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Nyaldur’s Gate 3 stickers are 🌟NOW LIVE🌟on my online shop!

NOTE: I now offer international shipping but on a separate website! Link for international customers is in my shop FAQ

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate #Astarion Ancunin #Lae'zel #Shadowheart #Wyll Ravengard #Gale Dekarios #Karlach Cliffgate #queue

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Peak humor

#ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #gabv1el #queue

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yknow what chilchuck deserved that sex ed talk maybe if someone told him about safe sex earlier he wouldn't of ended up divorced with 3 kids

#dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #queue

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if it was about 15 years ago i’d already have seen 12 different AMVs of chimera falin set to three days grace animal i have become on my feed but that just doesn’t happen anymore. because of woke

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My Muppet Princess Bride drawings found their way to Facebook and from that came a ton of good suggestions for scenes. Rizzo as a R.O.U.S. has been suggested by a lot of different folks for as long as I've been doing these drawings, but I was never quite sure how to handle the scene until a commenter suggested Rizzo's line. Maybe it resonated with me because I can kinda relate to Rizzo in this moment (especially so soon after Valentines Day!). Thanks to Paul Adams who provided Rizzo's line, and gave me permission to use it in this drawing.

And shout-out to movie-screencaps.com for providing the backgrounds, I like to edit shots from the movie for my backgrounds because it allows me to focus on the fun part of drawing Muppets. There's also just something fun about 'painting' the Muppets into the actual film.

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Ouuughh I thought the fact I got vit d and that I was feeling so tired meant the body spasms wouldn't come back tonight but I feel them starting to build up just as I'm starting to get actually tired

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Right as I was writing this I got the first spasm. Whyyyyy??

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Ugh. Starting to feel myself into the "stream blues" again. So far Gianni's have been a rare exception to the norm but I'm falling into a spiral. I'm gonna try and keep myself out of it because it becomes self fulfilling.

I get into a streamer or a fandom and I get energy from it being a new interest and create stuff and get a sort of semi social interaction from it. Then my fatigue catches up with me or I just hit the limit of the very superficial things I can create or accomplish At the end of the day, I can make a very small number of a very small sliver of types of things and by and large they're not impressive enough to be noteworthy to anyone. And they'll never be more than hobby pieces. I could never be part of a true artistic project. And so I could never make connections outside of extremely superficial ones with other artists or projects. I have nothing to contribute on a personal level and I can't make up for it with what I can make or provide due to a lack of energy and talent.

and so I start feeling shitty about how little I can do and the lack of meaningful connections with other human beings because of it. And I start feeling unworthy of being there or just overall like the gap between me and other people gets so wide it's worse to be there than not.

So I stop going to streams and it becomes self fulfilling and then I just get bummed out for a while. I don't know. It's self worth shit blended with chronic illness shit and it's always bad but I have to be glad for the positive moments I do have, even if they're short and few.

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"Vegan leather" babygirl that is plastic

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“Black-Briar Mead is just fine, if you need something to wash the dirt off a riding horse’s hooves.”

–Sabjorn

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#knew a girl in middle school named 'Akira' #white girl whose parents I don't think ever watched the movie #just saw a poster or something for it and thought 'what a beautiful baby girl's name' #but she was definitely named after the character

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L2 @ jump zero

#mass effect #kaidan alenko #kaidan my beloved

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Me: "can I be awake and not so exhausted I could cry?"

My body: "no"

Me: "then can I go back to sleep?"

My body,: "Also no"

#lie in bed getting right up to the point of falling asleep then jerk awake for the next hour then give up and go lie on the couch idiot