olderpulp

[olderpulp]

idk who still follows me on here but hey, gonna log out of this account pretty much for good now. if u know my discord or twitter then we can still say hi. i think of y’all sometimes. hope everyone’s doing fine

[olderpulp]

oop thought i was functioning thru intuition last night but turns out it was the ego taking over in desperation. damn

[olderpulp]

damn. i feel broken

[olderpulp]

everything within me is changing so quickly and now i feel so lost

#the divination system i studied for the past year now makes almost absolutely no sense to me #i don't feel connection to many people i used to think of as friends anymore #i don't know what to feel or think about life #everything is so uncertain

[olderpulp]

oof dark night of the soul

[olderpulp]

idk what more i have to do or how much longer i have to wait

[olderpulp]

r u coming to get me or not

[olderpulp]

i don't want to spend any more nights here.

[olderpulp]

show me in plain language that ur making moves to come get me

[olderpulp]

i don't know if i can sleep at all tonight/morning

[olderpulp]

i'm going to need u to take care of me, universe. take me to what's nourishing for me within the day. within the day. i don't see why i have to wait much longer. i did the work. show me what u can do so that i can trust u. don't play with the delays anymore. i don't see why i have to stay in the energy of this home anymore. i don't see why i have to put up with unsuitable food anymore. i know the people in this home are doing their best with what they know, and i know this place isn't for me. i don't know what place is for me, but u do. u know it and u can bring me to it and u can help ease my struggles. don't leave me in the dark here, there's no point. i want my authentic life and i want u to honour my needs. i came here with the agreement that u would take care of me. so take care of me. step it the fuck up please

#i don't want to do this without ur help anymore. help me

[olderpulp]

hey so i unfollowed a lot of u, no hard feelings i just need to be in my own energy

[olderpulp]

make it effortless for me, universe.

[olderpulp]

i'm like pretty hot actually

[olderpulp]

i am so impatient for the universe to take me to a better situationnnnnnnnnn

moooooooooooooooooooooom come get me omggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

ring ring the fuckin telePHONG ANSWER ME MOM

#universe mom r u here yet r u here yet r u here yet r u here yet

[olderpulp]

universe take care of meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[olderpulp]

kinda p tired of being at a place where i need to be constantly soothing myself. imagining a situation where the simple act of living in it soothes me....