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I had a dream I was talking to this guy I met online. He was great. Handsome, sexy voice, hilarious... But then he started asking me to buy a VPN from a guy he knows. I also noticed his speech pattern changed like there were multiple people responding. I looked him up on social media and turns out he was a scammer trying to find my location.

Btw during this whole thing my mom was remodeling our bathrooms? She can't even do construction. I dont know what that was about.

Anyway, this dream is scary because I have been texting a guy I met online. He seems cool but his speech his pretty formal sometimes and for some reason it's bothering me. Maybe it's my intuition?

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That feel when drama knocks on the door and you consider letting it in because you're bored and dead inside and want to feel something but you recognize how unhealthy that is so you leave the door closed...yeah

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I just had a dream that I told my mom everything I really think about her and moved in with my brother. I wish it was that easy.

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It's gotten to the point that hopelessness is my only mood

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Hotel Dream

I had a dream that I was at my best friend's apartment shooting tiktoks. My brother was playing a prank that included drawing on her wood floors so I was objecting. My friend kicked everyone out and when I go outside there's a huge hotel.

The hotel is hosting a prom but there's also a bdsm ball that night. I go inside and see a sign listing what people at the BDSM party are into based on their outfits. I ignore it and keep going, eventually running into the owner. Apparently I work at this hotel? Or maybe I'm investigating it. I don't know but the owner seems to trust me even though I feel like I don't belong. This hotel is insane btw. She's giving me a tour and the floors move. Everything is colorful and patterned. There's a room that spontaneously tilts. Another room is just a giant bed but when you get under the covers there's a slide that leads to a secret room. So now we're in this secret room talking. She's giving some kind of villain speech as we watch the high school kids have a full on war. It's scene kids vs emo kids and they're just fucking each other up. Then there's a montage of the emo kids in the dark under a spotlight??? They're moving in slow motion, jumping at the camera, and showing off blue character paint on their faces.

Cut to a different dream. Im at my real life job. It's basically deserted but I'm worried because the managers keep making up stupid rules to "increase productivity" while ignoring the equipment problems that actually hinder productivity. I do my work and run into some guy with a very long African name. I don't know where we go but this becomes a sex dream very quickly.

And that's it. I wake up.

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God please don't let me become homeless again.

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Sometimes I look at other people's relationships with their families and friends and I just feel envy. My family isn't very close. We're all toxic to each other and don't really like being together. My relationship with my mom seems cool until you realize I can't actually tell her anything real for fear of how she'd react. My friends are great but I feel like I'm a burden to them. That's probably my fault though.

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Is that what that is?

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Weird Goth Bimbo dream

So to preface this I've been wondering of I'm bi for a while now. I just woke up from a dream where I was a white girl (I'm not) and there was a pretty Black goth girl (I am) stalking me.

She came to my balcony one night trying to make me smile. I locked the door and tried to go back to sleep because I dont fucking know this girl. Then I go to the bathroom and when I come out, she's in my hallway saying "I was just trying to show you this," and she does a handstand??? The next day she comes to my door and for some stupid reason - probably being a white girl in a horror movie - I INVITE HER IN MY APARTMENT!?!

There's an bunch of groceries in front of the door so I move them out the way, assuming they belong to my neighbor. She tells me she bought me some clothes and they're already in my closet. She wasnt sure what my size was so she snuck in to look. They're all crop tops and booty shorts and cropped jackets - goth bimbo fashion. I never wear booty shorts so I tell he that. She tells me to just try the clothes on and leaves. Somehow I end up falling for her??? But I can't tell my mom because she's a homophobic white woman and we're very close - just like my real life black mom, if I'm being honest.

Anyway mom and I go on a road trip through this cute little small town and there's a tall black man in a pink silk suit singing and playing chicken through traffic. My white mom eventually catches him they start play fighting. Apparently they know each other. He pushes her into the fountain in front of this huge craftsman house. So I push him in. Da fuq? We leave and I ask who that was as we get into the car. She says a name but I forget what it was.

We end up at this grocery store where my stalker goth bae shows up. She asks me if I like the clothes. I lie. She says "It's not that serious. There's no need to lie." Then my mom shows up. I hastily push goth bae into a rainbow cake. She gets upset and breaks up with me. Then I wake up.

#i can't explain this #what does this even mean

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Nice

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requested by lnmpoems

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My mother spent a lot of my childhood saying I should be thankful because she's not as physically abusive as her mother. She's still incredibly emotionally abusive though. Like yeah she doesn't hit me anymore, because I'm an adult, but she replaced it with gaslighting and emotional manipulation. I am extremely depressed and I feel trapped in my life. She's draining me physically, emotionally, and financially. I don't know what to do.

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So I have a lot of weird dreams/nightmares and I am heavily depressed so this will be my outlet until I forget I have it and abandon it.