mainaisikyunhu

[mainaisikyunhu]

there should be a manual on how to exist. something to make one feel they're not continuously being slipped. instructions about all the emotions and their repercussions. the methods of processing grief and knowledge about celebrating peace. denial should not be skipped and oh god someone please talk about the thin line between love and hatred. the uncertainties of teenage and overwhelming responsibilities thrown on young shoulders after entering your twenties. it gets better in your thirties. what about the woman who's juggling motherhood with a degree or her husband who finds no delight in working for a corporate team? so much left still unknown about the entirety of human beings.

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my problem is that I give too many fucks!!! nonchalant people I want to be like you

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🧿 to keep you safe from people who want to do you harm.<3 🧿

[mainaisikyunhu]

Bhayii overthinking Roku ki yeh zindagi mein jo downfall chal raha hai usse samjh nahi aa raha hai

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whenever something goes wrong, I lose my appetite, get insecure, feel sleepy and tired all day long but can't sleep peacefully, i let myself go, I barely feel alive and I really wish to die and thats why I hate letting people close to me and making me go through this

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Am I the one cursed ? Am I the one always at fault ? Am I always committing mistakes ? Am I not worthy of affection ? Am I unworthy? Am I unlucky for people? Don't I deserve someone who'll understand me ? Am I overthinking things ? Am I lonely ? Do I seek validation from people ? Is my energy draining people's soul ? Am I clingy ? Is that why people replace me ? Is that why people find it easy to forget me ? Is that why I never got any friends ? Is that why I am always blamed ?

I guess I already know the answers to these questions....

But just one last question dear "GOD" - why always me ????

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Honestly still can't understand why people take attachment as a joke ????

It really hurts physically , to me atleast idk why I am like this

I just want to get rid of this habit of feeling things this deeply

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physically mentally emotionally exhausted

[mainaisikyunhu]

दिल जाने, मेरे सारे, भेद ये गहरे. खो गए कैसे मेरे, सपने सुनहरे

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The secret to being a private person is to overshare dumb shit so people think you are an open book but then not tell them any of the important details of your life.

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At this moment of life, I have lost all my conversation skills as well as the will to talk.

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Someone quoted this on Twitter.

no one hustles harder than a girl who hates asking for shit

~ I mean where's the lie ??

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"sometimes loving too much is a sin."

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Where is my

"Je Tainu Dhoop Lageya Ve Taan Main Chhaon Bann Jaavan Teri Khushiyon Ke Khaatir Main Saare Jag Se Ladd Jaavan"

guy?????

[mainaisikyunhu]

Me studying

Randomly opens the last page of notebook

Starts scribbling random lyrics 😔

Why am I like this ????

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Just me and my pinterest when Ikk kudi by Diljit Donsanjh plays 😭