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Das Gemeinste, was einem der eigene Verstand antun kann, ist, wenn man sich ohnehin schon elend fühlt, dass einem die innere Stimme auch noch sagt, dass man selbst schuld ist, dass man sein Schicksal verdient hat…

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Ich kann nicht mehr stark sein, ich möchte auch nicht mehr stark sein… wann hört dieser Kampf endlich auf?

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Wo soll mich der Weg, den ich gerade gehe, hinführen? Ich bin mir nicht sicher, ob ich dieses Ziel möchte. Ich bin erschöpft, weil ich diesen Weg schon so lange laufe.

Jetzt umdrehen und alles was ich investiert habe verlieren? Das ist zu riskant und was ist, wenn ich auf dem neuen Weg noch unglücklicher bin?

Also heißt es durchhalten, meine Grenzen immer weiter schieben und darauf hoffen das ich nicht zerbreche.

- Hommella

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St. Elmo’s Fire (1985)

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“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

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If it's not a clear yes, then say no.

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I think too deeply about everything. I still don't know if that allows me to see more of the world, or less of it.

— Mobeen Hakeem

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“I’m not ready for a relationship yet…

I will ask you when I’m 100% sure you said.

But those moments became days, weeks, months and

I’d stay at your place

Meet your friends

I’d cook while you made the drinks

Now vodka tastes like your kisses so I drink it just to get a taste of what once was.

I’d leave sticky notes so pieces of me were left with you, when truth be told I think they’d be with you regardless.

You’d take me on cute dates and i made mountains out of the mole hills of communication you gave me.

Sometimes I wonder if you wanted to dress up for my Halloween party so you didn’t have to come as yourself.

So that maybe the guilt would disappear for a night and you could miss somebody else.

You took me to three different ice cream places in one night. Now I stare at half of mine wherever I go because I can’t finish it all.

You took parts of me that I’ll never get back.

I think there is a piece of me somewhere at your parent’s beach house.

Yet everywhere I go I’m reminded of what could have been.

I’m not ready for a relationship yet…

I should have believed you the first time you said it.”

// I wonder how long it took for you to throw out my toothbrush

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and the truth is, we stopped being friends the moment we decided to be just friends

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