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Thinking of making a other tumblr. Just like how it use to be . No venting though lol

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Sometimes I don’t know what it’s like to be comforted by people . Like I don’t let anyone ever get close to me . I always had this type of issue but it’s like worse more then ever . I don’t ever come out of my shell . I’m always on guard , I don’t give hugs at all and just feel uncomfortable a lot more now then before when people get close to me . It’s like idk . Maybe I know what it is but I’m not going to force or push myself when I just feel uncomfortable.

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I was hanging out with a friend today and then we sat by beach by the shore by the waves and then I got this ptsd flashback of something . Just made me silent the rest of my day.

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wwe: WWE is saddened to learn that Windham Rotunda, also known as Bray Wyatt, passed away on Thursday, Aug. 24, at age 36. WWE extends its condolences to Rotunda’s family, friends and fans.

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It’s been a long time since I vented on here and it feels good but I guess since it’s been a while , why not . About two years ago I was hospitalized twice and was pretty sick . This year I’m trying not to get hospitalized again lol but I have been getting sick this past summer and trying really hard and so far i think I’m going back in track for the right direction . I lost 15 pounds without even trying because I was sick . I sort of needed to lose weight but it wasn’t the healthy way but atleast now I can tone myself and try to find a diet that I know I can eat because lately it’s been difficult eating lol .

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endless Witcher 3 scenery » 136/∞

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It feels good not being on here or having to vent . For many reasons I just find it’s not a good idea and I finally took that toxic habit off . I don’t really think it’s toxic because it does help some people , just for me and also the fact I found out someone was still watching me . I closed a lot of things in my life and feel good I don’t want to go back just keep moving forward . Sometimes I wish I can vent on here but I have other ways of expressing things and tried out new artistic styles like wood burning or getting into painting more and then writing songs as well . I’ll figure a way and I’m proud of myself of the long way I have come . I’m always evolving , transforming and growing . That’s what matter dispite all the struggles and distress . Universe is with me and I’ll find a way . So thank you universe . Thank you for always being with me , now to new chapters and more doors to open . Patience is key and I still have to be a lot more patient but the patient I am I know there’s more good things to come .

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Animated this for work a few months back but thought now would be a more appropriate time of the year to post it. Happy Halloween!

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Rhaeadr Fawr

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I hate indecisiveness and I like knowing what’s on my mind and know what I want and I want anyone surrounded by me know I’m there and I’m sure and that they can count on me .

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Do I want this? Yes. Do I need this? Also yes.

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“I want what she’s on.” The spectrum??

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Please can I have night vision? I love the dark, the dark is wonderful and calming and pretty and I am a wacky little vampire or I would be if I COULD SEE WHAT I’M DOING.