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Listen to SKATING TO THE GAS STATION @ 4 A.M. TO GET CIGARETTES - YUNG $MOKE x ØFFS x SKRUBS (PROD. BY LAKOTA) by LAKOTA #np on #SoundCloud

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Sick af!!!

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#NowPlaying We Got It (feat. Mozzy, West X & Philthy Rich) by MarsVeryOwn

#music #spotify

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Sweet

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psychedelic drugs

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When u have the hair of a God lol #whatevs #ofuhreal #tiredaf

#ofuhreal #tiredaf #whatevs

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Beautiful Dito

Memories make me want to go back there....

If i think about my Past i get really Sad.. The Fact that i can’t deal with my own Demons make it so Hard to live a normal life.. If i’d be Honest i’m really dissapointed about myself becuase i’ve chosen some very bad Roads in my Life.. One of the worst was my addiction to escape reality which i don’t understand till today.. Retrospectively i always think about my Mom day by day.. I didn’t even had the Chance to take farewell and thank her for being such a great Mother.. I had so much Things to tell her but this one Phonecall at my Work made me realize that it was to late..  After that i moved step by step to my very own Abyss which i’ve never thought it would be so hard to escape from.. I can’t take myself serious if i think about the Fact that i always talked about Depression as a Teen.. That Feel i got as a 16 Year old Guy doesn’t even comes nearly to that how i feel now.. I got a beautiful Girlfriend which really shows me her Love Day by Day but something inside of me just died as i started to break down by using Chemical substances to forget… I don’t do that Shit anymore but i realized that it really killed alot of the good habits i’ve had..  I miss my old Hapinnes and the Perspective i’ve had to the World..  I didn’t work since 20 Months and it makes me feel very very bad.. I’m angry at myself and exactly this feel makes it so Hard to meet up with my good old Friends.. I’ve always see their Posts on Instagram and Facebook and i’m just so proud of everyone of them because they really did everything to have such nice Jobs and Lifes… They live their Dream i guess.. I always like to remember the Times watching movies with them, or going on a Skatetrip in the city, meeting up to roll Blunts while listening to Indie Rock.. This Friends really showed me alot of good things in this fucked up World, we even had a Band for which we practiced at least 2 Times in the Week.. We didn’t had to watch on our phones when we met because there was always something to talk about. Sometimes i tell myself: Dude you just fucked up, your’e worthless, you acted like an completly Idiot.. But i really hope that there will come the Days where i can accept myself again so that i don’t feel weird about myself.. The last 2 Years were really Hard… If i have one wish then that someday everythings gonna be alright again.. 

Scott out 

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Fuck, I really thought you wanted me like I wanted you

do you even think about me (via fallsed)

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ohhh yeah she is 😱

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Dearest Lion,

I am sorry for how needy and dependent I am on you. I’m sorry for being so..up your butt and not giving you the recovery time you need. 

I’ve been wanting to cut so much lately. Like it would help fix the shitty person I feel like. Like I could get rid of it. Clean my blood from it. 

I just want to make you happy. I don’t know if you remember telling me that I didn’t help you feel good about yourself anymore. It broke my heart hearing you day that, and it’s still something I think about. Especially right now. I feel so useless oh my god.

It hurts too when you say we probably shouldn’t be together. Please don’t say it again. It hurts so much to hear. It hurts thinking that music, alcohol, and weed make you feel better than I think I’ll ever will, now. 

~Deer

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From childhood’s hour I have not been As others were — I have not seen As others saw — I could not bring My passions from a common spring — From the same source I have not taken My sorrow — I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone — And all I lov’d, I lov’d alone — Then — in my childhood — in the dawn Of a most stormy life — was drawn From ev'ry depth of good and ill The mystery which binds me still — From the torrent, or the fountain, From the red cliff of the mountain — From the sun that ‘round me roll’d In its autumn tint of gold — From the lightning in the sky As it pass’d me flying by — From the thunder and the storm — And the cloud that took the form (When the rest of Heaven was blue) Of a demon in my view —

Edgar Allan Poe (via satans-psychedelics)

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