning of September. Finally got her to let me pet her in November. Then we worked on being picked up. (She hates it, but I need her to know I can and will do it when necessary.)

And she moved in on Christmas.

She's a GOOF. I'm estimating six or seven months old, based on her size when I first met her versus now.

Now we're working on inside manners. 😅

And look at her tail! It's half length. There's one bobtailed cat (who almost has to be Mom), but this, the half length, is unusual.

...She may actually be a thylacine.

Her name's Holly.

No, not for Christmas.

I started working with her on September 5th. Go look up book releases. 😜

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Grew up in many houses, but only one visits my dreams, and now, just like then - well:

Hill House, not sane, stood by itself against its hills, holding darkness within; it had stood so for eighty years and might stand for eighty more. Within, walls continued upright, bricks met nearly, floors were firm, and doors were sensibly shut; silence lay steadily against the wood and stone of Hill House, and whatever walked there, walked alone.

The dreams are not kind. In no small way are they kind.

There was something very, very wrong with that house.

It wasn't anything separate from the house itself. It was the house.

I'm not scared of many things. I've slept in thousand-year-old buildings, I've climbed into plague pits, I've played at seeing just what could be found in a cemetery - in the dark - with a Ouija board and a bag of Twizzlers.

(The answer is graves. If there were ghosts, the Twizzlers probably offended them. They offend me, too.)

For months - months - a cardinal flew into one of the windows. It never stopped. Thump... thump... thump... all day. All night. It never left. It never seemed to need to eat, or find water, or sleep.

My brother and his friend finally went out and shot it.

There were rooms no one wanted to go into, because the light did not reach, and there was an impossible cavernous presence no matter when, or why.

There was a basement that was not a basement. It stank of darkroom chemicals, and rot, and damp. Squelching carpet.

It shared stairs with the garages.

Sometimes, there were sounds from the wrong side.

Sometimes, the knob would began to twist on its own.

Sometimes, the dogs refused to go up or down.

My first bedroom had a wall that was a mirror and a barre, for ballet. From the family before us.

They put in a built-in desk and shelves, covering the mirror.

But it was still there.

One summer was flies - another wasps. Inside by the hundreds.

They appeared, and then they disappeared, and never came back.

...Once, it was bats.

Hanging on the stone in the living room.

In the beds.

I eventually had the top floor - the third - as mine.

It was nicely done, honestly. When I was there, the bedroom walls were painted dark, dark blue.

There were tiny doors there to an attic we never used.

Never went in.

There were toys inside: a bucket with McDonalds characters. A plastic ball with a star on it.

I don't know if they're still there.

But I think the other things...

The other things will never leave.

And they visit me. When I wake, there's cold terror that I might have dreamed the rest. I'm in the hallway from my room, the only way in and out. And I always will be.

Part of whatever was there so long ago.

Nightmare. Boogeyman, shadows turned to claws. Teeth. Nightmare, night, night, night:

No more than that.

It's heavy. Sticky. Gossamer.

It clings.

Something was wrong.

Something was very wrong.

And if it still is, I hope I never know.

I haven't been back.

But sometimes, it gives me no choice.

Don’t know who this quote is by but it’s been stuck in my brain like a leech for days

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...Well, I should probably find a new hobby at 40, since this started at 30. 🤣

Elsarik Primer

Here you go, anon of @frozenprocedural!

Ok so a good place to start is probably with Em, starting where it all started, which is Sweet Joy Befall Thee (affectionately known as SJBT) by @patricia-von-arundel who created Alarik (and their children Jenny and Dag, and Anna and Kristoff's daughter Neta) and the Shardsverse (which is the main universe of Elsa and Alarik set after the events of Frozen, but Frozen 2 doesn't exist)- the events leading up to Elsa and Alarik getting together span around ten years (I call it the "Dancing Around Each Other's Feelings Timeline" lol but here's Alarik realizing he's in love with her)

Here's one of Els and Alarik being math nerds and cute

Here's one , What We Leave, where you get to know the kiddos a bit more

Here's a cute one of baby Jenny

Ok so there's actually...no...specific...order you SHOULD start or end in, lol you're looking at nearly a DECADE of fics and AU spinoffs, but probably a good place to start is with something that's complete, or explore the oneshots?

Off the top of my head, the completed multichapter ones are some of mine:

With My Care (Big Hero 6 AU) and the ending to BH6 AU (which was published after 6 years since the last update oop)

2. Falling Slowly (Arranged Marriage, Everyone Lives AU)

3. City of Ice (A Stravaganza Series AU based on City of Masks by Mary Hoffman) This one is really long, 31 chapters and over 84,000 words, so make of that information what you will, haha

4. The Stitches Series (Set shortly before Elsarik's wedding, up to shortly after Jenny's birth)

Stitches: Winter (Prequel)

Stitches: Winter (Not Your Average Day's Neckware)

Stitches: Summer

Stitches: Autumn

Stitches: Springtime

5. The Dream Fic (AU of The Boarding House AU)

For oneshots, it depends on what you're into!

from @theburnbarreljester if you like Everyone Lives (aka Agnarr and Iduna live) she has the modern AU Tale of Two Cities which is a collection of oneshots! but my personal favorite of hers is set in Shardsverse, Dag's Crown Jewels (I LOVE THE CROWN HEIST SO MUCH AND TBBJ IS VERY AWARE OF HOW MUCH I LOVE THE CROWN HEIST, IT AND THE ELSARIK VERSION IS SO FUNNNNYYYYY)

a lot of @frozenprocedural's stuff can be found in Twelve Days of Elsarik (fondly called TDOE) (honestly Steph is probably the most consistent when it comes to TDOE posting haha) (Also, if you're looking for the *cough* spicier Elsarik fics *cough* Steph's gotchu, lol)

@bepoets has a modern AU with Elsarik as expats in Shanghai!

Here's one where Alarik decides to propose

Here's one where he gets ready to do so

Brooklyn also has the "Im Your Daughter" AU , here's the first part

@naturepointstheway also has some great Elsarik oneshots! She's amazing with prompts, hehe

@insectoid5 has a sweet oneshot called Silence of Midnight

@thatnamewill-probably-change wrote a sweet untitled drabble set in Shardsverse

There are more fics than the ones above, and I'm pretty certain I'm missing a few people (A THOUSAND APOLOGIES IF I HAD, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, IF I MISSED ANYONE PLEASE KINDLY LET ME KNOW SO I CAN AMEND IT) mostly because a lot of the links don't work anymore, especially if they were under a readmore and the URL changed

@no-escape-from-the-storm-inside has some amazing

Jenny

centric oneshots

Anon, if you'd like to message me privately, I'd be happy to send more fics and make recommendations based on what you're into, because there's wayyyyyyy more where this came from haha

(From the ones I've written, Homeward is the favorite child, lol)

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I hear some things never change.

Happy 10th anniversary.