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Utagawa Hiroshige: Kyobashi Bridge

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Why something supposedly by and for lesbians, is set up for male gaze, *must* be the nature of this stuff, right?

(Like there's no real way to get around that when it's not ever intentional)

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How to stay interested in a language...

A friend had a habit of "hand signing" everything people were saying to him in conversation to keep his sign language skill strong. Usage in constant translation like doing exercises or something.

Every now and again, I have to go read something in Spanish like a "how to" manual for electricians, politiblogs from socialists and others, and occasionally poetry to make it's "staying in there".

So I was thinking about Ryoko who is an anime approximation of Japanese people experiencing Dutch women, and how her ship is a "brown thing with golden eyes" called "ryo-ohki" and how that's "her ship" meaning romantic shipping according to the west. A xenophobic country long before racism where *Koreans* get singled out. Some error in translation that must have been. There are no brown people in Japan.

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This is liquid Oregon, "what will they do without Boeing???" Eugene is *famous for its PhDs who PUMP GAS*. They will get by.

the portland state university president has promised to pause taking money from boeing before protests have even begun. do not accept the narrative that students aren't achieving anything or that the demands are stupid, small, inactionable: the demands are just, thought-out, precedented, and they will be achieved. i hope everyone who thinks otherwise corrects their judgment.

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Saw some friend of rick's on a safeway dairy aisle.

She's more Irish, 100% certain of it, than someone who is literally *from Ireland* and choral singing, that I met a long time ago.

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Saw one of these guys next to a fucking shakesperean theater *during tourist summer* season.

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"Good thing they got emancipated!"

"You mean, liberated??"

"No, I mean in case they want to go back. Worked for the black people"

WW2 discussion with a friend in middle school. He was about to facepalm and then he thought about it; loaded words in history.

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biological sex, gender identity, social sex-role, and sexual orientation

Said google, making up a sexuality. So I was asking it "how you get around the mathematicians answer" and not in so many words.

It's in a dress; is it a woman? Yes.

Does it have male genitals under there? Yes.

Is it a man after all? Yes.

Does it identify *as it's identified* as a homosexual woman or heterosexual man? Yes.

Is it *secretly receptive to advances* at odds with identity and social sexual role and such? No.

Can it be? No.

A transvestite is a heterosexual man enjoying wearing traditionally women's clothing. That's it.

A dominatrix doesn't *secretly want to be dominated by men* because those happen to be traditional gender roles. Dominating outside sexual preference; same thing.

So and, a mathematicians answer is the best you get.

Someone dressed as a woman doesn't want to sleep with men because that's how it can be interpreted. None of these things are negotiable, either.

A "male lesbian" and a "high femme stone top" they're not having good experiences with mistaken impressions; kinsey has four quadrants, skills interest inventories are basically conditional "yes/no".

There's a **huge difference** between being "mistaken for something" vs "classed as something by popular opinion" and that's because the signalling is so limited, and the latter *does generate hate crimes*.

Black transvestite; stereotype, he's straight as straight gets. He *could* actually be gay but that's his problem with stereotypes working against him.

White transvestite; stereotype, he's gay as gay gets. He *could* actually be straight but that's his problem with stereotypes working against him.

Any stereotypical "diesel dyke" can identify as a man.

Categorization errors kill people. When it's necessary to summarize them like this at fine resolution. IMHO too, trans people problems and risks are *now for everybody* because of this. About making people homicidally uncomfortable.

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Arya Tara by Mahendra Dangol, Nepal

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The most dangerous activity under the most dangerous flight conditions;

Heli logging dead old growth redwoods. And yeah it's Oregon; what we *do* here, or did.

That guy deserves a commendation (or girl). Helicopter in "siskiyou wind tunnel" vicinity? Yup. Few hundred feet off the ground? Yeah. Hemmed in by conifer covered hillside? Yep.

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Almost *all* the kinky stuff I like on here, you *would think* raises intimacy rather than revolving around male orgasm.

And porn does that because sex work does that, but there's a stage in sexual deviance where sex isn't really the central thing, and pornography doesn't seem to notice that.

Femdom is new to broad audiences and yet, the settings and scenes get more complicated in revolving around male genitals. Women dressed as porny as ever *and responsible for doing more and more things*. Where it's not about men as an informed situation and somehow, that's what's always depicted.

Costumes and uncomfortable clothing and everything else. Women.

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Walking in a straight line; doing something a little different last night.

"KILL YOURSELF!!!" Yelled at me by the guy traditionally stationed on the bridge street corner opposite mazatlan. As he'd yelled not quite as loud many times before. But from across on palm street this time.

A beardy "backed up" by a VW and blocking my path so I can't help but notice next to the "hot yoga studio" An abrahamic cult guy, empire and "hitlers revenge" all in a tiny package.

And I'm from a really good underworld pedigree; so let's talk about how the kkk isn't something you want. It's ruthlessly efficient sure, at terrible things. "We're all friends here" is the law of the land where that exists. Meaning, "who killed my kid?!?" has only solace as an answer because "we're all friends here". Leading to "guess I'll have another one" as best available recompense. "Did you burn my house down for blocking your view?" Solace of a yes or no answer. "Guess I'll build another one" All you get. So successful in Oregon that black people were outlawed, Chinese people were outlawed from existing above ground when outside chinatowns. When it succeeds; we're all friends here. At the dunn ranch, they were actively street sweeping (killing the homeless vagrants "passing through") while actively maintaining a brothel. As so-called "pillars of the community"

It's before Ashland became this sort of "white supremacist" utopia of legend, starting in the sixties and seventies. And that's why I'm bringing it up.

"And he likes it when…he encounters you specifically where I tell you to show up along his walk route…or else" seems kkk vintage anonymity but with a nazi touch. And that was last night.

"Someone's literal job is to yell 'kill yourself' at you specifically?" Yeah. And you should know today, that I got another murder derived setup around the college youth program building; there's a van clearly with someone living in it, a cat on a long leash stretching a tripwire functionally across the sidewalk. And that's what you see. And there's the dog off leash "hiding" in the space between the back of the building and the retaining wall for the rise ending there; thereby conoting you get "jumped" and pushed into a van. And had I done the "smart" thing and walked literally out in the road (smart in context) to get around that, I'm sure there would've been a cooper. Because this is everyday. So when the Ashland seedy community "changed" from anonymous and "all friends here" to "only certain people matter" on race/phenotype sliding scale, the same consolidated power problems start to crop up.

Today it's what I would call "rich person cowardice" which goes with the exalting a race thing. When it was the kkk, their success destroyed them with no blacks or Chinese or minorites or even white women having rights. So they had no standard to hold themselves to because "we're all friends here". But then there's David Sisson (apothecary, nascent drug dealer of ladanum etc) shot in his yard and white, and his French wife (house burned and run out of town, high class prostitute from European sophistication) and white. And who's to blame? Well, the community who was all friends here decided on that and that was it. A murder "everyone" was in on. So everyone did it and at the same time, no one did.

Rich person cowardice is several yellow busses in a row blocking the way up harmony street at siskiyou. It's "elastic" arrival time, like it doesn't matter really when they arrive where they're going within a half hour/forty five minute window. And rvtd has put whole busses next to me to the instant. Based on color and ads on the side. Coopers are the same thing. You have to understand that you're going to have problems with each other when there's only a couple Y chromosomes and uniform genetic strata for everybody. How you decide "who eats, and who watches" with a well documented outcome.

A rich person cowardice example from before, the Marc Anthony hotel building looks as though it was designed with a clocktower in mind. Conoting the city of what empire as opposed the "one of eight Irishmen" and the first Irish bloodlines of Dunn's; incidentally the same as the Kennedys. Tallest building around is going to look like what? Ashland in an "ancient races" contest; they don't even place at circa 1000 years. As compared to twelve thousand for Ireland, who even knows for Switzerland, Greece etc.

"Here! Infinity dollars for a magnificent hotel" and completely out of profile for the region at the time*. Creating a modern curiosity where "all the luxury is in the lobby" said grandpa of sort of terrible accomodations given the import relative to town. And the streets were deserted last night because it was cold at sunset. And so each encounter was mandated by something because affluent communities have lots of people who don't work and kids who don't work; nobody would choose to wait out in the cold to run into me.

These aren't making arguments or even statements, these encounters; these are demonstrations of how the community works when you're not on any of the sides. Walking from Ashland downtown to the far reaches and in a straight line. All sorts of other stuff happened, and today after it, but then I'd have to talk about "standing armies" with nothing better to do, in bringing that up. Which and again the kkk existed as a sieve for unwanteds minority and otherwise, and they ran out in Oregon. Some practiced experts on hate. Stuck with each other conceivably forever.

So diadora inlaid swastika bricks around town and such, I'm starting to see the same thing happening with you guys. Except of course, being the opposite and natural enemy of the kkk, you guys are a super minority well known rather than anonymous. Which, all those "brown" people around here, they're really well acquainted with the viceroys. Like when twenty or thirty people matter for a whole continent. Which is "down to road a piece" for you guys.

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“Knowledge is a treasure, but practice is the key to it.” - Lao Tzu

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Making furniture with pallets is our generations’ version of Great Depression potato sack clothes.

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Vaguely German looking cracked abs jogger "You know, I don't know anyone here" "I think I'll go somewhere else" by bus stop where I was walking by. As if they're pleading or something.

Anna, as I had said, was required for receptivity to anything so far as this stuff goes. Cooper stalkers at intersections and off hand meaningless comments by people.

Since I've been "on the way here" since 1987-88 when we moved out to the ranch from wagner creek. Death or prison at the other end. From completely preventable, entirely correctible, social and economic problems over a damn ranch. So I'm waiting for a best friend to convince me along the lines that I had laid out; now after the fifteen consecutive years mark of day to day antagonism.

Whatever the argument is from stevenson union or wherever on campus, it's probably going to wife all gone, job all gone, life all gone. At a rate things seem to be going. Something that based on the collective reach of his family would cost less than pruning a fingernail. As some of those problems were caused as a result of the success of that family, it seemed kind of like they could fix it.

Anna herself, would probably state the stack of prejudices keeping things going this way. And they go back a long time. We all had black names in my kindergarten class; there were no black people in Ashland. A dentist is called "F period Schwartzer", subtle, right? And my last name is an anagram of "negro"; too close I guess to go unscathed and somewhat celebrated as most of my classmates turned out. Never for want of prospects.

Yelling next to empty pond um, see above and conditions for receptivity. Staged conversation shooting for proselytizing interest No.

And again, that was back in 2009, or 08 or something. And there was this half japanese woman, who got sent around the world only to get "poured" into the life that unexpectedly culminated in; not good compared to apparent trajectory. She saw some exclusive communities and events and itineraries on account of a "bund" adjacent "pair the spares" thing. At my estimation it's two thirds of the axis but wasn't the "really important" part that had the bund orgies; so off she went to motherhood and marriage and all that stuff.

A people who get off those rollercoasters without knowing that they exist, they never stop trying to get back on them. As I had put here; I know how the system works. Complaining about stuff my old boss did in "regulating" the system, I can suggest what it was before. "Any system based on trust is really, really, comically easy, to shut down. Sex work. Orgies. Any public space. The airlines. STD scare? Done. Contaminated drinking water from fountains? Done. Bomb on an airplane? Done. Someone tries opening a door in flight? Done.

So I'm futilely waiting here, for someone to prove the system doesn't work fifteen years ago, exactly the way that I know it works today in 2024.

Edit: *followed exactly* to the moment of posting, by an Eric expy doing the verbal equivalent of a slow clap in praise for "liam" one of a group of small children on bikes. He's like a pit boss (the actual guy) for a company town, which last I checked the company had an eleven billion dollar market capitalization. So clearly this confirms when it's "not worth a bullet" so to speak.

Remember when the highschool wasn't accessible because people with handicaps somehow *didn't manage to go there*? Me either.

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By Japanese photographer てらぬ〜 @teranu_photo