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Latest reblog reminds me of how much it pisses me the fuck off how every queer person alive has to adapt to the usamerican style of queerness lest we get shunned by the community for being too different. I bring this up a lot but bro that time I got death threats for having ele/dele in my bio bc "by using neopronouns I was making a mockery of REAL trans people" when those are literally just my pronouns in my native language, and when I said that I got hit w the "well you're on the internet so speak english" I HATE GRINGOS I HATE GRINGOS I HATE GRINGOS

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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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shampoo & conditioner… aka the “salt & pepper” of being in the shower. 1 reblog = 1 agree. cheers

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For example, 7x3=21, 5x9=45, etc. If you do, what is it?

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#can #can i say something with variables #those would be expressions not equations but shhhh #anyway 6x • 45

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i have this picture as my current desktop screen so everytime i close my laptop i say ‘game over’ and slam it shut

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The person I reblogged this from is awesome as fuck.

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i could be so powerful except for the fact that i don’t wanna

#a hit with the mutuals i see

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dogs that hunt because i wanted to improve my shapes and also because i like drawing characters standing next to each other

#is teruko actually that small

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i could be so powerful except for the fact that i don’t wanna

#ortho.txt

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ENA!!!!!

#untitled.jpeg #my art #pjsk #prsk #ena shinonome #project sekai #pjsk ena #prsk ena #niigo #nightcord at 25:00 #25 ji nightcord de #n25 #n25 ena #niigo ena #project seikai: colorful stage! feat. hatsune miku #shinomome ena #ibis paint x #prsk fa #proseka #pjsk fanart #pjsekai #prsk art

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"you're so quiet!" I'm exploding you with my mind

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We really do need to bring back the word "trolling" and warning ppl not to feed the trolls

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me when i wanna talk about my special interests but i got the vampire autism where you gotta invite me to talk about smth first, otherwise i wont say shit or dont know what to say because i feel like im annoying

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Trans allyship leaving y’all’s body the moment a trans man has a unique relationship with masculinity/manhood and doesn’t want to look like a cis man