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I know it could be worse. I know it could be worse. But goddamnit I want to kill myself.

M, when this is all over, do me a favor. Never speak my name again. Because out of all the betrayals, yours was the worst. And I hope you never find this, but just so you know- I wish you knew the way you hurt me. And if I knew that this was how it was gonna end, then god I never would’ve chosen you as a friend.

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I just want to go to bed and not wake up

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God I am just. This close to losing it. I think I’m overstimulated??? Maybe???? Who even fucking knows I just hate people I hate everyone and I know they hate me back and gahhhhhhh

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I can’t do this anymore. I put too much of myself into things and I just cant. I’m tired. I don’t want to wake up.

I’m sick and I’m sad and im tired and I cant fucking empathize anymore fuck everyone im done yall csn just. Shut uppl

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I’m sorry.

I’m not going to kill myself, but god I wish I could. I wish I could just . Not exist. I don’t even know what the fuck is wrong with me, but I don’t want to live anymore. I thought it was dysphoria, or adhd, but no. It’s just me. And I don’t want to do this anymore.

There is something so fucking wrong with me and I hate it. I hate it hate it hate it. They deserve so much better and I wish I could tell them but I can’t i can’t do it but I can’t keep doing this i camt im sorry i csnt i csnt im so sorry

I should make a note

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Ah, throwback- pro tip for younger me, that guy ur referencing in number 2? Yeah, he turned out to be a pedophile sooooooooo

Pro tip y’all! If you ever feel like offing yourself, do these three things:

1.) Go the fuck to bed

2.) Remind yourself of your friend who’s lived through way too many people who had suicide attempts (may not work if you think he only tolerates you and not likes you as a friend)

3.) Project what you think are your flaws onto a completely made up character and torture them

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Damn past me needed so much therapy

Current me also needs so much therapy, but Im not really wanting to die rn so we Gucci

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I want to kill myself

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Pro tip y’all! If you ever feel like offing yourself, do these three things:

1.) Go the fuck to bed

2.) Remind yourself of your friend who’s lived through way too many people who had suicide attempts (may not work if you think he only tolerates you and not likes you as a friend)

3.) Project what you think are your flaws onto a completely made up character and torture them

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What if I choke myself with my hair tie right now

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Sometimes I just want to strangle myself. Nbd

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I have an unsettling feeling regarding the fact that I’m going to post a bang fic the same day my ex asked me out. You know rubatosis? That’s what I’m experiencing rn, but with the knowledge that what would have been our one year is coming up

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Current Status: lying on the fucking floor at midnight because I’m too emotionally exhausted to change positions

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You ever get that feeling that one of your friends hates you? Like, they probably don’t, but you still think it?

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Ngl, kinda want to stop existing for a bit. It feels like there’s a drill that keeps making me want to stop existing

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Like, I get that I’m a good person and that people love me, but I still feel really inadequate and I know why and it’s stupid but I can’t get it to stop

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You ever have such a good day and then end it feeling like you’re not enough? By some standard?