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*chuckling wisely and leaningg back with my hands behind my head* I know what sex is

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"what do you do all day" girl im loitering

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What is Dissociation?

Complete set at TraumaGeek

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Post-traumatic stress, post-traumatic stress disorder, and complex ptsd are all normal reactions to trauma, the ‘disorder’ is attached to it because it’s not widely understood that post traumatic stress can appear years later after the trauma is considered ‘over’.

This is more likely happening because trauma was not, in fact, over. Being alone and unsupported after trauma, having nobody to confide and get comfort from, is the extension of the trauma. So is overworking yourself, frantically trying to survive in terror of failure, being isolated from your own perspective and not feeling allowed to feel your pain, being caught in shame, guilt and doubt over what happened, numbing your feelings thru medications, addictions and self harm. Having to live exposed to abusers and at risk of more trauma, as well.

The truth is, a lot of people keep living in trauma even after it’s considered over. Nobody tells you that the way you live your life is and always was traumatic, and you won’t know until it breaks you down in the form of ptsd.

Living while having no way to let trauma out is traumatic. Living while nobody knows your truth is traumatic. Knowing that if you say something people will turn against you is traumatic. We love to play up how tough we are but trauma without support can shatter anyone.

It’s not your fault if you’re feeling it years and years later; it’s possible your life only now opened up to the option of feeling the pain you carried inside of you all this time. It was never 'too long ago’ to still be traumatized to this day. Your body never forgot, even if you wanted to forget so badly. You’re having a reaction that is normal, no matter how delayed. You are not weak. You survived.

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Czesław Miłosz, "This World"

Translated from the Polish by Czesław Miłosz & Robert Hass.

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the thing about carrying tension in your jaw is that once you've started it's really fucking hard to stop

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The White Cat by Francine van Hove

#art #francine van hove

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Craquante, 2015 oil on canvas

Noir café, 2016 oil on canvas

#art #francine van hove

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You ever sit there doing something with your hands, listening to a podcast or audiobook or something, and suddenly realise that's your natural state to be. This is what you're supposed to be doing, crafting something nice while listening to another human's speech and thoughts. How people have done this for as long as there's been people, from crafting arrow heads from rocks while listening to grandma tell the tale of the mammoth hunt, to having a friend read aloud from a book while you're all fixing horse reins and doing needlework, to you sitting there doing whatever you're doing, with youtube open on the background.

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when someone draws something just for you

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Persepolis Directed by Marjane Satrapi (2007)

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I have led a toothless life, he thought. A toothless life. I have never bitten into anything. I was waiting. I was reserving myself for later on—and I have just noticed that my teeth have gone.

Jean-Paul Sartre, The Age of Reason (via intellectualpoaching)

#sartre

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Existence precedes and rules essence.

Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness (via philosophybits)

#sartre

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Me: Did you know that medieval cathedrals weren't actually supposed to be dark and rundown places with only stained glass as color? They were bright places full of light... the reason they look like that now is because of the centuries of accumulated grime and dust, here look at this restoration of the Cathedral of Chartres in France:

It's based on actual paint from the times, and when you think about it, it makes a lot more sense, after all a church is supposed to be a bright place of hope. Yet when we think about the middle ages we think about grimy and dark cathedrals. I wonder how much of our conception of history is shaped by our current visions of historical buildings.

My Goth GF: listen, I don't think this thing between us is working,