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lost the game of chance, what are the chances?

how did it end? – taylor swift

[Image description: 6 large gifs primarily of Shannon and Eddie Diaz from 9-1-1 with the lyrics to How Did It End, by Taylor Swift.

Gif 1: A split gif with Eddie on the left and Shannon on the right. The two are at dinner when Shannon tells Eddie she wants a divorce and he reacts in hurt disbelief. The text reads, "Say it once again with feeling how the death rattle breathing silenced."

Gif 2: A close up, washed out gif of Shannon after her accident, when she first sees Eddie on the scene. The text continues the line in the song, "As the soul was leaving."

Gif 3: A split gif with Shannon on the left and Eddie on the right. They're talking over facetime while Eddie's at work and Shannon is at lunch with Christopher and Isabel. They're both laughing and smiling. The text continues, "The deflation of our dreaming."

Gif 4: A colored gif with a black and white gif overlayed. In the colored gif, Eddie slumps back in the ambulance, watching as Hen and Chimney work to intubate Shannon. In the black and white gif, Eddie roars after winning a fight. The text continues, "Leaving me bereft and reeling."

Gif 5: A washed out gif of Shannon and Eddie at the beach with Christopher between them. The text continues, "My beloved ghost and me, sitting in a tree."

Gif 6: Two washed-out gifs overlayed. In the first gif, Eddie lies in a puddle of his own blood. Blended into his body is a gif of Shannon, shot from above as the first responders rush over her body after her accident. The text finishes, "D-y-i-n-g."

/end ID.]

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no i will not make separate blogs for my fandoms, everyone who follows me must experience ALL my insanity

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#ALBERT??!!! #911 on abc

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had a dream this morning where the grid were in an apocalypse movie and the only real thought i remembered about it when i woke up was this:

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every single analysis of buck and eddie is like. they are two sides of the same coin. they are walking the same path. the hollowness is the same. the desperation to be wanted. their matching wounds. their matching pain. the ways they've been injured taught them to love each other just right. they transform each other. they meet each other halfway, at just the right time, and you feel like it should have been earlier, but you understand why it couldn't have been, that's what's terrible. buck was wandering while eddie was dying. eddie's blood in buck's mouth. buck's ribs cracking under eddie's hands. eddie can't look at buck. eddie can't say what they are. eddie can't ask for more. buck wants eddie and doesn't even know it. neither of them know it. and so on, and so forth. pretty fucked up if you ask me

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The moment that will haunt me forever is Eddie standing in the back of Buck's hospital room, exhausted and overwhelmed to the point that he physically cannot answer Christopher's questions. That moment when Christopher asks about the tubes and he just shakes his head in frustration because he just can't. He can barely stand to look at Buck, he certainly can't bring himself to explain all of the machines that are Buck's only lifeline because he can hardly bring himself to face that reality at all.

This poor man is so drained—from staying close at the hospital, from arguing with a stubborn kid who's not supposed to be there, but who deserves to be, from trying to take care of the rest of the team, from trying to pretend he's not falling apart.

This man. This beautiful, loving man—who would do anything at all for his son, who is exceptional at communicating when it comes to Christopher—he couldn't bring himself to do more than shake his head in frustration when his son asked this question.

The amount of pain and fear that implies in Eddie is utterly heartbreaking.

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dedicated to @missmeganlee

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Charlie: Once I lost my ex at a party and found him hooking up with some random girl.

Charlie: Last night I lost Nick at a party and found him outside trying to befriend a stray cat.

Charlie: Upgrades.

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we used to watch skam clips on google drive. we used to be a society

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“And I don’t think anybody should feel bad if they get diagnosed with a mental illness, ’cause it’s just information about you that helps you to know how to take better care of yourself.

“Being bipolar, there’s nothing wrong with it. Being bipolar is like not knowing how to swim. It might be embarrassing to tell people, and it might be hard to take you certain places. But they have arm floaties. And if you just take your arm floaties, you can go wherever the hell you want.

“And I know some of you are like, ‘But Taylor, what if people judge me for taking arm floaties?’ Well, those people don’t care if you live or die, so maybe who cares? Maybe fuck those people a little. I don’t know.”

Taylor Tomlinson, Look At You (2022)

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eddie diaz | the prophecy

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oh we are gonna be EATING

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eddie diaz | the prophecy

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chris gathers his salad bowl and plays ‘who’s afraid of little old me’ whenever marisol comes over