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#i came back around he DOES kinda look like a sad masc lesbian

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The other thing my mind is torturing me with. For the last three days Im haunted by "meep meep". Or "the cute sound that Rika does". And I don't mean I just hear it in my mind. I'm actively saying it myself, almost every ten minutes. Fortunately. Only in my mind or in writing.

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The levels of migraine.

Evening before: "I feel kinda very sad and very suicidal for no reason. Weird"

Early morning: "I feel weird"

Morning: "I feel very weird. But I can't even tell what I mean by it???"

Midday: headache starts, but it's probably the normal headache. Just take painkillers

Evening: the headache is getting worse, you are rapidly losing the ability to see anything

Early night: it's a fucking torture, you can't think, breathe, see and move. You hope you will not puke on yourself or close to you.

Night: somehow it's still goes on.

Midnight: it gets better? I think? It still hurts, but hurts like a normal headache and you are not as sick as before. But thinking is still very hard.

Anyway. It's 1 am when will it stop.

#i kno i have a metal pipe to the head disease #but its not fair

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My brain is slowly stopping hurting. I mean. Now it's not as bad as it was. I still struggling with writing. But let me say something.

Mikan is underrated character. A lot of people hate her for being whiny and being used for "sexy" jokes. But she's an interesting character. Especially when she was evil and lucid (debatable).

I mean. She kinda told Nagito to go fuck himself. But in a way that would hurt him deeply. Like. Let's be real. She's kinda cool when she's evil.

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Even tho my cat is a little agressive bitch baby. And doesn't like to be touched (the pets like its owners, lold). But he went with me to bed and lying near me, so I can feel his back.

How cats do dat

Guess what? Migraine

#im.very catefully trying not to move #and also to not puke on my bed #but it gets kinda hard #when the pills would kick in

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I think I may be dying.

Guess what? Migraine

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Followed an artist.

Half a year later randomly found out that they are Minecraft youtuber???

#when im saying that im slow #im not joking

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Jokes on you it got worse.

Guess what? Migraine

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It's Fatal Frame: The Movie/Gekijoban Zero. It also includes a cameo of specific guys from one of my favourite mangas. Since it's written by the same guy. And when I say it's lesbian it's not a joke or exaggeration. It's one of the main plot points.

And Avalon (2001). Which has a bombastic soundtrack made by Kenji Kawai (but The voiced parts are sung in polish). I think the last scene probably lost some shine. Since the movie is pretty old. But I still like it.

The easy way to learn that something very wrong with me.

Is that one of my favourite films of all time. Are like

- Japanese lesbian horror movie based on video game that you can only watch on youtube

- Japanese-polish sci-fi movie made by the author of Ghost in the Shell and Patlabor but everyone forgot about it

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growing up I always wanted to be poorly understood by science

#F06 moment #still remember how i had like #three diffrent brain doctors at the same time monotoring me hourly

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The easy way to learn that something very wrong with me.

Is that one of my favourite films of all time. Are like

- Japanese lesbian horror movie based on video game that you can only watch on youtube

- Japanese-polish sci-fi movie made by the author of Ghost in the Shell and Patlabor but everyone forgot about it

#both of these films are like horryfyingly beautifull #but im the singular fan #my beige flag is being totally cluesless about popular stuff #but having a fixation on some obscure thing

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Guess what? Migraine

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#surprosed that i never reblogged it

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I think the most important skill you can have. Is positive non-caring.

- Someone says something dumb? It's their problem, that they look stupid. Not your problem.

- People want to do something with their bodies (starting from tattoo and ending with gender affirming surgery)? Why do you care, it's their body. Like whatever.

- You do not agree with someone's opinion on some fandom stuff? Close the tab and go look at some birds outside.

Just be polite to people choices and do. not. care. Even if you don't understand it yourself.

It saves you so much mental energy.

I don't understand a lot of things that people do. Different cultural backgrounds. Different mental profile. But like. As long as it not harming anyone, why should I care.

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Btw, northern lapwing is currently nesting outside the town.

#it also includes giving people the right to care and be bitchy about stuff

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to save you

#umineko no naku koro ni spoilers #umineko spoilers #umineko no naku koro ni #my art #shannon umineko #kanon umineko #beatrice the golden witch #sorry the scene where Kanon saves Battler from a locked room #imideatly after beato saying #i found a way to save you #FUCKED ME UP #he took his place #DO YOU UNDERSTAND? #THEY TOOK HIS PLACE TO BE LPCKED FOR ETERNITY TO SAVE HIM

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Like, even if we exploring him experiencing new emotions. I don't think he would understand that the hell is happening. Like I needed a year of therapy and additional couple of years. To even differentiate some of the emotions myself. Before it was like "I feel good" and "I feel bad, what is happening to me".

Me: *slapping Phantom's head* this bitch boy can hold so much trauma inside of him! and he can't comprehend any of it

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third chapter

The Witch exposed herself.

What will she do next?

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