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Be good to me, and I'll be good to you, But please don't be too good to be true.

#too good to be true #kacey musgraves #lyrics

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haha!!!!

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Song of the Sea - Reimagined Movie Poster (Reupload)

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Cormorant, Sullivan

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"It seemed as if the whole, awful creature were simply gorged with blood; he lay like a filthy leech, exhausted with his repletion."

Bram Stoker's Dracula | portfolio | prints

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Some recent times I tried to be honest about being upset or disappointed in a man and how they responded. Contextual details obviously removed because otherwise this would be a whole thing.

1. Man pops back up after not talking to me for 2 days. I tell him that I don't like that he did that. In that message, I say "ignoring my messages isn't cool and made me feel bad." He responded to say that he hadn't been ignoring my messages and he had just been not opening them "until he had time to respond" because otherwise that would have been rude. No apology.

2. Man pops back up after not talking to me for 10 days, asks me to dinner, then basically stands me up for that. I get as close to snapping on someone as I ever have. I used the word irritated and told him not to contact me again if he couldn't decide what he wants. He apologized and I would say he reacted pretty well in this interaction - like, he didn't make me feel like there was no point in me having said anything. He was a fuckboy overall though, and couldn't back up his words with actions despite him handling my irritation fine.

3. Man pops back up after 4 days (plus a few days before that where he was messaging like once per day). His message is decent in that it acknowledged that he could have found a min to text me and keep me in the loop of the medical thing he vaguely cited as his reason for being absent. He also doesn't give fuckboy vibes. All I said was basically "idk what to say. I know I'm a stranger to you but I wish you'd said something to keep me in the loop." I'm happy with this. It's not accusatory, and it doesn't overstate my feelings, but it's honest. He never responded to this. Apparently the only acceptable response on my part would have been to say nothing and pretend I was fine.

None of these men realistically had or have any reason to want to make me happy. So it's not as bad as suspecting that your boyfriend will break up with you if you display any hints of having unfulfilled wants or needs. But also isn't it just fucking sad. I'm asking for so little and I rarely get it. I'm trying to give men chances to rectify their mistakes, but what I'm getting is reinforcement to the idea that I should just cut things off quickly and ruthlessly at this stage.

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Snow and traffic on Chicago’s Lakeshore Drive

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Marie Bovo (Spanish, b.1967)

Cour Intérieure series  -  2009

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A digital painting I made trying to mimic realistic paint textures without ever picking up a brush. I called it “Fuck This Shit I’m Out”

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‘Teabag Cyanotypes’ (2021) by: Rachel Rector

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Ask me out or don't text me again.

A new iteration of a familiar prayer.

I can strip away all inference, all meaning making, all attempts to look below the surface of things, but I'm still left with this: someone who takes 7 hours to respond to a text is not interested in conversing. That's fine, but if you don't want to talk, then we shouldn't talk.

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Should I have texted back faster? Should I have flirted more? Should I have kissed you goodbye last week? Were you testing me? Did I fail?

I'm tired. My heart hurts. It's always hurting.

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Midnight Clouds ☁️✨

I’ve noticed that my brush strokes have been getting more confident and free everytime I make these studies of clouds!

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Where would I be without the sea? | © víctor m. alonso

[I am a son of this planet; I was born by the sea. The milk I sucked from my mother's breast when I was a child was brackish, the same as you. I am a son of this land, of this planet that sinks into the mystery of salt in the enigmatic navigation of the waves; my blood has the same ingredients of a mother's milk, the one I told you above, the same cosmic components that have the ocean waves, or the silent and sometimes rough shore where I reflect the shape of my soul every day and every night]

victormalonso.com

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Tomoya Tsukamoto (Japanese, b. 1982)

Source of Light, 2006

Oil on Canvas

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Fall leaves fall...

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Three things my past sexual partners have had in common:

1. They were basically nice people (as far as I know)

2. They meant no harm

3. It didn't matter to them that I was me. I could've been anyone. I might as well have been.

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