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The one time Noah Schnapp thought they forgot his birthday.

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i know that this shot of will looking entirely n utterly devastated as he watches mike and el was included as a way to set up the will and jonathan scene that follows it, but honestly, i think they also put this moment in as a way to signal to us that will's "ripping off the bandaid" moment in the van didn't work. will thought he could force down those overwhelming feelings of love, but it didn't work at all.

see, he's trying. he's trying so hard to convince himself that being just friends with mike is enough to sustain him, because he is fully resigned to his belief that it's the only thing he'll ever have. after all, people like him don't fall in love. people like him don't get happy endings. so he takes his battered, bruised heart and smashes it to bits in the hope that the shattered pieces will put mike back together. like this post says, in the van scene, he proves that his love is so selfless and so unconditional to the point where he would willingly suffocate himself it would mean that mike can breathe a little easier.

but here, just for a moment, when mike isn't around to see him hurting like this, he lets the mask slip. he's not happy. he's not okay. he wants to have the type of love that he thinks mike and el have. he wants mike, he wants to be with mike, he wants a life with mike. he yearns for that kind of love so, so badly, but he doesn't think he'll ever get it. a part of him isn't even sure he deserves it.

and despite him trying his hardest to do everything to put mike's happiness first and shove down his own feelings even if it results in pure heartbreak, this is the moment that he realizes that he won't ever get over mike, no matter what he does. shoving his feelings down didn't work. he ripped off the band-aid, but the wound is still bloody. and this is the moment where it finally sinks in: there is no way out. there is no way around this inescapable truth. will byers is going to love mike wheeler for the rest of his life.

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will the wise school doodles

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yeah I like that 🤭

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Super Bowl Party 💚 2/11/23

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JOE BURROW BAL @ CIN | January 8, 2023

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Stranger Things X Text Posts Part 1 of???

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His fingers tighten a little beneath Mike’s jaw, and he thinks of hazy afternoon daydreams in classrooms, sunlight drizzling over his desk to alight hope in his chest and an endless practice in imagery: what it would be like to let his fingers dance across this same stretch of skin, let each touch tease at something more until he’d finally have the courage to tilt Mike’s head back and let his lips press to that small notch right between the hinge of his jaw and his neck.

His fingers tighten, and when he shifts his thumb, he feels that humming pulse once more.

I’m here I’m here I’m here.

(based on the final scene of The End of Evangelion)

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the inherent romanticism of seeing someone vaguely attractive and vaguely your age in public

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is el going to have a "i know what you are" moment with will

They do have a brief talk about Will and his feelings, yes. It's a sweet scene.

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Yknow what ? I think Byler getting Murray’d would be more heartfelt than anything else.

Because like-

Murray doesn’t just call out Jopper and Jancy because it’s obvious. He points it out because he knows they’re being stupid. In their cases, it’s really just them not communicating their feelings to one another and trying to pretend they don’t exist.

But with Byler it’s like…it’s different.

Because it’s not just that is it? We’re not just watching two people pine over one another whilst being oblivious to the fact they other likes them back. We’re not just looking at two people who can’t communicate well. There’s more to it.

Because they’re two boys who have been best friends since childhood. They grew up at the peak of the AIDS epidemic. They live in a small town and they’re expected to act a certain way. It’s different for them.

I don’t think Murray is gonna waltz in acting all holier than thou and essentially out both Mike and Will to one another. He’s a smart man as we’ve seen. He’s attentive. He doesn’t just call jancy and jopper out to prove a point he knows what they both need to hear so they can get over their miscommunication hurdle.

I think he’s going to go up to them. Either both or just Mike or Will or whatever, and he’s going to talk to them about it. Because that’s what they need. They need someone to talk to them about it. And I don’t think he would start with just directly talking about it. I think he (and this is me headcanonning Murray as queer) would open up first. Like about his own experiences- to show them that he gets it, and he knows what it’s like. And then he would casually bring up the whole byler thing.

Hmmm something along the lines of...

Okay– picture a conflict Mike Wheeler sitting by himself – either on the couch or on the floor or whatever. And, he’s stuck in his head. A lot had happened. He broke up with El and he’s struggling to grasp what he’s feeling about his best friend. And there's this…weird tension between them that– he just– he can't put his finger on. But they’re off. They aren’t clicking like they used to and Mike can’t seem to fix things. 

So he sat alone, trying to understand or comprehend whatever he’s feeling whilst everyone else is god knows where in the house. Will was in the kitchen though. Mike knew that much. And then suddenly, he felt a weight on the couch seat next to him or the space on the floor beside him was no longer there and he heard the words of Murray Bauman pull him out of his thoughts with the weirdest fucking ice-breaker he has ever heard.

“Y’know…I was like you when I was younger.” 

“Really?” Mike asked – mostly out of disbelief as he scanned Murray. No way. Not a chance. 

“Oh yeah…” Murray smiled, nodding to himself as he continued. “I know it's hard to believe it, but I was this…brash, stubborn, reactive teen who loved going against authority. I was very...headstrong in my beliefs.” 

He paused and Mike turned to him. Murray had his head down, looking at his lap silently, and Mike didn’t know what to do but watch or…more– listen to the silence. 

“And…I was also in my head a lot.” Murray looked up, turning to Mike once before looking forward again. “I was angry at things – at people and at myself because…no matter how much I pretended like I loved being a freak…a part of me hated that I wasn’t normal…”

Mike felt cold. His heartbeat raced as he turned away from Murray – facing forward and staring at his lap as he continued to listen.

“Yeah?”

“Oh yeah…I was-- going through a lot of stuff internally that I tried pretending didn’t exist.” He paused again – taking a deep breath. “I was…in love with someone who I didn’t want to be in love with.”

“...You were?” 

“Yeah…” Murray laughed to himself. “Yeah…it was– well he was…my best friend.”

Mike held his breath. “I fell for him. And I was mad at myself for falling for him. Because even though I knew it wasn’t wrong…I just kept thinking about how I wasn’t supposed to like him. Because that’s not normal– Well ‘normal.’” Murray airquoted, rolling his eyes. Mike’s eyes were glued onto him at this point. 

“So…I grew angrier. And I took it out on myself. On him. Even though he didn’t deserve it. Even though I loved him– I just..I let my fear get the better of me and I pushed him away until I lost him…And I hated myself for doing that.” He breathed, another pause, before finally turning to Mike. “It took me a long time to realise that there was nothing wrong about loving someone.”

Murray tilted his head towards the direction of the kitchen as he raised his eyebrows – and it clicked to Mike.

“I..” Mike’s throat felt dry. “You know?”

“I had a hunch.”

“Is it obvious? Does he–”

“No, he doesn’t know. Your secret's safe with me, kid.”

“Okay– good.” Mike paced his breathing. “I just…I– I can’t lose him because of this. If he knew– if– if he knew he would–”

“He’s your best friend right?” Murray cut him off.

“What? Yes but–”

“Then. he could never hate you, Mike. Not about this.”

“How do you know that?”

“Call it…another one of my hunches.” Mike knitted his brows together.

“Look – kid, I’m not going to force you to tell him or anything. It's your choice at the end of the day. And I can’t say much, but it doesn’t take a genius to know how much that boy cares about you. And you care about him, correct?”

Mike nodded. 

“And you trust him?”

Mike nodded again. “With my life.”

“So…all I can say is…if you trust him? Then...trust him with this.” Murray began to stand up. “Take it from me. Holding it in only hurts the both of you.”

And then Murray leaves

Anyways yeah thoughts––

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"Midleven went through 4 seasons of development they're not gonna-" I'm gonna stop you right there.....what development?? When has Midleven ever had genuine development as a couple?? They kissed 5 days after knowing each other, were separated for a year with no contact, and then they got together shortly after they reunited...and then s3 and s4 were spent showing us how incompatible they are and how many issues they have and they weren't even physically together or actually dating for the majority of those two seasons because El went to NINA and they broke up 2 eps into s3....so what development are you talking about?? Like I GENUINELY want to know. When has their relationship ever...developed?? Because to me personally, it seems like their relationship is stuck. It is STUCK. There is no development happening there. That is why they keep having the same issues and storyline every damn season. That is why the majority of the audience don't like them now and are BORED of them.

There really is no development between them. They've actually been shown to just rush into the big parts of a relationship while skipping every important step in between. If there is any development there at all, it's rushed and choppy and just...not good. Especially when you compare it to the development between L*max or J*pper or J*ancy (and even Byler).

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Noah's IG Live (Jan 26, 2023)

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This dude never once laughed at El during her presentation. He actually looked like he felt bad for her the whole time :(

I know they never interacted but in my head, him and El are besties.