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body check

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also b0dych3ck.

#m4lesp0 #male ana #male ed

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logging october meals.

oct 1st

-vitamins: 70

-cereal: 440

-quest peanut butter cups: 190

-protein bar: 231

total: 931

oct 2nd

-strawberries and cream protein oats: 365

-veggies and biscuits: 102

-vitamins: 70

-granola with blueberries: 342

-dunkin coffee: 230

total: 1109

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damn this binge restrict cycle got hands

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i have an injury which will get worse from walking but i need to work out. im supposed to do cardio in the gym tonight ughhh im just gonna do it

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anyway y’all i fucked uppp the other day but this week is starting off strong only ate half my allowance yesterday and burned close to 3000 calories. if i do that again today that is a pound of fat. whoop whoop. one binge cannot ruin my body scientifically impossible. just have to remain on track and everything will be fine

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cigarettes after sex? no. juul rip after jacking off

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my ac is broken (or i have a fever). im so hot i can’t sleep and im sweating when it’s set to 72

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tomorrow i’m going to try to burn 3500 calories and eat 0. that’s a pound of fat. im allowed 0 cal caffeine and salt to keep from fainting but idccc gotta course correct after that binge. i hit my macros today tho 🙂 yay. haha.

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binge ate today on food that im severely intolerant to so i definitely will be distended and in pain and bloated 5-10 lbs for the next few days. i don’t get it. ik the key to not binging is not fully removing foods from my diet but i HAVE to remove this food bc it is bad for my health. i wish i was allergic or something then i’d be careful. somehow being distended and sick and constipated and then diarrhea and stomach cramps isn’t bad enough to stop me

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today i’ve had 1469 calories, my eating window closes in an hour and Im very very full from dinner so Im pretty happy with how I did. I only had 43g of protein today, which sucks because my goal is 60g a day. I also got 43g of fiber which is great because my goal is only 30g.

for breakfast I had oatmeal, some rice cake snacks and a gatorade zero, which was 527

for lunch I had a salad, a bit of vegan mochi and a fiber one bar for 457

for dinner I had some quinoa and beans with veggies for 485

I plan to spend the evening cleaning and working out a good workout routine, so hopefully ill get my steps up. it’s hard on my days off when i don’t work.

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✨ ED Songs✨

Akasian Peace - Anamia

Atmosphere - Vanity Sick

Angelspit - Skinny Little Bitch

Anorexia Nervosa - Mother Anorexia

Augustana - Coffee and Cigarettes

Batteries - Anorexia Poster Girls

Beach Bunny - Prom Queen

Beartooth - Ignorance Is Bliss

Birdy - Skinny Love

Black Bell - Anorexia

Blind Melon - Skinned

BMTH - Hospital For Souls

Boyinaband - Empty

Broken Social Scene - Anthems For a Seventeen Year Old Girl 

Cex - Stop Eating

Catatonia - Bulimic Beats

Carbon Carousel - Skinny

Cherry Glazerr - Ohio

Craft Spells - Nausea

CRIM3S - Stay Ugly

Daddy Issues - Ugly When I Cry

David Howard - Anorexic

Dead Celebrity Status - Somebody I Once Knew

De-La Wonk - Anorexia

Die Cheerleader Die - Anorexic Nation

Drag - Anorexic

Edith Backlund - Skinny

Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie

Elysiansoul - Dark Descent

Elysiansoul - Decadence and Disorder

Elysiansoul - Dysmorphia

Elysiansoul - Girl Within the Ghost

Elysiansoul - Immune

Elysiansoul - Midnight Run

Elysiansoul - Pull Me Under

Elysiansoul - Sticks and Stones and Bones

Elysiansoul - Sugar & Ice

Elysiansoul - The Smile Underneath

Elysiansoul - The Voice Of Anorexia

Elysiansoul - Waiting To Be Weightless

Emily Wells - Becomes The Color

ETHS - Détruit Moi

ETHS - Bulimiarexia

Evaline - a Protest In Lines Too Thin To Be Read

Fakebestfriend - Anorexia

Fakebestfriend - Skinny

Felicia Goodman - Ana Mia

FFUG - Alcoholic Anorexic

Fiona Apple - Paper Bag

Firewater - Caroline

Fireflight - He Weeps

Florence + the Machine - Hunger

Florence + the Machine - Leave My Body

Flyleaf - I’m So Sick

Foo Fighters - Skin and Bones

Garbage - Bleed Like Me

Gem Club - Spine

Geri Karlstrom - Starving For Attention

Haim- Let Me Go

Hole - Jennifer’s Body

Hole - She Walks On Me

Hole - Skinny Little Bitch

Huntingtons - Annie’s Anorexic

Iron Curtain - Anorexia

Katy Rose - Lemon

K.Flay - Rawks 

Kent - We Need To Eat

Kevin McCollough - Anorexic Beauty Queen

King Adora - Big Isn’t Beautiful

King Adora - Born To Lose

Kitten On The Catwalk - Pro Ana Party Slama

Kutless - Down

L7 - Diet Pill

Lady Gaga - Donatella

Lana Del Rey - Boarding School

Lil’ Bo Weep - Confined

Lil’ Bo Weep - Untitled 

Lisa Loeb - She’s Falling Apart

Los Campesinos! - The Sea is a Good Place to Think of the Future

Lorn - Until There Is No End

Lunachicks - Binge and Purge

Manic Street Preachers - 4st. 7lbs

Manic Street Preachers - Anorexic Rodin

Maria Mena - Cause and Effect

Maria Mena - Eyesore

Maria Mena - Self Fulfilling Prophecy

Marina and The Diamonds - Teen Idle

Melanie Martinez - Mrs. Potato Head

Melanie Martinez - Orange Juice

Melanie Martinez - Sippy Cup

MGMT - She Works Out Too Much

Mi - Weightless

Mickey Avalon - So Rich, So Pretty

MikelWJ - Dear Diary

Mother Mother - Body

Mother Mother - Fat Kids

Mother Mother - I Go Hungry

Mother Mother - Oh Ana

Myah Marie - Starve Bitch, It’s Hollywood

Mystery Jets - Someone Purer

Natalie McCool - Size Zero 

Nausea - Anorexia Nervosa

Nice Flaws - Thinspo

Nicole Dollanganger - Angels Of Porn II

Nicole Dollanganger - Please, Eat

Nicole Dollanganger - Ugly

Nirvana - Anorexorcist

No Frills Twins - Dying To Be Thin

Olivia O’Brien - Empty

One-Eyed Doll - Bulimia

Outcast Youth - Genevieve

Picture me Broken - Skin and Bones

Pompeii - Numbers

Portishead - Biscuit 

Pro - Beautiful 

Pulp - Anorexic Beauty

PurelyDef - Anorexic Queen

Radiohead - Creep 

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Porcelain

R00k - Eat

Rufus Wainright - Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk

Sadistik - Russian Roulette

Sainthood Reps - Run Like Hell

Sara Lov - My Body Is a Cage

Schoolyard Heroes - Battlestar Anorexia

Silver Chair - Ana’s Song

Skating Polly - Ugly

Sky Flows - Hollow Shell

Sonic Youth - Tunic (Song For Karen)

SPECTRA*paris - Size Zero

Squishy Squid - Anorexia

Stage - Live Happy, Live With Anorexia

Super Chick - Beauty From Pain

Super Chick - Courage

Svavar Knútur - Emotional Anorexic

Tamara Dearing - Bulimia

Ted Leo and the Pharmacists - Me and Mia

The Blue Violets - Anorexic 

The Blue Violets - Diet

The Dollyrots - Skinny

The Network - Hungry Hungry Models

The Trews - Ana & Mia

Today the Moon, Tomorrow the Sun - Old Monster

Tura Satana - Down

Unaloon - My Roots

Utero Ecuador - Anorexia

Wale - 90210

Where Angels Fall - Thinspiration

X-Fusion - Anorexia Nervosa

Zeeza Love - Anorexia

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my goal today was 1084 and i ate 1042. still wayy under my maximum limit too. i also stayed within my eating times of 10am to 10pm. i just want to have a higher amount of protein in the future, so tomorrow i’ll try to get over 50 grams. i had 33 grams which is good but not great. i hit my fiber goal of over 20 grams tho which i’m happy about.

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♥︎ s k i n n y ♥︎ a n g e l ♥︎ g r o c e r y ♥︎ l i s t ♥︎

going shopping now, so thought I would share the type of stuff I usually get ♡︎ ...

Frozen Blueberries & Raspberries

Kale & Spinach

Unsweetened Almond Milk x2

Apples

Bananas

Grapes

Lemons

Zucchini

Red & Green Bell Peppers

Cherry Tomatoes

Cucumbers

Celery

Cauliflower

Carrots

Oats

Almonds

Chia Seeds & Flax Seeds

Black Beans, Chickpeas & Lentils

Green Tea, Peppermint Tea & Ginger Tea

80% Dark Chocolate

Rice Cakes

Babyfood Corn Puffs

Apple Sauce

Vanilla Stevia

Apple Cider Vinegar

Coconut Water

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the ed community is weirdly transphobic … like in a couple completely different ways …….

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stop binging guide - organizing my thoughts

I’ve been binging non stop so unfortunately im going to have to set aside the weird online 4n4 social hierarchy about who can eat the lowest cals and base my weight loss/maintenance off of real science. This means that for 4n4 standards (especially edtwt) my diet is gonna be weak and easy. That’s okay, it’s better than suffering in a binge restriction cycle.

First things first, my calorie limit is 1500. This is the most I can possibly eat on any day. My goal for each day is my weight multiplied by 10. If I go over that goal, ITS OKAY. The only repercussion is that I must burn off additional calories to match the excess. This may seem extremely high calorie, but my BMR is 1388. I work an active job, aim to exercise 5 times a week at least and I typically get over 10,000 steps. i burn over 2000 calories regularly. 1500 is less than my maintenance, and on a typical day it’s over 500 calorie deficit. And that’s only if i eat my absolute maximum limit. This “high” calorie allowance while continuing to remain in deficit will allow me to eat enough that I don’t binge, but also keep me losing even if it’s slow. Im going to write out the specific rules below.

MAXIMUM limit 1500 calories daily

if maximum limit is breached, do a “cleanse” (extreme water weight/debloat drug mix i have <3) and fast the next day

daily goal is weight upon waking up x 10

all calories eaten over goal must be burned off in addition to any other cals burned that day

NO FOOD IS OFF LIMITS EXCEPT PRODUCTS WITH HEAVY DAIRY (i am extremely intolerant and bloating is a binge trigger for me)

must weigh/measure all food and log it

must exercise for 30 min at least 5 times a week

never exceed calories burned with calories eaten no matter what the goal of that day is

have pre packed snacks and frozen single serving dinners on hand at all times (fatigue and frustration from measuring and counting is a binge trigger for me, these things are pre measured and take near 0 effort to log)

have REAL PEANUT BUTTER in the house. (my biggest binges are peanut butter flavored items, reeces, etc. need to train myself to know it isn’t off limits so i can practice moderation)

don’t eat anything you aren’t proud of (must put effort into cooking and presentation. no eating 5 slices of bread w butter off the countertop. no eating out of the bag. no standing in front of the open fridge eating. meals must be nice looking and feel nice to make/eat)

liquid fast once a week.

this might be seen as failure to some but I genuinely just want to stop binging. eating 600 cals one day and 3000 the next isn’t working towards weight loss. it just makes me hate myself, and also stay at the same weight lol. good on u if u can eat 600 a day no ill effect, but I want long term results and that shit isn’t working for me. if you struggle with a binge restrict cycle like me maybe this will help you too, just adjusting calorie counts for your bmr/activity level.

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im not eating til im 95lbs. i don’t fucking care anymore.