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I still think one of the most powerful things I’ve ever seen an internet celebrity do was Brian David Gilbert changing his appearance and nicely saying “You’re not my friend and you have no say over what I do with my body.”

It wasn’t mean spirited or a long video, just a clear statement and recognition that parasocial relationships isn’t friendship. I deeply respect that and seeing other internet celebrities use that frame/gif towards nosey fans is great

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he's very excited about his first night as a jack o lantern

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When we broke up this last time, I really thought I was going to die.

I watched the future fall out from underneath me, my stomach fell through the floor and my heart along with it. I watched the foundations of my life crumble to dust and my world stop turning.

I sat in front of the train tracks... crying... waiting...

"I can't do this with you anymore. I just want to be with other people."

Waiting... One train passes, I hesitate to step outside my car. I think about how the decision to end one's life is usually made in five minutes from the act.

"What you're asking of me isn't unreasonable but I don't want to put in that much effort right now."

Waiting... A second train passes, I'm standing on the platform so close to the edge someone tells me to be careful. I think about the pause Joli took before saying "we hit someone" explaining why her train was late the other day.

"I'm sorry, I didn't actually want you to be honest with me..."

Waiting... A third train passes, I walk back to my car, I call Lili. She picks up and asks what you did. How does she know? And I cry with her on the phone and explain that this will be the last time, that I have blocked you and I can never look back, that this was the last time.

"Good," She says with strength I didn't know she had, didn't know I needed, "I'll be right over, and you can tell me everything."

#tw sui implied #tw sui #tw #tw self destruction

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New moon 🐜

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Ciceklii_gunlerr on ig

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after seeing your friends for a few hours sometimes u walk away and return home with a little ball of glowing golden light in your chest

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i need a setup like this and i NEED a cat

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i saw you in a dream then it came to an end

(find my art on instagram, twitter, inprnt: @jakeromanoart) 

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I hope it gets easier for you to live in the now. To remember that you're here, in the present moment, that you're safe, even if your mind is thinking of the worst case scenario. You will overcome every obstacle when they arrive, but right now, you can rest.

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Mud salamander By: Unknown photographer From: The Illustrated Encyclopedia of Animal Life 1961

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