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Bridgerton 3x04 "Old Friends"

Polin Carriage Scene

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Quattro strade, dir. Alice Rohrwacher (2020)

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Oresteia: Agamemnon by Aiskhylos, tr. by Anne Carson [ID in alt text]

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Mary Oliver, from “Hum Hum”, A Thousand Mornings

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Do you know how frustrating it is to watch a man who is VERY gay for his best friend dance around his feelings for a whole book only to realize them to late, have a sad but beautiful gay moment with him for like five pages (at most), have to leave him, lose him, and get a mysterious letter from him and find out he may be alive only for the book to leave you with the ambiguous ending?

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THIS STORY IS ALREADY OVER. NOTHING CAN BE DONE TO CHANGE IT.

peter pan, j.m. barrie / revenge of the sith, matthew stover / war of the foxes, richard siken / saving mr. banks (2013) / wasteland, baby! hozier / the grand budapest hotel (2014) / mystery of love, sufjan stevens / if we were villains, m.l. rio / exile (ft. bon iver), taylor swift / circe, madeline miller / mr. arkadin, orson welles

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I finished reading "If we were villains" a few hours ago, so while I'm still going through the 5 stages of grief, here are the gayest scenes between Oliver and James that I made sure to save while reading even though I had no idea at first if it's going anywhere or not.

1. Oliver unconsciously leaning in when James was pretend-hitting him during class. (ACT I - scene 9)

2. James covering Oliver with the fake blood on Halloween. (ACT I - scene 12)

3. Oliver staying with James after the Halloween incident. (ACT I - scene 12)

4. "I wanted to give Richard ten bruises for every one he'd put on James." (ACT II - scene 2)

5. Oliver waking up next to James. "The strange sudden thought that I didn't want to move struck me." (ACT III - scene 10)

6. Oliver kindly informing us that he's the only one who knows every inch of James. (ACT III - scene 18)

7. "I desperately wanted him to stay, seized by the nonsensical idea that if he left, I would lose him, irretrievably.", "Forget to think of her." (ACT III - scene 18)

8. Oliver being blindly, savagely jealous while watching James and Wren kiss during R&J. (ACT III - scene 18)

9. Oliver thinking about James after having sex with Meredith. (ACT IV - scene 1)

10. Oliver going to spend the night with Meredith in the hopes that it'll help him forget about James. (ACT IV - scene 1)

11. Oliver yelling at James that he can't be mad at him or hate him. (ACT IV - scene 7)

12. Oliver having a crisis while watching James and Meredith kiss. (ACT IV - scene 9)

13. "He was my friend—much more than that, truthfully", "My infatuation with James transcended any notion of gender." (ACT V - prologue)

14. ""You didn't tell me." I didn't realize until it was out of my mouth that that alone was worse than any of the rest of it.",

"I never wanted you to look at me the way you're looking at me right now." (ACT V - scene 5)

15. "Worthy prince, I know't." and of course, the not so brotherly kiss. (ACT V - scene 6)

16. "Of course, the only person I really wanted to see was James." (ACT V - scene 7)

17. "You know why.", and James begging Oliver to let him make things right and kissing his hand the last time he went to see him. (ACT V - scene 7)

18. "But more than that—you must know—more than anything, I just need to see James." (Epilogue)

19. Oliver admitting at least to himself that he still is in love with James. (Epilogue)

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“His arm fell lifelessly to his side. He looked away and said, “Oliver, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want to hurt the whole world.” ― M.L. Rio, If We Were Villains

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The love language of annotating a book

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i was so fucking sad when i was 14 and now when i fold my laundry or see a pool of moonlight on the floor of my bedroom i know that miracles exist. i see love in everything. love sees everything in me too

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Confessional // Sue Zhao

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a girl of fear, a woman of anger— look how we've grown

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if we were trapped in the timeloop together would you kill me during sex for real

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poetry and van gogh

Anaïs Nin, Shane Neilson, Marin Sorescu, Ocean Vuong, Anzhelina Polonskaya, Vincent van Gogh

buy me a coffee

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Hanif Abdurraqib, They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us

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