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halfchewed-gus:

At her voice, Gus exhaled as he sat up. “Bit of an odd turn to end here. It’s barely a place you accidentally come across, is it?” He pulled his hood up to warm his ears. “What’re you doing out on your own?”

“I needed a walk.” She shrugged, drawing her arms around her body. “I just came right from the studio. Besides I could ask the same of you.”

#gus

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halfchewed-gus:

Gus stretched out across the park grass, staring up at the dimming sky. He’d taken a stroll, just for a breather. Time had been busy lately. Living with Tink was nice, but sure sometimes took it out of him. This was how he wanted his future to be though. It was all settle down and get itself together eventually. The place was so quiet that he heard the stranger approaching. “I know you’re there,” He called, not moving from his spot. “What do you want?

Mary had taken a walk that afternoon to try and find... something. She’d been spending all her days locked up in the studio unable to make anything at all. She’d hit a wall creatively and everything she tried just looked awful. But the lingering rays of the warm sun felt amazing on her skin. She’d barely even noticed the figure in the grass, much less recognized him until she was far too close. “Nothing. Sorry. Took a wrong turn I suppose.”

#gus

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I did yeah, I’ve almost accomplished everything I set out to do

So you had a very productive day then.”

#hannah

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Yeah I just- had to get work done.

That’s..pretty long.

#hannah #hi hi

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Yeah..... I’ve been here for about nine hours

#wwhchat

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I’ve met her you know? Your sister. She’s really lovely. [She leans her head on his shoulder] She’s a good model too, and helped me out in a pinch. Don’t worry though, I don’t think she knows that we’re-- [gestures between Sid and herself]

I know he wants what’s best for me, but it’s so frustrating. No one I like is ever good enough for him. It’s like I made one mistake, trusted one terrible guy and now, I’m finally moving on from that and he still won’t approve. I don’t know it makes me feel really bad about myself.

A couple of non-nose pickers, alright. You could almost say we make the perfect match.

If he was really your brother to begin with, wouldn’t he save the bitch fit for another time? [ takes a moment to reflect, before shaking his head ] Uh, actually. Nevermind; speaking as a brother myself, I take that back. I… definitely get where he’s coming from and all, but that sounds a little extreme. We all just want what’s best for our little sisters.

#sid

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Of course I think that. And I’m not a nose picker so as long as you’re not one, we should be good.

He isn’t like my brother. He is. Or was I guess- he told me not to call him that anymore.....

You really think that?

I never said you were perfect. And whatever it is, we’ll… I’ll deal with it, alright? I’m sure my feelings for you won’t dieter, flaws and all. [ raises an eyebrow, allowing a chuckle ] Unless you’re like, the worlds biggest nose picker, then we– then we might have a few things to work through. Mary, everyone fights with their best friend, I fight with mine like he’s my brother. Well, he is like my brother, but… we’ve had the worlds biggest fallouts because of me, and we always make it through it. 

#sid

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Well screw what the universe says. You have been nothing but good to me. You’re sweet and you respect what I want out of our... whatever we are. I don’t want you to be better. I want you to be you, because so far that’s plenty good enough for me.

You don’t know that. There’s some stuff from before that you don’t know about me. Plus I’ve just had a horrible argument with my best friend, said terrible things, and honestly, I don’t think he’s going to forgive me. And that’s terrifying, because even when people leave me on my own, I’ve always had him. Just- I’m not this perfect person everyone makes me out to be.

Look, I’m not… good for anyone, like, I’m the epitome of the worst thing that could possibly happen to them. If I don’t mess it up, something else will do it for me. I try not to be. I try to… be better. For my sister, for my friends… But nothing works; like the universe is telling me I’m not enough.

But you? You’re different. In every imaginable way possible.

#sid #ha ha ha the stuff is ur bff breaking my heart to pieces

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Gus told me as much. It’s why- We fought about it. He says you’re not good for me too. I don’t think anyone knows what’s good for me.

But I think that I’m the one that’s not good enough.

I… I, uh, it’s… it’s one of the reasons, yeah. It’s just… it’s complicated. Believe me.

And I shouldn’t like you as much as I do because of it. It’s not… it’s not good for you. I’m cancerous.

#sid

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Do you.... Is the reason that you don’t want to date me because you’re a Nightmare?

Because Tink sort of told me. I just don’t get why you didn’t...

Of course.

#sid

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Can I ask you something

That’s… that’s okay too. Yeah.

We don’t have to do anything.

#I'm already crying so i'm going for the angst #sid

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Honestly I don’t know what I want to do.

If that’s what you want. [ places a chaste kiss to her forehead, moving a hand to cup her face and ghosting over her cheek with his thumb soothingly.  ]

We don’t have to watch a movie… there’s plenty of other fun stuff we could do. Just say the word.

#sid

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You’re a great boyfriend, never said you weren’t. But you’re really shitty at being a brother sometimes. 

Sorry that we can’t all date someone as great as you. I’m too childish to date anyways.

Oh surprise surprise, my apology isn’t taken seriously. There’s a lot more to sex in a relationship actually and in case you didn’t notice, I’m doing fucking great at it. I just hope that one day you actually grow up. Good bye, you fucking child.

#gus

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I don’t really want to talk about it. Can we just... watch a movie or something?

“What? What’s with that look?”

#ur timing man #sid

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No. You’re not sorry. I’m sorry that we can’t all fuck our way into a loving and happy relationship, alright Angus? 

And as you’ve just told me, you don’t care about my love life, so stop trying to come in and tell me that people treat me like crap. Did you know that I figured that out for myself? 

Oh I do fucking apologies if I care enough about you that I want to make sure you’re with someone good for you and every guy you’ve gone with has been fucking shit. 

It doesn’t matter anyway. Apparently I’m the only one of us who can handle a proper relationship with someone who is actually good for me.

#i'm so #gus

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I don’t care whether you do it or not. I don’t want to hear about it. I don’t care whether you stop or not. I’m done caring and trying to do the brotherly thing of making sure you don’t get into a shit relationship. None of it’s happening anymore. I’m out, Mary.

#gus #i'm literally crying now i'm so

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Stop oh my gosh

Since when did you not wanting to know stop me?

Love of my life though.

I just said, didn’t I? I don’t want to know any of it anymore. I don’t care what happens.

#gus