oxiegoeimi

[oxiegoeimi]

Art| The Reader

Artist| #Nuhanotion

My pursuit of transparency and nakedness has cost loved ones dearly. In person, I am an actor at best. Why? We exist in a culture and world where weakness and trepidation encourage panic. Strength, integrity, and intelligence create a calm where people can function efficiently. This isn’t for some altruistic cause. There are finance, belonging, and prestige attached to adulting. The more composed one is or projects to be outwardly, the less people will question her or him. So, we ascribe titles and positions to these women and men who can seemingly bear things better than others. Rightfully so . . . At war, we must come to alphas who can react well in times of danger. During peace, we must lean on betas to give us a sense of confidence. Somewhere in the middle, society finds equilibrium. All the while, the script only functions well when people know how to shift gears. Thus; safe places, confidants, and belief systems act as relief valves for the “white lies” we tell ourselves to normalize losing pieces of ourselves for survival in public. If a toddler saw and endured the full spectrum of a parent’s fear, no one would be cared for 24/7. If a patient in the ICU needed the support of one nurse or doctor constantly, none would recover from exhaustion. If a creature needed to be the penultimate source for any existing, we wouldn’t make it. So, my totality is reserved for specific beings. Learning this by sacrificing relationships previously won’t resurrect them. All I can do is continue forward hoping to know where and when I should be completely . . . free. Gross. Believe me, I’m not above anyone. That’s expressing it lightly 🫣😬

- oxiegoeimi

psyche 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| Bright sunset (Wallpapers HD FREE)

Artist| #PolinaReed

Dripping with presupposition, I can’t handle the unexpectedness of time. Crumbling at the slightest shift in energy, my heart has been traumatized repeatedly. Not because miracles didn’t happen, I was just too blinded by pride to embrace the fall from autonomy. Too caught up in my desires, I already decided how to feel before the blossoming of infinity could share its side. Past tense has been my safe haven. Speaking in the present state presents another level of risk. ____ it, I’ll try . . . If you only knew how dependent I am on making them smile, anxiety would make sense. If my conversations with divinity were broadcast, “saint” wouldn’t be the word. When I come home from anything, I enter a silent space where I’m free to be me. Outside of that place, I “adult.” Gross . . . More average and typical than I want to accept, none of my struggles are unique. Studying the human experience, I know that we all go through hell. Most of us exist in environments where we feel the pressure to normalize, rationalize, and numb up. Back to me though . . . I’m perpetually grateful and disappointed in myself. I’m perfectly supported and scared. I’m undeniably the same person I was but older. I’m forever wanted but flighty. I’m with you in this darkness illuminated by our sources. I’m perfectly designed to choose whatever knowing that this freedom only has one path to peace. Messy, emotional, naive, stubborn, angry, overwhelmed, and dumb; I’m a lucky one to have unconditional love surviving . . . me.

- oxiegoeimi

Feel 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| #unknown

Artist| #DelightfulIntrovert

Burden of the invisible, too important to compromise and heavy to share, is something we will never get to experience. While we depend on their breath and spirit to “be,” they refuse to distribute any aspect of their sacrifice. When we desire to love them even a little, they can only impart a finite symbol of the real thing. We aren’t designed to operate as them ever. To bear their likeness and image is meant to illuminate belonging. At no point were we meant to bear wrong versus right. We will never be asked to determine the infinite future for any aspect of time. Insignificant is an understatement. Why? To wear that crown is the greatest curse (burden) of existence. There is no solution or process to becoming them. It is enough that they made us . . . us. The complications we synthesize crumble within their grasp. Our failures and shortcomings? Accounted for . . . If there were any need for judgment here, it is manipulated through eternal implications held spanning 10,000 lifetimes connected from beginning to end. Such are the beings keeping me from suicide. I’d rather not say why, but they have to convince me daily that being here is what they want for me. Apart from that, it would be goodbye until the other side of burial. This is why I can’t afford to not believe in them. They keep me from causing loved ones such pain. Even if I end up being wrong, it’s buying us time together. That may or may not be a good thing, but such why my annoying butt is still around 🫣😬

- oxiegoeimi

Soul 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| #Onism

Artist| #Nuei

Living with this insanity that is my soul has been anything but boring. To inherit the beauty of this place without the mindset to appreciate it, I know that I must change. To be set to marry more than twice and end up apart, statistics demand that I look in the mirror. To live in constant regret is hell. Knowing how billions would give anything to trade places with me, relativity isn’t for a weak stomach. So, let me draw the curtain back for a moment. If I share all the experiences and highs publicly, such would be hard to believe. If my sins weren’t secret, you’d be shocked. Whether past, present, or to be determined; my life is perfect. My actions are not. Accounting for disease, debt, loss, psyche, failure, and reality; each second is one more than I can earn. So, despite the marred perspective and ignorant pride, I recognize that the synthesis of being is too miraculous to ignore. Does this excuse anxiety, fear, and depression? Yes. How and why? Bruh . . . if you never experience those things, we can’t be friends. Anyways, I can’t honestly say that I love everyone and everything. I’m not divinity. There’s no shortage of experts and helpers if you are after enlightenment. I’m just a messy person having a difficult time accepting that infinity decided that I am worth it. Why? I’m not . . . I don’t get to decide for them. Trust me, I tried 😬

- oxiegoeimi

here 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| #Untitled

Artist| #dzorma

Could it be that strength was the great lie? Think about it. Oxygen, light, and gravity concoct means for the nonexistent being to dance. This grand illusion instills confidence, peace, and stability. Without means of paying them, our invisible foundations propitiate all that is life. Through relativity, we are granted means to understand chaos. To complicate this further leads to inadequacy, fear, and bitterness. Some men and women found their salvation. As they attempted to share such things, points of emphasis divided them. Because someone had to be “right,” the opposite became wrong. But, was it really the failure of creatures? Did we start this war or has it been from before us? Feel it. Who in their right minds wants to be miserable? Even if they feel like it is deserved, no one wants sadness. Some find comfort in being stuck and fear change, but none want to wake up empty. I don’t want to preach like a god. All I’m writing is emotion translated to alphabetical symbolism. In all honesty, there are two things I treasure . . . Eternity and you. Even if I don’t know or accept that perfectly, hindsight fills in the details.

- oxiegoeimi

quiet 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| Alone

Artist| #TabbsArtists

May my evils echo the beauty of their love . . . There’s hasn’t been an extended period where I haven’t wanted to escape. This body, mind, and personality has been a festering darkness. Riddled with anger, sadness, inability to communicate, and lies; I am not a saint. The obvious aspect contributing to my “success” lies within the care of others. Be it the kindness of a child, care of an adult, or gaze of an elder; I am beyond rich in support. There is no scenario where I end up on the streets, lack a meal and drink, or can’t call someone to help. The less obvious aspect is either schizophrenia, ignorant belief, or real. I could point out the percentage of humanity subscribing to some form of the supernatural, but that data is just a plea for validation. Here’s the other side of my coin. I have dreams often translating to this dimension either in the past or future. I experience coincidences perfectly crashing into my plans redirecting me to safety. I meet beings who have had experiences eerily lining up with mine. I have a world, in a universe, within a timeline, and a set of senses allowing me to belong. I inherited a communication system allowing me to spill out and receive data ensuring that I’ll never be alone. I hear voices who have at times manifested in different ways and brought me to places where I could see and feel them. So, it’s either insanity or religious? Whatever . . . It’s my life.

- oxiegoeimi

kept 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| The Universe

Artist| #kiosaz

Whirlwind sweeping through this broken body, capturing memories and casting out hatred, continue to bleed me of this putrid darkness. Show me the wonder behind losing the dross and independence. Fight me to the end of my spirit. Showcase how divinity is not for the finite. Liberate me from the weight of good versus evil. Allow me to surrender truth through my fingers, lips, and exhales. Confession, allow me to inherit the conclusions of judge and jury. Continuing under the pretense of perception being reality is unbearable when the root is watered by lies. Silence, how accustomed I’ve become to laying with you? Excuses and rationalizations, what heavy armor you are for my brain? Distance, how we’ve run away from everything? Reflection, how estranged we’ve become? Love lost and bitterness consuming me, the damage is done. Spinning it up with a positive? At the very least, I stopped allowing myself to pretend in the dark. Hopefully, it will translate to transparency. Why? I know that being flawed, tired, and frustrated are prerequisites to love. I could explain . . . rather not. If you know, you know.

- oxiegoeimi

catharsis 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| let it out,

Artist| #zephy0

Deviant in every sense of the word, I tattooed darkness on my left wrist as a reminder. On the right, deliverance . . . My right ring finger has all my idols and left a promise. Atop the left hand, god in Greek. The right, not Them. The symbol for peace is on my right forearm with black light ink symbolizing the three who create it. On the left, a box representing the past and future has this moment inside of it. On the back of my neck, there is reflective writing reminding me to be stupid. On my ribs, there’s a published scar for the first person I ever committed my heart to fully. That thing has liar written on it so that I don’t forget how deceitful my emotions can be . . . The artists with a permanent pen covered fragments of this storyline. My actions are the impact of causation. Family, friends, and enemies molded my personality through seasons. All of it founded upon DNA scripted from eternity’s creative hands, limits and expands my experience. Blossoming under the tutelage of sacrificial characters, hindsight is a _____ . Guilted by their kindness, my natural tendencies to implode were suffocated. So, deviance continues to exist in me. I’ve begged and pleaded for the lobotomy of flesh, but the Invisible counteracted my suicidal ideation with presence. If not for fearing and loving our source, nonexistence would have occurred permanently. Through the reach of others, I’ve learned that all of it is a symphony of light exposing and treating finite ignorance. Enlightenment is just a pretentious means of expressing, “I was wrong.” I still am and will be many times over. Human . . . not God (Oxi Ego Ei Mi).

- oxiegoeimi

human 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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Art| sadness again

Artist| #boko

Shattered glass and empty bottles, not every failure is documented. Perfection has been my mistress for ages. A lack of humility and enraged ego cost me everything. More times than not, I’ve been jealous. Frustrated with wants and cares, I fought to bleed this heart dry. If emotions couldn’t hamper productivity, my mind would run clear. Becoming lifeless would be such a small thing if it meant being helpful. Talking to myself again, I’d rewrite reality with sunshine and rainbows. Adopting pieces of philosophy as truth, memories would be reinterpreted through the lens of people I never met. By faith, I’d abandon the wreckage of my soul for busyness. I’d find a way out of this fishbowl somehow. Flaws and scars continue to haunt me. Self-absorbed adult with anxiety and fear, I refused to let anyone behind the curtain. You met my script and subconscious attempt at being normal . . . Too many experts and solutions in this world. If I could write one honest sentence, “It hurts.” Spin it with some positive conclusion? Sure. I only exhale these things knowing that somewhere beneath the makeup, what I’m mumbling rings true with your spirit. Why? We’re the same homie. Yup.

- oxiegoeimi

naked 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| #Infinity

Artist| #Faedus

Obsessed with dying, I found my culprit. Loved from birth; I finally fixated on the one aspect of being enabling me to destroy, consume, and let go of control. Without the need for glass or photos, I could see this reflection soberly. My ego would be the martyr going forward. As scars would form and wounds fester, I could bury myself without dirt. Masochism? Zero percent. Listening to old voicemails, reading our private messages, and closing my eyes to remember them; I know what happened now. Called a saint, while being a devil transformed into light, I manipulated my way into their trust. Being a spiritual leader, while an existential drunk, I knew all the right things to do and say out loud. The problem? Past tense isn’t sufficient. Until I permanently die, the potentiality of falling and failing continues to be my temptress. A wicked heart and pessimistic soul, any actual good in me is by the grace of divinity and creation. Any evil is just me. Talks of rebirth and immersion into the spirit sound good. Actions will illustrate whether they’re just words. Overcomplicating the slightest things, it’s easier to be stuck when I refuse to embrace peace. There is no they . . . There’s only will, choice, and existence. Everything experienced stems from these three. Will it be life everlasting or eternal hyperventilation through lies? My process sways between them both. The latter needs to die, while the former must be freely accepted. Yup.

- oxiegoeimi

choices 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| Pianists

Artist| #SkyCogs

My greatest folly has been and continues to be neglecting reality. I could blame media, youth, and being human. The plethora of excuses runs rampant in my heart. Each person has her or his version of truth. Dependent on DNA and experience, each creature is equipped with senses. A cat has a view from the ground, while an eagle soars above our land. A whale swims amongst the shrimp, and a car needs fuel to travel. Our planet swings around our sun, while other monstrosities depend on their solar systems. A child born in Rome centuries ago may have the same socioeconomic status as one born in America today. A religious soul may find peace in writings as the tides find their structure in the silent embrace of infinity. Words multiplied can symbolize growth in comprehension, while neglecting the speechless emotions that could never be learned. My greatest fear is being sucked into myself instead of the Ether. To ignore the infinitude blatantly expressed through your hands, feet, and presence; I would be lying. Regardless of how it is interpreted, this thing we called today is what we make it. Our perception of breath and existence determines heaven or hell. A heartbeat and an hour are more than nonexistence altogether. So, my greatest sin is in taking it for granted . . . Reality.

- oxiegoeimi

you 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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[oxiegoeimi]

Art| i'm done

Artist| #AntekPyra

For you to feel may scars, just close your eyes and breathe. When they open, turn off your phone and walk outside. Instead of focusing on what’s around you, just put one foot in front of the other and let go of control. Whatever is bothering you, let it flow from head to toe. As people get closer, fight the practice of cover up. When they start to ask what’s wrong, be honest. As your subconscious attempts to thwart nakedness, fight for transparency. Then, repeat. My whole mission is to let the chips fall where gravity determines. Why? They have a source, the same root of you and me, who supposedly has a reason for this mess. My heart has decided to test that hypothesis out internally. While I am failing at this currently, each scar is one more marker for my map leading home. Whether relational or psychological, I don’t know what will occur. I really have no clue . . . What I can share is that I have been inheriting such sorrow and joy through means much grander than my intelligence and independent spirit. The sound of crying and laughter paint my eardrums cyclically. Though I’m 36, I’ve never been younger than at this hour. Even if I added up the debt and the excess, none of it would impact the reality of existence. To die would be such a liberating release from guilt, pressure, and sadness. So, each opportunity I get to “end” a version of me, I commit to freely in hopes that something out there will sprout the next one. With every exhale; I inhale the next letter, word, and sentence written in existential matter. If I only had one sentence to describe me . . . A fool unintentionally connected with beings who love him unconditionally. Yikes.

- oxiegoeimi

human 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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Art| time machine.652

Artist| #fox4355

Kaleidoscope of time, with all of its pains and aches, continues to drum up feelings of shame and sorrow. Winning the lottery of existence, these feet and hands came into being somehow against all logic. Could it be that I formed the Solar System, taught the tides their boundaries, or wrote over eight billion human personalities into 2024 CE? No. When I was riding the magical school bus into Narnia, were those adults aware of what was churning behind my quiet eyes? How many girls fancied me as I wrote them off to pursue a certain few? Each gave me such wondrous experiences. Invoking a sense of responsibility; women changed my religion, perspective, and desire. My compadres would often talk about stupid stuff to turn our brains off and vibe. This vacation from nonexistence somehow became permanent. Ugh . . . I realize that at any moment my soul could vacate this reality. The timer and countdown of these heartbeats are unknown to any creature. We use 26 alphabetical characters (English) to transfer data. Within the symbology; we capture interpretation of body language, emotion, and curiosity. It’s true. I’m a writer, not a speaker. I’m a listener, not a judge. I’m a finite, not a god. I’m a crazy, not a smart. I’m a human, not a saint. I’m a lost, not a navigator. I’m a person, not an icon. I’m a sadness, not a perfect. I’m a you, not a special. I’m a lucky, not a victim. I’m a loved, not a savior . . . You’re a wanted, not a trash.

- oxiegoeimi

melancholy 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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Art| Memories Final

Artist| #VorsusDesigns

Falling with the current, I’m sucked away from shore through their gravity. Fighting the possibility that my castle founded in sand needs to crumble, my heart is stubborn and proud. Scar tissue caused by my rebellion primarily, add me to the data comprising stereotypical young adults who woke up from La La Land. So, I’m not the smartest person in the room? The world wasn’t waiting for me to grow up? Time wasn’t keeping secrets and holding me back? You aren’t threats to my autonomy? Ugh . . . Did I really manipulate them into thinking it was their fault? Have decades really come and gone? Oh, boy. Where did these accomplishments and opportunities come from despite me? How did my generation go from the back to the front? My homies have kids and partners? Adults became elders and retired? Oh, shoot . . . What did they mean by asking us to step up and receive the baton? Did that kiddo really just call me sir? Yikes. Can I just unplug the batteries from the clock to stop it? How about rewinding the movie to the beginning? Way too many questions and obvious answers . . . It’s true. Everything that ever occurred is in the past. For some of us, time is speeding up internally. If you’re like me, anxiety is a thing. The soup overflowed the bowl, ran off the table, hit the floor, and flooded the building. Instead of sipping it, you’re swimming in it. Even if you’re not like me, this life thing is something else. I hope that we get comfortable because it doesn’t end after old age. It just transitions . . . What else is new? Changes? Uh, no thank you. No choice? That’s fine. It’s okay. I’m ready. Uh, can we talk about this and not go that way? No? Look at us, all growed up and stuff 🧐🫣🥸

- oxiegoeimi

catharsis 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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Art| #Love

Artist| #pokpokz

Okay . . . Be careful if you decide to go beyond the period. Caught up in endless fighting, watching them kill themselves over nothing, and failing to cope with my anger; I grew tall when I was still void of independence. Conflicting data and endless testing, my little spirit was forced to believe things to get that paper. Crossing stages with different caps and gowns, my people made me a social giant. Military veteran, academic doctor, social lover, and free to do whatever the heck I want; I never needed a card to travel the most powerful environment in the history of this planet. Crossing the ocean without being seen and entering private circles with every level of clearance, I got my popcorn and watched the symphony of mind games. All the while, my heart was numb enough to keep up with the constant bombardment of emotions. Relative to any other human, I’ve made it more times than I can remember. My resume doesn’t cover the best parts. Late nights playing Juliet and Romeo, early days catching the city bus as a youth, packed car traversing mountains, and endless conversations in states of sorrow and naïveté; I have more ammunition than I can use up in a lifetime. The hard part? What do I choose with a wealth of experiences and debt of love? Too much power for me to process . . . There’s only one thing that stabilizes my wretched soul. Transparency. There are three aspects to such vulnerability. Self, creation, and composer demand honesty to be connected. Without it, I’m just holding my breath and choking on lies.

- oxiegoeimi

whisper 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟

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Art| The Crying Stairwell

Artist| #SilentxTime

I’m crazy and have been ever since childhood. Trying to cover this up with accolades, rhetoric, and silence has been the heaviest of vanities. Learning how generations of our species operated with different social norms, unique religions, and relative governing philosophies only drove me further into confusion. When time no longer became the excuse and ethnicity compounded differentiation, I just about choked on fear. As I started to notice how gender and age predispose us to certain tendencies, my frustration with genetic composition grew wild. When others started to see me as an adult, I cowered in the shadows. Throwing all my junk into the bonfire and running away into different ecosystems, I rapidly adapted my personality to their cultures. Whether familial, friendly, or pragmatic; I was a con artist at best. With a black belt in faking it, I manipulated environments for personal safety and peace. My ego projected self-loathing and bitter jealously through subtext and gossip. It must be obvious how little respect I have for my mirror. That guy was disassociated from me to cope with the stubborn depravity I wish I could bury literally. Impossible. The work required to escape defeatism and wickedness is overly simple. The first step is unbiased acknowledgement. The second is recognition of the alternative. The third is seeking help. The forth is being receptive to others. The last is choosing to fail repeatedly in the right direction. Change is an asynchronous process that destroys one aspect to form another. Damn. Such is difficult, humiliating, and painful. But, the current iteration of self is worse.

- oxiegoeimi

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Art| #Tired

Artist| #MrGuyiKnow

The chaos that ensued after our fallout is hard to verbalize and acknowledge. I recognize the wounding caused by my shots and anger. I learned so much through hindsight. But, I am and will continue to be the person you saw at my lowest. Why? It’s who I am . . . Stripped of the mental gym, self-control, and makeup; the depravity behind my skin cannot be eradicated here. If any positivity emits from this breath and through these hands, there are others causing it. To some this is mere semantics, to me it is science. Love can be pretty in photography and writing. Over the seasons, it comes and goes depending on the internal struggle. If I am in crisis, I can be a monster. When things feel right, I can appear to be angelic. The potentiality of good and bad are equally present. Anything else is false advertisement. So, rather than rationalize or spiritualize anything, I’d rather not inherit more guilt from hiding my face. To some degree, it may be inferiority complex. But, I am prone to Messiah Complex too. Such makes me conclude that it’s my responsibility to jump into other peoples’ drama to “save” them. The damage through enablement, though founded by genuine intentions, can cripple growth and empowerment. So, the earthquake that transpired because of our parting ways broke us in different ways. What I tell myself is that continuing with me would have hurt you more in the long run. Where there’s no compatibility, we’d have to play pretend. You deserve better than a fake me. When I conquer that guy outright, I’ll be contented. Why? Those who cross paths with me will know what they’re getting into when giving me their time and attention.

- oxiegoeimi

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