nyctodromist

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#some of it? #i love being autistic but i'm so tired of being anxious about everything all the time

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i LOVE the idea of "i can't win, but you can lose" in fictional confrontations it is SO fucking tasty. the human nature to self destruct and the human nature to survive by any means necessary combined at its finest.

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#corduroy kitty

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#cultist simulator #screaming and crying because i have to pick between the elegiast and the sun in rags #but i think i have to vote for the elegiast

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irl tumblr meetup with the mutual circle but no one says what their url is so u have to guess who is who

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what about that SHE was doomed by the narrative that SHE could not avoid HER tragic ending that SHES been dead since the beginning and nothing could be done to save HER

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i had a joke about orpheus and eurydice but looking back it wasn't a good idea

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"if you ship this thing it's because you're too naïve to understand that it's toxic and that you wouldn't like a relationship like this" actually it's because I see one of them as a mentos drop and the other as a bottle of coke zero and I want to watch the mess they'll be together

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you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy

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would you a marry a swiftie with the same politics as you or a fascist with the same taste in art as you

this website has elevated suicide bait to an immaculate artform perfected like no other culture in history

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if i'm being absolutely completely totally honest i think that "it wasn't you" doesn't go far enough in absolving someone of the guilt of being the subject of a brainwashing or mind control plot. because at the end of the day, it was you. it was your body, your mind, potentially even your soul, being stripped of its autonomy, intimately violated and turned against you as much as anyone else. it's a kind of assault, and should be treated as such, especially in more mature narratives. i think that "it wasn't your fault" and "your shame at being made helpless and unable to control your own body and mind's involuntary responses is understandable, but you are not in any way irredeemable or unforgivable because of what was done to you" are also necessary reassurances. and i think that there should be lingering resentment in spite of words of forgiveness and miscommunication and long-term post-traumatic consequences also.

#orion lancaster

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imagine two mated wyrms twisting around each other, possessing an uncountable number of limbs, each claw of good or evil interlocked with its opposite, the coil twists further around itself into a skein of flesh. how i would describe DNA to a wizard

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eroticism of the machine this, eroticism of the machine that. what about the AROMANTICISM of the machine. what about the electric comfort of looking at a beautiful turbine engine and knowing that it is just like you. what about the urge to cut open your chest to prove your heart is made of wires and your ribs are made of steel. what about that

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i want 60 thousand votes by next thursday

#yes #still do

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I am developing a gay hookup app with roguelike and deckbuilding elements

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a weighted blanket is not enough please compress me into a .zip file

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"you are addicted to screens" no no you see i am actually addicted to my friends. unfortunately they live in there