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far too old to care about fandom opinions i am an adult with a *sees a take* hm. never mind actually. i am in fact so blessed to have a huge brain and correct inconsequential opinions on fictional characters. there but for the grace of god go i

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#I FUCKCNG GNFIS FBSJBSJAN #FALLOUT

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We did it. Work is back to being under control. Now we get an assigned amount of work for the day and then I get to relax and definitely not play Zelda the whole time.

Sometimes we get called to do a little bit more work so I have to pay attention but. This has been going on since July and I can't believe it's over!! I can go back to getting housework done during the day and stuff 😭 my poor burned out brain...

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purpose of this poll: basically im wondering if my gran having a pistol was a typical american experience

#yes my sister owns a couple and I've shot one lol

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What's up guys turns out I left my iron on for multiple weeks sitting in an unused room so if you're having some self esteem issues just look at this post and go "wow! What the fuck" and feel better!

#I'm gonna go ahead and blame the ptsd causing working memory issues??? #there was absolutely no damage to anything whatsoever #hence the not knowing it was on for 2+ weeks #the door to the room was open the whole time so I would've noticed anything

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sorry i just, do you have any idea how demoralizing it is, that i've been writing for decades and it's the only thing i can offer in terms of Creative Anything, Ever, and I had to reblog my shit 140 times to get one potential "i liked this!!" comment, and I felt so brave putting my stuff on AO3, and I was so burned out and didn't write for a couple years but started up again, and did all the same stuff I did before and i can't get as much as like, a comment or more than a single kudos, or any real feedback whatsoever,

and like, I don't want to sound so bitter. but i encouraged my sister to start writing her star wars self-insert stuff. and all she did was put it on AO3 and she got a bajillion people instantly fawning all over her story, loving her OC, drawing her fanart, begging her for updates, and it's like

what am i doing wrong??? was my writing really so fucking shitty and worthless that I couldn't get the attention of more than 2 people who would read my stuff out of pity I'm sure

like what's WRONG with me. i'd love feedback, or something, somewhere to talk to people about writing this stuff. a friend invited me to a server that's a couple friends of hers to do this exact thing, except nobody's posted anything for months

i cleared out ALL my writing from tumblr and wiped my AO3 and i had ONE person go "oh, i liked your stuff", except I never got any actual comments on my actual stuff in years!!! how can i believe anyone cared if no one ever said anything to me!!!!

i feel so fucking broken and beaten down and upset, writing is LITERALLY ALL I FUCKING HAVE. i cannot draw pretty pictures of my stories i'm fucking sorry! all i can do is write and my stuff either wasn't good enough to warrant being commented on, or people couldn't bother to read it.

i support "writing for just yourself" so much. that's what i've been doing for so long!!! but i was actively asking for feedback and for people to just PLEASE SAY ANYTHING, and even friends who have in theory been supportive of my writing can't do that!!!!! this makes me feel so petty and fucking awful but IT'S ALL I FUCKING HAVE. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE.

i've been in this HORRIFIC depression over this for WEEKS and i haven't had like a single word of sympathy or caring and it's just violently reinforcing that yeah, i was wasting mine and everyone's time and no one wants to read the things i'm writing.

when I was writing fallout stuff people really liked it! i would get regular comments and stuff! but the pokemon stuff is what i'm most passionate about and i just. i just wanted someone to read.

even an irl friend asked me, actively fucking asked me! for the link to my AO3 and I gave it to him and have not heard a single word. like why even ask. i am so fucking heartbroken.

i don't want to take this out on people. it's not people i'm mad at it's myself. i'm just convinced now that nothing i create is worthwhile and I was right to delete all of my writing (cleared a lot from my computer too) because the idea of someone missing it is a joke.

i have never felt this hopeless about the SINGLE THING I CAN DO in my entire life. i don't want to give it up entirely i have this pathetic little string of hope i'm holding onto and i don't want to let go. but just why fucking bother. because i will have NOTHING left if I don't have this. but why bother.

i feel like i've become nothing but a burden or, at most, an accessory to everyone in my life lately. i'm like everyone's third or fourth place consideration and i cannot tell you how worthless that makes me feel. i have to arm wrestle conversations out of people and i just don't have that kind of energy anymore.

i feel like such a goddamn disappointment of a human being.

#i am really not doing well at all :)

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Do people actually talk on discord or has everyone just been pranking me this whole time by asking what mine is and then never interacting

#like is everything just peoples' personal servers #where there's 75 people i don't know all talking to each other #and i'm just supposed to like.... know how to talk to 50+ strangers

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you may think your only options are

but in fact you can

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Kind of hilarious to me how poorly the title "Mob Psycho 100" localized to English-speaking areas. To someone whose first language is English, it scans as:

Mob (Yakuza, Mafia)

Psycho (violent person with "crazy" behaviors)

Thus: a particularly violent member of organized crime.

But in Japanese it scans as:

Mob (background characters in crowd scenes in manga or anime)

Psycho (short for psychic)

Thus: a psychic who looks/acts like someone you'd never pick out of a crowd scene in a comic.

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You, a heroic paladin have successfully slain a fearsome dragon. But the dragon warns you that death is but a door, and dragons don’t die, they reincarnate. You paid it no mind….until your son was born with golden, slitted eyes.

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At some point in your life, you were taught that being slightly annoying is an unforgivable sin. Maybe it was by your parents or a teacher or a friend or a bully or an older sibling. But someone taught you that being slightly annoying is a crime punishable by death.

You must unlearn this.

You must accept that all people will be annoying at some point or another in their lives, maybe all of their lives, and that this is okay. It is okay for strangers on the bus, it is okay for children in the grocery store, it is okay for people on social media, and it is okay for you.

If you ever want to truly love your fellow humans, if you ever want to truly love yourself, you must have forgiveness for being annoying.

#was taught by literally everyone #still working on it

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i know that "unalive" is part of larger worrying trend of self censorship but if you really are in a situtation where you have to avoid the words "die" or "kill" the english language already has centuries worth of much better euphemisms. the iconic and perennial "six feet under"? the lovely imagery of "pushing up daisies"? "shuffle off this mortal coil"????? literally anything from the monty python dead parrot bit???? you have so many options. please try to be more creative at least

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I'm just interesting what's gonna be the result on Tumblr

#I have 6 now and they are ALL fandom goofery lol! #I want another so bad 😭😭😭

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#idk how 2 blonde anime men have plagued my life in a row #I never watch anime but then I do and some blonde jpeg ass man gets my fuckin soul in his boring hands

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Someone: "Wouldn't fucking a Ghoul kill you? The radiation and stuff?"

Me:

#as a nick valentine fucker i say we must support our ghoul fucking brethren always #they'll make sure we get our tetanus shots and we make sure they have plenty of rad-away #fallout