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Har har

How old were you when you became interested in the massacre then?

If you don’t want to answer then just delete.

420 😫 jk i think i was in high school

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How old were you when the massacre took place?

69 😔

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hello, i apologize if this question is a bit too personal— but i was wondering something since i read your post on eric harris not being a psychopath. you mention your credentials and your career path.. i was wondering how you went about getting a career in that field? i’m interested in pursuing a similar career, but i have no idea what to major in or the specifics of anything. thank you !

im so excited for you! if you do end up pursuing this line of work, i wish you the very best. it’s very rewarding!

my original plan was to be a teacher so when i began in college, i was doing a lot of liberal-arts adjacent schooling. eventually i took a criminology class as an elective and really enjoyed. after that, i actually dropped out of college for a few years and just worked for a while. my sister was getting her degree in psychology and i was encouraged to go back, so off i went and began my bachelor’s. at first, i was just planning on being a therapist for the every day person, but i couldn’t shake the enjoyment i had when i took the criminology class. plus, growing up in a true-crime heavy locale always had me very intrigued. because of its proximity, columbine was the case that i fixated on and studied as i was going through my bachelor’s. about halfway through i solidified what i wanted to do but didn’t have the experience to get there quite yet. i made sure all classes i took were forensic-related so my knowledge has always been more specialized in that area. i just kept trying and throwing resumes at agencies until something stuck lmao.

i had to take a step back and take an entry level position to get where i wanted to eventually be, so i worked with at-risk youth for quite some time. i transitioned into working with adult offenders eventually. i will say that i always knew i didn’t want to work on the pre-sentencing side of forensic psychology, i always knew i wanted to be on the back side working with people who had already offended.

there’s many things one can do with psychology in the forensic/correctional field! don’t stop pursuing your dreams. if you know it’s what you want, it WILL happen and there are a million doors you can go through to get there. one size does not fit all in this particular field. some folks have no interest in working with offenders and would rather be on judicial side of things. that’s okay too, all work here is important.

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Honestly it’s iconic and took me far to long to place the reference 😂

thank you, thank you, i’m happy to serve as the resident tcc icon 😮‍💨

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did you live in Littleton before the shooting?

shore did, colorado born and bred

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Is your blog name in reference to “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING TO MY SISTERS BIKE?!” ?

yes lol it’s just recognizable, which is why i chose it

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what do you think about Eric and Dylan being considered victims, being made crosses, etc. ?

it bring into question what we should consider as "victims" as a society. if we look at it literally, were they victims? yes, to some sort. they were victims to parents, peers, and a community that failed them.

i understand and empathize with the folks that put crosses up for them. whenever i think about these crosses, i think about a few particular messages that were left that have haunted me for years:

"my generation is sorry if we failed you."

on dylan's:

"prayers to your family - their child is lost."

"sorry we all failed you"

"NO ONE IS TO BLAME."

later, someone posted this sign on dylan's cross:

"FATHER, forgive them, for they know not what they do. our love and prayers to their families. he that is without sin cast the first stone."

and behind it, it reads, "[through?] knowledge of God, we forgive you. you were pawns."

the messages left on these crosses were very powerful. they went up so soon after the shooting and while they were ultimately removed and destroyed, those messages were indicative of a community that understood that nuance of victimhood.

i think some people make eric and dylan victims for the wrong reasons. but i think forgiveness is, ultimately, the strongest tool in our boxes to healing. another unique piece to the whole aftermath of columbine is how much religion is referenced by everyone. in this scenario, i resonate so much with those messages, despite them being very religious. these people are begging their God to forgive them. they're exercising their knowledge of the crucifixion to ask, "and please, ensure that these murderers were forgiven too."

seeing a community do that, after being so freshly ruined and hurt by their actions, demonstrates to me that it's not inappropriate to remember the people they were.

long story short, i feel 50/50 on some of it. i think it's weird to line their crosses up with their victims but i think it's wrong to pretend they didn't exist and not want them to be forgiven.

after all, what did they say? HATE BREEDS HATE.

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what do you think about sol pais

makes me sad. a solid example of what depression can do to the teenage mind. i think she found so much comfort with the idea of eric, a person who she probably viewed as similar to herself.

it’s hard for me to say she was delusional without feeling disrespectful, but if i’m calling it like it is, delusion had to have been involved. i feel terribly sorry that she felt her solution to the pain she felt was suicide. i think relying and focusing on the idea of eric/columbine helped ease her. i don’t think she was ever dangerous or a threat to the community, because i remember our town was on red alert when she came around. looking back on it, it felt unnecessary. i understand why, but when we see what the conclusion was, it was unnecessary.

again, it makes me very sad. i hope that we don’t see similar conclusions going forward.

she clearly suffered outside of her interest in columbine, but limerence is a hell of a thing, isn’t it?

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could you please leave a blue flower or a sunflower in the middle of the memorial for me? id do it myself only I'm not in Colorado, and certainly nowhere near Littleton.

of course! i’d be happy to. i’ll post a photo for you when i do.

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“Let me tell you a story. The day after Columbine, I was interviewed for the Tom Brokaw news program. The reporter had been assigned a theory and was seeking soundbites to support it. “Wouldn’t you say,” she asked, ‘that killings like this are influenced by violent movies?” No, I said, I wouldn’t say that. “But what about ‘The Basketball Diaries’?” she asked. “Doesn’t that have a scene of a boy walking into a school with a machinegun?” The obscure 1995 Leonardo DiCaprio movie did indeed have a brief fantasy scene of that nature, I said, but the movie failed at the box office and it’s unlikely the Columbine killers saw it. The reporter looked disappointed, so I offered her my theory. “Events like this,” I said, “if they are influenced by anything, are influenced by news programs like your own. When an unbalanced kid walks into a school and starts shooting, it becomes a major media event. Cable news drops ordinary programming and goes around the clock with it. The story is assigned a logo and a theme song; these two kids were packaged as the Trench Coat Mafia. The message is clear to other disturbed kids: If I shoot up my school, I can be famous. The TV will talk about nothing else but me. Experts will try to figure out what I was thinking. Kids and teachers at school will see they shouldn’t have messed with me. I’ll go out in a blaze of glory.” In short, I said, events like Columbine are influenced far less by violent movies than by CNN, “The NBC Nightly News” and other news media, who glorify the killers in the guise of “explaining” them. The reporter thanked me and turned off the camera. Of course the interview was never used. They found plenty of talking heads to condemn violent movies, and everybody was happy.”

— Roger Ebert   (via masoncara)

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the father, the son, the holy spirit

(tag urself, i’m the father)

thank u sm!!! i really appreciate you!

My tcr tumblr holy trinity:

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@triperoxide

@loukaiitis

The best at their craft, truly, I appreciate and love them sm<33

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The 13 angels❤️👼

On April 20th 1999, 13 innocent people were senselessly killed in a shooting at Columbine High School in Colorado. Today, 20 years later, we still feel the void of their absence. We remember their lives, the people they were, and who they could’ve become. Although their time here was cut short, they live on in our memories everyday. We will not forget them.

Daniel Conner Mauser (15)

Corey Tyler DePooter (17)

Rachel Joy Scott (17)

Lauren Dawn Townsend (18)

Kyle Albert Velasquez (16)

Isaiah Eamon Shoels (18)

Matthew Joseph Kechter (16)

William David Sanders (47)

Cassie René Bernall (17)

John Robert Tomlin (16)

Daniel Lee Rohrbough (15)

Kelly Ann Fleming (16)

Steven Robert Curnow (14)

Remembering the 13🕯

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it’s very snowy today here in littleton. we had what we like to call a false spring for the last week. i just find it interesting how deeply the snow has fallen on this day, marking 25 years since the columbine shooting. if i remember correctly, 4/20/99 was a lovely spring day and the snow fell later that night as our community mourned and pondered why such a thing would happen here.

parallels. the universe will always mourn.

#columbine #dylan klebold #eric harris #tcc

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(I’m the anon that asked for a flower for Daniel M.)

You’re really cool and it’s so thoughtful that you do this, allow those who are unable to go themselves to honor these people.

I hope you have a spectacular weekend! ❤️

of course! i think the stories of the victims have impacted many lives. i was moved particularly by john tomlin when i was younger. many people don’t have the opportunity to pay respects, so i am happy to pay it forward! have a great weekend!

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Hi. I would like you to leave a flower for Rachel Joy Scott if you still accept requests. And please let her know if you are able to say these to her by the memorial that I love and appreciate her and I am proud of her. Thank you <3 I am Elizabeth if it helps.

i can leave it at her grave for you if you’d like ❤️ every time i have been there i’ve felt like i’m being hugged. it sounds like she has had an impact on your life and i am happy to honor her for you.

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Can you please leave a flower for Daniel Mauser for me tomorrow?

Thank you!

of course ❤️

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i had a few requests to leave dedicated flowers at the memorial tomorrow. if anyone else would like to dedicate a flower, please let me know!

#columbine