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I went to shufersal and I saw these cutie babies…These little things make me happy. #SimpleHappiness #succulent #newbabies

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I never imagine myself to stay in the kitchen and enjoying to cook and bake something. When I was young I hated to cook even fried some food. I only love to stay at my room and read pocketbooks while listening music. But when I was in High School I dream to have restaurant or bakeshop, dunno why. Then when I enrolled in College I took up BSIT major in Food Tech although I don't know anything about food or cooking. But I enjoyed it I learned a lot especially in baking. I really love baking. Now my career are too far with my profession. As a caregiver I'm applying what I've learned and discovering more about Israeli cuisine.. Oftentimes I cook combination of Pinoy & Israeli cuisine. The best way to a man's heart is through stomach. 😊 #Muffins #PancitBihon #MushroomCarbonara #MushroomPastida #ChocolateSpongeCake

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The 3 C's of life: Choices, Chances & Changes. You must make a choice to take a chance or your life will never change. - Amit Sodha

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These photos were taken after the Holy Mass, a celebration of the Feast Day of Our Lady of Woman of Valor.It was a great day with my choirmates. #catchingofcandiespose #lateUpload

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People come and go into your life for a reason.Some may stay and some will left you behind.It’s easy to have friends or lots of friends but finding true & good friends are hard. I have a friend name Pau eventually I called her Marekho, she called me Mareng Liit(small).Its been 19 years of friendship.Were classmates since 2nd year High school.We had different group of friends back then, but our section stick together like a broomstick since were block section until 4th year H.S.Then unexpected we became classmates again during our college days from 1st yr up to 3rd yr block section again.I shifted in Education when were 2nd yr college.But were still classmates because we had same major(Food Tech).So we became too close although were totally different she’s kind a simple person,easilly to pissed off or irritate, kinda nerd in someways & love to study. While me the Pasaway just want to explore and experience lots of things,super Maarte and talkative.And I became focus on my studies bcoz of her influence.One thing were jive we love food, food trip here or there.Were unseparable.Then it happened I stopped studying on our last year in college, financial problem.She continue, had OJT while me I can’t find job sometimes I helped my mother selling chicken in the market.I continue my study while she’s working in electeonics company.On 2008 we had communication and reunited with our high school classmates before she went to Taiwan to work.While me after 2 yrs of being a volunteer teacher in our alma mater had oppurtunity to work here in Israel.Thanks to Facebook we have good communication although we are living in different countries and have time differnces.She’s totally different she became more beautiful,fashionista, a ladylike and an adventurous person. We chatting and talking even we’re at work especially during her night shift.I’m a matchmaker after she broke up with her ex bf I matched her to my fb friend.Their relationship became quiet.When I asked about their relationship she just say “we are ok.” Sometimes I keep asking lots of questions and she just replied Madame you have lots of questions with smiley face.We’re really good until our communication turn on and off unlike before.I felt jealous with her friends because they always together I saw her photos on fb she was happy. 2017 we chatted on special occasion New Years Day and on Valentines day just greetings and exchanging hi hello how are you.Then I heard a song that perfectly fit to us “Kaibigan” by Sarah G. & Yeng.I really wanted to send it to her but I had tantrums and jealousy eating my system i didn’t share it to her.March 29, 2017 I sent a message saying “I have a hot news to you."She instanly replied what is it? I was laughing then replied "bad news” ha ha ha making her pissed off then I told her “your first love is getting married” ha ha she just replied Ok.So I’m thinking oh why she’s like that being cold to me and or maybe bcoz we really change.We are not close just like before.Then I asked her “how are you” she replied the next day I think “I’m ok mare I’m going back to work.I replied ok take care God bless. April 3, 2017 I woke up at 8:00 am went to the comfort room.I don’t have enough sleep I only slept more than 2 hrs I think, had insomia but its very different that day.I noticed my fb messengers have lots of messages but I ignore it I want to go back to sleep since my employer is still sleeping.Then it rang I saw the name of Pau’s friend I answered it.She said "Pau is gone” I answered What? she told me “Pau is died I’m not joking.” I know you are close to her and I never contact her sister or family that’s why I’m telling it to you.I was hysterical saying Noooooooo, its not true.She told me she had vehicular accident death on the spot.They were in the hospital that time.I was crying out loud my employer got up from bed and asking me what happened.I told him and she let me stayed at home all day,.After that call I did something to communicate to her sister, relatives and our H.S friends so her family will know what happened to her.Days passed by lots of things happened I don’t want to open my Facebook, every morning when I woke up have lots of messages asking what happened to Pau.I felt they’re torturing me for asking again and again.It’s painful.UntiI now I can’t believe she’s gone.And after her death there are lots of things we had discover about her. A lot of questions that we can’t find answers.And I’m blaming myself for some reasons of her sadness.I thought she’s happy & everything are Ok but no its not because she have lots of secrets.She never tell it to me or to her closefriends in Taiwan and especially to her family.I’m praying to see and talk to her even in my dream.Last April 27, 2017 her body sent to the Phils.I saw her pictures in the coffin she’s very different it makes me cry seeing her like that.My mother with our H.S friends went there already.On May 3 will be her last day with her love ones. And today I woke up remembering my dream.I saw her on my dream with our college friend Ren sitting in the chair in an open field with trees surrounding us taking exam that I don’t know what’s all about.And after an hours I saw a butterfly came in.We believed that when we saw butterfly it is one of our love ones that pass a way.I don’t know the meaning to my dream.I still hoping I see her again in my dreams soon and tell me everything I want to know. After I post this photo and wrote something on FB there’s a flashback it happened in my dream a year ago or more than that I post this quote.Yes, it is cryptic but its true I see future through my dreams.Some scene in the future it takes a month, months, a year or years before it happen. Goodbyes are hard.It may be harder for the person leaving.But it’s always hardest for the one left behind. I understand why it happened because it’s her time to be with our God our creator.Everything happen for a reason.. I’M MISSING YOU MAREKHO.I LOVE YOU AND I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU.THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND I AM SORRY. 😢😢😢 See you again in the next life. #hardtoaccept #friendsforkeep