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all futures lead to needing each other

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that is an incredible album cover honestly

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i love my thoughts. theyre like pathetic domesticated animals that cant survive on their own

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it also helps that i'm flat chested

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i dont need to buy a weighted blanket i just put a cast iron grill pan on my chest when i sleep. it does basically the same thing

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dj put on william's heart by camera obscura

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this consequence shit is easy. they keep coming to me

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exhaustion is the new prayer

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my daily habit of continuing on

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not looking at the cruelty in my pocket today. at least while at work. i'll gaze into it after work, with the battery still full

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11:12

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just found out about closure

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dont put me in water. i dissolve like sugar

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part of accepting love for me also requires accepting grief, dissolution. my pets will die, my friends may drift from me, lovers may have a change of heart. none of it makes the love in vain. part of accepting love is accepting movement. but love is mostly letting myself get lost in the moment, i am learning. letting myself be fully alive in the now. i dont always need to think that far ahead all the time. the potential exists now.

#okay me from a year ago

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i'm installing windows 95 on my computer this weekend

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this was about my whole 20s i just chose 23 as an example. under 30s dni

i'm so glad i'm not like 23 anymore and have to pay attention to a 23 year old's thoughts nonstop

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2020 will be my year