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WE ARE NOT SAVING IT ❌❌❌👎👎👎👎

#hound.txt #i cant live with feeling like the colours sre fucked ig im recolouring the entire thing #its nothing a head injury and five beers and a blunt and killing myself etc etc etc

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WE ARE SAVING IT

FUCK I DID THE POINT GRADIENTS AND FORGOT THERES A MAIN GRADIENT UNDER THEM AND THEYRE ON THE SAME LAYER. THEY LOOK SO GOOD. I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.

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okay on looking a second time i can maybe save this

FUCK I DID THE POINT GRADIENTS AND FORGOT THERES A MAIN GRADIENT UNDER THEM AND THEYRE ON THE SAME LAYER. THEY LOOK SO GOOD. I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.

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FUCK I DID THE POINT GRADIENTS AND FORGOT THERES A MAIN GRADIENT UNDER THEM AND THEYRE ON THE SAME LAYER. THEY LOOK SO GOOD. I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF.

#hound.txt #RAHHHHHGFHGHGHRJAHR GRH #BITING AND KILLING

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made myself better by lying down for a long time

got overambitious ^-^ return of the stomachache

#head still feels weird but it has for days now ^-^ im sure im fine

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"you're so close to your friends!! It's almost like there's a secret something going on, right—?" *KILL YOU* *KILLS YOU* *KILLS YOU* *KILL YOU* GOD I'M SO MAD *KILLS YOU* *KILLS YOU* *KILL YOU*

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#fave

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got overambitious ^-^ return of the stomachache

#and weird lightheadedness #hound.txt

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what are your thoughts on this key(not thw girl just paracelsus)

i like 👍 enjoying the splatter of blood and semi petrified look on the keys face . that guy’s seen things.

#looks at you ^-^ #id love to hear about them

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yeayyy control baby ^-^

#hound.txt

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A lighthouse and a warning, all at once.

A lighthouse monster, to greet all the ships at sea!

#nah nothing lives under the lighthouse :)

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WHAT WAS THAT TRANSITION BETWEEN FIRE4FUN AND RISK IM GOING TO PASS OUT ????

#hound.txt

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Congratulations! You are now a Magic-User!!

#claw nails pls pls

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last night i had a terrible dream that someone had gone onto a wikipedia page i had edited and reverted all my edits, and on the talk page they were saying stuff like "Yeah [user] is always making edits to things they don't know anything about, citing unreliable sources" and a bunch of people were agreeing with them! so i went to the journal I had gotten the citation from and the article I had cited looked like an actual article but the rest of the journal's content was cartoon fetish art about human women being pregnant with crabs instead of human babies

#that last line changed everything

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#oh its not just me 😁