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[menwomenandjesus]

Noah Fence, but I have long lost my ability to even listen to the advice of non-religious people telling religious lgbtq+ people to just “leave their religion,” as if religion to us is merely just a set of traditions and steps we follow that we can step out of at any moment. Like our religion is a cage, trapping us inside, and we desperately need to escape it so that we can live a better life.

It never has been a cage. It’s never been God pressing His hands down on me, or casting me aside, no. It has never been God telling me that He hates me. It has never been God telling me that I am not redeemable. It has been people. Fallible humans telling me those things and oppressing me- not God.

“Leaving Christianity” has never been an option- not because anyone has ever forced me to stay, but because I want to stay. Yeah, there are a lot of Christians who want me to leave- or think I never was with them in the first place. Who think I don’t belong here. But God wants me to draw near to Him. Those people can never take that away from me. They can’t pull me away from God. 

It wasn’t my religion- it wasn’t my God who made me feel rejected and alone and scared and hate myself. It was people. Fallible people who have hurt me. 

I just wish those non-religious people would take a second to understand that. 

[menwomenandjesus]

[menwomenandjesus]

My story so far

In as short of a post as I can make, here’s my story so far as a bisexual Christian. 

I grew up in church as a pastor’s daughter, so my faith has always been a part of my life. I really gave my life to Jesus when I was 12, and I’ve been wanting to grow that relationship ever since. I grew up in the conservative Presbyterian church (PCA), being taught my whole life that the Bible was very clear that homosexual relationships were sinful. We’re supposed to love everyone, but we can’t support gay marriage. As I used to say, “love the sinner, hate the sin.” (I shudder a bit thinking about that phrase now.) 

Although I grew up in a mostly conservative church setting, I went to a pretty liberal high school, where the LGBTQ+ community was very welcomed and open. My freshman year of high school, I started to question my sexuality and even came out as bi to a few close friends. It didn’t last very long, though, before I convinced myself it was a phase and moved on. (That wasn’t a great year for my mental health either, so a lot of things were going on that led to that.) 

Then a few months ago, at the beginning of my senior year of college, I started questioning my sexuality again. I wish I could say it was something huge or eventful like falling in love, but in reality it was a combination of discovering the songs “Little Miss Perfect” and “She” by dodie around the same time. They both spoke to me in a way I didn’t expect them to, and after taking time to reflect on my feelings in the past and present, I realized that the feelings I’ve had for women are just as real as the feelings I’ve had for men. It took me a minute after that to accept the term “bisexual.”

Now, I’m starting to ask questions about the way I was raised and what the Bible really says. I could never let go of my faith, but I also don’t want to hide or be ashamed of who I am. One of the first books I’ve read on this is “Torn” by Justin Lee, and he showed me how important it is to share our stories. So I’d like to start sharing mine, even as it’s still happening. 

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[menwomenandjesus]

hi tumblr!!

I made this blog to start sharing my experiece as a bisexual Christian woman. I’m pretty new to all of this - I basically just came out to myself within the past year. But I’m asking a lot of questions about the Bible and sexuality and what God wants me to do with my life, and I thought I could start sharing that with people if anyone is interested. And if not, then I have a space to write out my process and look back at someday :) 

If you are also a bisexual Christian, hello!! I know there are more of us out there, but I don’t know many, so I’d love to message with you and talk!!

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