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Yeah support groups are impossible to find without Christianity being entangled with it and as a cult survivor I can't deal with that at all so I guess I'm just going to have a problem forever?

LITERALLY LIKE OK GUESS IM FUCKED

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everything looks so bleak lol

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have you thought about looking for online support groups? even if it's like a zoom meeting, its could still be helpful and might be easier to find a secular one. it really sucks there aren't any secular ones in person near you for sure, I hate the way how intertwined addiction support and Christianity are :/

The only thing is everyone is so far and I really want to make in person friends that I can't ghost:/

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Bit telling that for years and years evangelical religious extremists have been allowed on university campuses with their bullhorns and horrific imagery where they harass students into physical altercations and when students complain to the university’s administration they just shrug their shoulders citing freedom of speech but when those same tuition-paying students start protesting against war and genocide they call SWAT

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nowhere is for me.

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<- drinking to death

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It's so insane that to "get better" I have to admit I'm powerless to a god that let me get molested and raped like yeah im.not worshipping that shit you're insane. Whatever im going to die doing drugs i give up <3

#rape tw #csa tw #addiction tw #WHATEVER IF I DIE I DIE

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god i truly do think this is the end for me!!!

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now how am i supposed to get better if ur charging me an arm and a leg just to see u! make it make sense...

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opening up to your mother is like individually pulling out each of your finger nails

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nowhere near me has a secular support group for drugs

#like i know a religius one eont benefit me because i dont connect to that shit lol like wtf

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shes like try aa and im like girl I'd rather cut my arms off than "turn myself over to a higher power" like respectfully ew

#i think she doest understanr how much i hate that shit lol

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My therapist keeps telling me to join a support group but every support group here is religious or spiritual :/

#like religion is a huge trigger for me so im like :/

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I feel like I am just moving through different addictions instead of just....not being addicted to anything at all I just dont know how to do that!!!!

#i think ill use my eap sessions bc i feel like im not going anyahere but i cant like. pay for rehab rn

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AT WORK WITH THE FUNNIEST COUPLE IN MY ACTIVITY CENTER LMFAO

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had two energy drinks i no longer crave death