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hes trying to be helpful (based off this)

#WYSH #mgs

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(Pina colada song blasting in the background)

#so sexy #mgs

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Someone hold my hand and do that little thumb rubby thingy.

#dear god. want 2 cry thinking about this i want affection so mf bad

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hate it when fictional characters make me believe in love...... theyre not even real 🙄

#wataru hibiki 💔

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this wasnt a request i think but i’ve never posted this so?? heres Sunburst with a new cape from Rarity

#YEAYEAYEA #mlp

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if link and i shared a brain

#botw

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Minecraft Masterpost

#FAVE

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I am slowly redrawing the portraits in stardew valley 🌾🌾

#sdv

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“The glow of summer has faded, now… and the moonlight jellies carry on towards the great unknown.”

#omg.. this is gorgeous #sdv #fave

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age of calamity // breath of the wild // sequel

#botw

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#♡ #sm

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♡ | GOTHIC HARAJUKU COFFIN PLATFORM SHOES

#🔪 #fashion

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if you use multiple pronouns rb and put in the tags if you prefer it when people choose a set of pronouns and stick to it (e.g. using only he to refer to someone who uses both he & she) or alternate them (and if so, how frequently? every usage? every sentence? every paragraph?)

#uh I use a ton but I wish more people used xe/xem for me. they just make me happy but honestly idc #i mainly use he/him currently anyway sos!

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smooch ❤️

#they are in love #llsif

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who knew if I give myself time to figure shit out instead of rushing into things like i always do it would work out!! so insane

#valentine.txt

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anyways. makoto be like :3

#valentine.txt #enstars

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who i am comes first above all. that includes who i project onto, my family, my friends, and my future. Its very very hard for me to detach myself from needing to do what others want of me and also my need to project everything im into at that current time, but when I imagine myself doing normal things like grocery shopping, trying on clothes, or playing a game - i imagine myself as a guy. and I imagine myself being happy. I can be gnc. I can like wlw pairings from my special interests and live my life as a gnc (nb?) guy and I dont have to be wlw to do that. Ive always seen myself as transmasc - even when I was a lesbian i saw myself as butch nb because the thought of being a girl doesnt sit right with me. yes women bring me comfort and yes i feel more comfortable around them but that is literally only because of trauma and because ive never had any real close guy friends to begin with. Trauma doesnt mean I am forced to do what makes me unhappy out of fear; im afraid of men so I called myself a lesbian, but I only did that because I was afraid I was lying again. and I was very unhappy and wanted to go back to when I was confident with my identity, (I doubt i was happy then too though, I really dont remember) but I dont think ive really ever been confident with myself! and accepting who I am regardless of what everyone else will say is the first step. because im trans I will still experience things that a women goes through and I have to accept that as well. just because I relate to what they say sometimes doesnt make me a girl. im just. trans. and thats it. and I definitely do need to work on my fear of cismen and I know that accepting my identity is the first step. I know. for a fact. im not a girl. I never really felt like one or was one, even when I had feminine interests. I am just gnc. that is the best way to describe me and that is what makes me happiest. The thought of transitioning (specifically HRT) is scary right now because im afraid of being bald or losing some of my feminine aspects (again. gnc) but i know for a fact I want top surgery and I know that I want to do vocal warmups to deepen my voice to an extent. I will still do what makes me happy though. I will still be me and I am proud to say im trans and queer and im proud of myself for finally accepting that im at least trans. definitely not my agab and I never have been and I never will be again. It has finally clicked in my brain. I feel like this will help me find a love interest too because I wont be confused all the time and pushing others away. Now I can settle and rest. Its going to take time for me to move on and accept someone new into my life but thats okay. I will treat all of this as a learning experience and im still here and thats all that matters. im me. my gender isnt me, my personality is. thats all that really truly matters. Okay. longpost over! just needed to write this down somewhere for future me or somet hing

#valentine.txt #being trans be like: poggers