painteddog-withptsd

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Anyone else been feeling like a burden to those around them? No? Just me?

[painteddog-withptsd]

honestly I don't see another way out of this shithole anymore

it's getting harder to be awake

it's getting harder to pretend

it's getting harder to breathe

[painteddog-withptsd]

I feel like I’m drowning again. I’m falling back into old, bad habits, losing motivation to do anything again and my self esteem has gone completely out the window. I’m not sure how to survive this time.

[painteddog-withptsd]

the bpd paradox of craving love yet fearing the heartbreak that always comes with it

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I hate myself I hate myself so fucking much. I hate my stupid fucking brain. I hate the way I think. I hate the way things effect me. I hate that I ruin everything. I fucking hate myself.

[painteddog-withptsd]

im just built different (unstable)

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over sexualized myself just because i wanted to feel loved

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Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

[painteddog-withptsd]

"how you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the thing on the inside"

- Girl, Interrupted

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when you're having a hard time and trying to reach out for support and suddenly you're a child again hearing "i'll give you something to cry about"

[painteddog-withptsd]

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

[painteddog-withptsd]

Comfort,

I cried to myself a lot this past month, the feeling of your heart hurting while hugging something soft- although sad, is very comforting.

[painteddog-withptsd]

can someone be so nice to me and love me unconditionally and text me all the time and be very sweet and never leave me ever and compliment me and and and

[painteddog-withptsd]

you can’t expect me to understand 

if you never tell me how you feel

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I say "he didn't really traumatize me that much" like I don't have nightmares about ever seeing him again

[painteddog-withptsd]

#bruises #bruise #self bruising

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