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I think I’m just having an ongoing anxiety attack.

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I could take an extended sabbatical or something. I think I’m going mental, in a way. It’s not necessarily very good..

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I just mean something that might make me feel a little bit better.. Temporarily, at least.

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I feel like I’m losing it, slightly, but it’s all whatever. It’s fine.

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uhhhhh. what do you mean drastic

Not suicide if that’s what you’re thinking. I don’t even know, really, just something.

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Maybe I need to do something drastic.

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At this rate, I’ll probably die of an anxiety induced heart attack sooner rather than later, so maybe I shouldn’t have to worry about that anyway.

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Like, what am I really going to do with myself.. I have a hard enough time living with what I’ve done now, I don’t need it to get worse.

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If I abandon my whole entire life now, do you think that I could avoid becoming a bad person..

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you might get lucky and retire in your fifties with your guy

That doesn’t mean I won’t end up an awful person regardless.. It’s an upsetting thought.

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I’m doomed to become an awful person, aren’t I..

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I think I’m feeling somewhat worse than usual. It just happens, I suppose, but I don’t know…

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whatever. WHATEVER.

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good boy but in the way you praise a hunting dog after you have it gore something

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It is sad that I have to leave him at home, though. But, much as I’d like to see him all the time, I can’t really afford to fall behind on work.

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I’ll probably end up working late today.. I feel bad about missing work yesterday. I usually leave by five, but maybe I don’t have to stay too much longer if I try to get more paperwork done before then.

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I can’t be bad in all of them, right? There has to be one where I’m a good person.

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