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#dove #OOOOWOOOO ooo #ooo o ooo

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#10/10

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searching ao3 by kink tag instead of fandom is so insightful. way too many of you are able to cum to a dude named "quackity".

#Literally #How

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i know there's a lot of ego and assumptions about my own susceptibility to manipulation going on here but i truly think i am immune to most cults. not even from a bullshit detection standpoint, but from a standpoint of every account i have ever heard/read of someone finding themselves in a cult or mlm includes descriptions of social situations that would overstimulate and stress me out so bad that i would vomit and leave immediately. a road trip with strangers? a self-improvement seminar? giving out my phone number to someone i met in an aisle at target? having to host a recruitment party? the constant hype machine behavior? love-bombing? the pressure to socialize? unpaid morning zoom calls? maybe it's because i never went to church as a kid but i have no concept of "faith" in something unseen nor do i ache for a "community" larger than a handful of fellow hobby-havers, so the idea of manufacturing a new passion just to fit into a crowd i otherwise have nothing in common with sounds like a type of psychological torture customized for me specifically. i barely muster passion for the things i like.

i can understand completely how people get sucked into them and don't think it's something on which character should solely be judged. most people actually do ache for that community, and most people are actually flattered and not freaked out if someone begins to fawn over them, because we are social creatures isolated by capitalism and crave comfort and validation from others. but on my mother, if a new friend dragged me to a "show" that turned out to be a motivational speaker my departure would be so rude and abrupt. i am too fucking autistic to chant affirmations with an auditorium of 1000 people.

if i am ever victimized by a "cult" it'll probably be more of a final fantasy house low-scale personality cult sort of situation. while i would hope better for myself, a charismatic online person warming up to me until i'm sucked into their little circle of sycophants they have collected is not outside the realm of imagination, and all i can hope is that my true friends will be honest enough about catching bad vibes that it never happens.

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#Me. #..

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At some point in your life, you were taught that being slightly annoying is an unforgivable sin. Maybe it was by your parents or a teacher or a friend or a bully or an older sibling. But someone taught you that being slightly annoying is a crime punishable by death.

You must unlearn this.

You must accept that all people will be annoying at some point or another in their lives, maybe all of their lives, and that this is okay. It is okay for strangers on the bus, it is okay for children in the grocery store, it is okay for people on social media, and it is okay for you.

If you ever want to truly love your fellow humans, if you ever want to truly love yourself, you must have forgiveness for being annoying.

#It's one of my greatest worries #I am so afraid of being annoying to other people #Do they really like me???

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fox sphynx that grants wishes but is spicy

commissions open

#kissu the snoot

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Took Alexandria Neonakis' Schoolism class on costuming, and the main assignment was to design the costume for a character in a book, movie, etc. Her example was Tom Bombadil and Goldberry, so I designed Mina Harker from the book Dracula! I tried to make her outfits as close to 1880/1890's designs as I could. Her clothes are of an older style, as she was a school teacher and Jonathan had only just been certified, so in my mind they didn't have a lot of money, and then...Dracula happened.

Very informative class, would recommend!

#Self reblog

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listen i'm glad watcher decided to go back with their change but also i dont 'think people should be forgiving and forgetting so easily. my trust was lost, at least and I don't know if I'll be watching their vids for a whhhileeee

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#skdjfkasd #DUNE

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fuck Pierre stardew valley, gonna make a saw trap and put him in it. me and my homies hate crop stealing pierre

#Stardew #Disk horse #Glad you got cucked by the wizard

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i totally respect forever white hair astarion (pre-bite) headcanons but for me it makes the change all the more dramatic and tragic when he lost not only his life, but his identity, watching it slowly unravel and disappear before his eyes and yet unable to see it (properly) reflected, only seen through those he lures to their demises

#astarion #bg3 thoughts

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Ugh, was having a great time mocking my recently imprisoned rival when I noticed the camera positioning makes it so that I appear behind the bars, thus framing me as trapped in a metaphorical prison of the narrative, now my whole day is ruined. Fuck.

#god damn.............

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I'm a cryptid in Stardew valley. I live on the outskirts of town. I disappear for days on end, purchasing daily one-way tickets to the calico desert. Nobody knows where I go while I'm there. Can occasionally be found fishing at random spots throughout town. I am never not running on at least one triple shot espresso. I take the abandoned minecarts to get around and am frequently seen disappearing into the sewers. I carry a sword for some reason. Once every week or two I will stride into your bedroom to deliver you your favorite meal. I'm a self-made millionaire. I attend all the town events and will go to your concert in the next town over. I have donated approximately 2583 items to the local museum and singlehandedly revitalized the town community center. There are rumors I can talk to junimos. I'm friends with the local wizard

#ME FR #stardew

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#yuri galkin

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I HATE

I HATE IT

#fuck them #tbh #fucking gigantic hitboxes ONLY AT ME #stardew valley

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Sketch fullbody commission for @noxith-sky ! Drawing WoW again was like coffee with an old pal honestly. Thanks for commissioning!

#this is so fucking cool #i love it #linework #'just a sketch' kat lick my balls <3 you're amazing #art #not my art