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it’s cosmic longing for connection hours

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Bookends // S&G

billing poster. 3rd April, 1968

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your body looks like a statue so I thought it’d be hard like one but actually it was quite soft and damp from sweat and that made me think you were 100% pure angel

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i went out last friday with my roommates. i've missed my hot friend very much, don't have anyone to talk to after i come home from the internship, don't have anyone to have dinner with....... very funny also that on the day that i'm about to unfold here a guy asked me 'do you miss your man?' lol.

anyhoo: i went out last friday to a bar with a bunch of foreigners.... i saw a very good looking guy, curly under-the-shoulders blond hair, very tiny and pointy nose and cute eyes. also very into fashion from what i noticed: a white wife beater and some dickie's dress pants and a blazer lol. he looked young and was new to the group, so i was curious. afterwards we went walking to the city center and to a salsa club....i danced for a while, and then went to sit. i sat next to him, pointed at his drink and he offered me a little bit, then we sat shoulder to shoulder, and after a few minutes i asked about his tattoos in spanish. he had a clover and a chrysanthemum in the back of his hands. he couldn't understand so i switched to english and started talking in each others ears' because the music was very loud. he asked me about my tattoos and checked them out. he's french from lyon and was here on vacations, he told me he was working at a farm from 6 am to 6 pm harvesting leeks. he had a very very strong accent and saw him struggle a little bit. his name was tristan which is a very cute name, very romantic as well. i really liked he had worked on a farm and so i showed him pictures of me milking cows and just pictures i took on my field trip, also talked about farming issues in europe. a very funny topic to go over at a salsa club. he asked me if i wanted anything. he got me a beer, and when we were finished i got another one. we were talking and then my roommate was leaving but i stopped him and told him if he was leaving then i was too. he said 'i thought you were flirting' which made me feel very embarrassed lol. all of us left and hugged on the street. didn't exchange anything lol

i was really happy at the end though. at this point i don't think i'm looking for pointless flirting, i just want to find a connection with someone, someone who can talk beyond your usual small-talk, who shows interest and doesn't think i'm weird lol

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sevdaliza !!

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he's leaving on tuesday and i have to transition into living my life without him in it.... i had a such great time. last sunday we had a long day and we chilled in the terrace, then he asked me if i was up to do something and then we went for lunch, then walked around cali, then watched the bob marley movie, afterwards some drinks and later we walked home and ran into a roommate and his friends. a lot of banter as usual, a lot of flirting as well. i told him he shouldnt flirt for sport yet he kept going. the two of us gave this day a 10/10. yesterday we went out to a techno rave... at first i thought he wanted to go with other people and i was hesitant but in the end it was only me and him. we had dinner before, then hung out at the park for a bit, and afterwards we headed out. he was very special and attentive. offered to carry my keys and phone, bought me some drinks, offered me cigarettes. when we came home he filled me a cup with water and ice (my favorite) <3 we talked to each other while smoking and we said we were going to miss each other. sad this is ending but a goodbye is just part of getting to know each other in such a deep level. it was so fun.

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I don't believe in casual romance. I believe in mutual obsession and extreme jealousy mixed with possession

#This is me rn with this mf friendship/situationship #burning with jealousy because of possession #why is this happening what am i learning from this #thank god he goes away in a week #and i wont have to see him again #interacting with his fucking shiny new toy

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this guy has me feeling jealous for the first time in forever because he got a shiny new toy (german roommate) who is also into techno and they just went to a rave together, he bailed on me for the pool and when i came back they were still hanging out....... and everything is so unclear with him that i don't feel secure about anything! i don't know if he likes me likes me.... at least i know he considers me as a friend but yet he holds my hand to run when we're rushing and when i went to his room to talk he opened his door in fucking boxers and we talked for an hour didn't cover himself at all like.... what the fuck do you want from meeeeee

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he's being so cruel, why is he doing this to me

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not trying to vent rn but this very handsome guy has been flirting with me for the past three months but its very confusing and today is his birthday and he'a not from this country so i wanted to be nice, a nice friend, a nice roommate and invite him to dinner because it's sad to spend your whole bday working but he said no because he's busy and im sad and i feel rejected :-( this is so dumb, i'm fucking 26 why am i sad over this? i like him, maybe that's why! and i thought it was both ways because he's so confusing!!!!!! i hate social interaction

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The cow in the pasture. Preparatory book to accompany down our street. 1939.

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Thistles. The Boys’ and Girls’ Readers: Seventh Reader. 1926.

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