neonstahli

[neonstahli]

I've gotta say.

I am really trying to push through.

But fuck, for being as transparent as I can be, it just makes me feel worse for being so in need and so damn helpless in shit.

Enough is enough

[neonstahli]

It has been a week or two of hell. Basically, I was haunted by a bill I thought I took care of, and now they are taking money straight out of my check to fix things. That is life. The downside is that, it's left me pretty much scraping by again. I feel awful to ask, but we need about 100 for gas, food, and such. I need almost 300 for the gas bill. And rent is still not fully paid. I've resorted to looking through things to sell, since this is a bump I can't quite handle myself. If anyone can help, I'd be grateful beyond measure. If not, thank you for reading and considering. Please be safe and well, and do not open credit cards to help people you'll never see again. It will come back to bite you, and the person will not be there to help.

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[neonstahli]

It has been a week or two of hell. Basically, I was haunted by a bill I thought I took care of, and now they are taking money straight out of my check to fix things. That is life. The downside is that, it's left me pretty much scraping by again. I feel awful to ask, but we need about 100 for gas, food, and such. I need almost 300 for the gas bill. And rent is still not fully paid. I've resorted to looking through things to sell, since this is a bump I can't quite handle myself. If anyone can help, I'd be grateful beyond measure. If not, thank you for reading and considering. Please be safe and well, and do not open credit cards to help people you'll never see again. It will come back to bite you, and the person will not be there to help.

Paypal - Kofi - Venmo - Cashapp

[neonstahli]

This is a cleaned up post for the same things. We do still need just 50 to finish up the internet. They took our cable and our wifi, but left other stuff? Spectrum, man. We also ask for maybe 20 for gas in the car if possible. Otherwise we should be okay, and I'm grateful to you all.

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[neonstahli]

We paid gas, internet is still down but it's okay ofc. We only need about 50 to cover it (a touch over but I'm sure I can scrounge the rest) and I'm grateful.

300/350

Alright, so to be as transparent as I can, yes we lost a pupper. It was hard, it financially drained us, and I felt awful to even ask for help because it felt like she was an excuse when she was never EVER a problem, I would've given my house or my left arm for that dog. Even so, we are in a financial hole with this, and my calling off work to spend a day with her made work graciously give me a 123 dollar check that I can do nothing with. I have to pay my gas bill and internet, the internet will be off soon and I don't really care much about that but it needs to be paid. We do need toiletries and since my check is already gone to an urgent bill, we need a bit of help with TP and such. All in all, this hole is only about 350 dollars deep. It is not that painful. But it is urgent as well, with it being the due date today for both.

Things will get better. I just need help again, I have overtime lined up 6 days a week until further notice, and I work 12 hour days so I'll basically no-life again in order to get my life back. Such is...life. Thanks for reading.

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[neonstahli]

It sounds like I'm desperate, but honestly don't think that. I'm trying to work us through this the best I can, I'm working overtime and next week will be hopefully better. It's just the timing of life, all of it collided so badly and, shit. It's tiring lol

[neonstahli]

I'm getting so damn tired of living like this.

[neonstahli]

Alright, so to be as transparent as I can, yes we lost a pupper. It was hard, it financially drained us, and I felt awful to even ask for help because it felt like she was an excuse when she was never EVER a problem, I would've given my house or my left arm for that dog. Even so, we are in a financial hole with this, and my calling off work to spend a day with her made work graciously give me a 123 dollar check that I can do nothing with. I have to pay my gas bill and internet, the internet will be off soon and I don't really care much about that but it needs to be paid. We do need toiletries and since my check is already gone to an urgent bill, we need a bit of help with TP and such. All in all, this hole is only about 350 dollars deep. It is not that painful. But it is urgent as well, with it being the due date today for both.

Things will get better. I just need help again, I have overtime lined up 6 days a week until further notice, and I work 12 hour days so I'll basically no-life again in order to get my life back. Such is...life. Thanks for reading.

Paypal - Kofi - Venmo - Cashapp

[neonstahli]

Alright, so to be as transparent as I can, yes we lost a pupper. It was hard, it financially drained us, and I felt awful to even ask for help because it felt like she was an excuse when she was never EVER a problem, I would've given my house or my left arm for that dog. Even so, we are in a financial hole with this, and my calling off work to spend a day with her made work graciously give me a 123 dollar check that I can do nothing with. I have to pay my gas bill and internet, the internet will be off soon and I don't really care much about that but it needs to be paid. We do need toiletries and since my check is already gone to an urgent bill, we need a bit of help with TP and such. All in all, this hole is only about 350 dollars deep. It is not that painful. But it is urgent as well, with it being the due date today for both.

Things will get better. I just need help again, I have overtime lined up 6 days a week until further notice, and I work 12 hour days so I'll basically no-life again in order to get my life back. Such is...life. Thanks for reading.

Paypal - Kofi - Venmo - Cashapp

[neonstahli]

Gas and Internet are off. We cannot cook right now which sucks a bit but I'm handy with a microwave so if anything, there's that.

15/350

Alright, so to be as transparent as I can, yes we lost a pupper. It was hard, it financially drained us, and I felt awful to even ask for help because it felt like she was an excuse when she was never EVER a problem, I would've given my house or my left arm for that dog. Even so, we are in a financial hole with this, and my calling off work to spend a day with her made work graciously give me a 123 dollar check that I can do nothing with. I have to pay my gas bill and internet, the internet will be off soon and I don't really care much about that but it needs to be paid. We do need toiletries and since my check is already gone to an urgent bill, we need a bit of help with TP and such. All in all, this hole is only about 350 dollars deep. It is not that painful. But it is urgent as well, with it being the due date today for both.

Things will get better. I just need help again, I have overtime lined up 6 days a week until further notice, and I work 12 hour days so I'll basically no-life again in order to get my life back. Such is...life. Thanks for reading.

Paypal - Kofi - Venmo - Cashapp

[neonstahli]

We have 15 so far, thank you so much

Alright, so to be as transparent as I can, yes we lost a pupper. It was hard, it financially drained us, and I felt awful to even ask for help because it felt like she was an excuse when she was never EVER a problem, I would've given my house or my left arm for that dog. Even so, we are in a financial hole with this, and my calling off work to spend a day with her made work graciously give me a 123 dollar check that I can do nothing with. I have to pay my gas bill and internet, the internet will be off soon and I don't really care much about that but it needs to be paid. We do need toiletries and since my check is already gone to an urgent bill, we need a bit of help with TP and such. All in all, this hole is only about 350 dollars deep. It is not that painful. But it is urgent as well, with it being the due date today for both.

Things will get better. I just need help again, I have overtime lined up 6 days a week until further notice, and I work 12 hour days so I'll basically no-life again in order to get my life back. Such is...life. Thanks for reading.

Paypal - Kofi - Venmo - Cashapp

[neonstahli]

Alright, so to be as transparent as I can, yes we lost a pupper. It was hard, it financially drained us, and I felt awful to even ask for help because it felt like she was an excuse when she was never EVER a problem, I would've given my house or my left arm for that dog. Even so, we are in a financial hole with this, and my calling off work to spend a day with her made work graciously give me a 123 dollar check that I can do nothing with. I have to pay my gas bill and internet, the internet will be off soon and I don't really care much about that but it needs to be paid. We do need toiletries and since my check is already gone to an urgent bill, we need a bit of help with TP and such. All in all, this hole is only about 350 dollars deep. It is not that painful. But it is urgent as well, with it being the due date today for both.

Things will get better. I just need help again, I have overtime lined up 6 days a week until further notice, and I work 12 hour days so I'll basically no-life again in order to get my life back. Such is...life. Thanks for reading.

Paypal - Kofi - Venmo - Cashapp

[neonstahli]

Sheer luck I paid for the phone by the way. Thanks anyway everyone. Don't worry about anything, I got it covered.

[neonstahli]

I think I might retire this blog after a couple days honestly. Getting kinda tired of the weirdness of it. No disrespect to anyone, and I know it's probably weird as hell to just disappear but, I think it's for the best.

[neonstahli]

I've never felt worse about making any post before in my life honestly.

[neonstahli]

Rest as beautifully as you were sweet girl.

[neonstahli]

We only need 50 or so now, and things should be covered. Thank you all, I'm so sorry for this.